goatsgotohell

I know you're so damn cold, numb to the world, but please put down that knife.
I feel that you're so fucking full of hurt inside, shaking from all the anger and the strife.
Running the blade down your arm won't take away all the feelings of pain.
It's your choice though, I won't stop you now, ain't even gonna try.
Watching the blood drip...
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Well, today I managed not to be the last person in the world to see Donnie Darko. The video store finally had it. For a small town and a small store, it always gets good movies, but it just isn't always as fast as I'd like.

I miss the old owner, I used to just give him a list of movies and games I wanted...
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I've been really happy lately, which is not normal for me.

I've started to come out of my shell, I've been talking to a lot of you on here, making new friends, being more vocal. I appreciate all of you who talk to me and are my friends. I appreciate you accepting my quirks and finding them amusing. I appreciate those of you who think...
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You hold my heart in your hand.
Yet you think of it as just a grain of sand.
You don't know how I feel.
How can I make you see it's real?
I love you,
Why can't you love me too?
I dream of being with you everyday.
Yet like the sand,
You let my heart slip away.

You heard me screaming, alone, under all the abuse
Buried alive by angry parents and their heavy fists.
You found me under all the years of pain and tears.
Smothered in self-blame, battered and bruised.
You dug me out, dusted me off, and pulled me into the light,
Promising to never let it all fall down on me again.

I need to stop looking for a girlfriend/girl to hang out with that isnt insane, I always have better luck when I just give up for awhile.

The only people I've met lately are either totally people who would drive me nuts and single...or really cool people who are in relationships. While it's nice to have fun ppl around you, it sucks when they all...
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Honey I'm home early!

I had a really good past few days.

I spent so much time playing with my nephew, it was so awesome. I love him so much. I'm almost not afraid of smaller children now because of him. I love kids, but kids who aren't semi self efficient, they scare me. I was never around actual infants to the point that I...
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Hey everyone, I'm going to be gone for awhile.

I'm going to stay with my sister and brother in law to help with some landscaping, I'll be without net for the rest of the week. *BLAH*

I should be home Saturday at some point, so I hope you all have a great week(end).

Pretend you missed me when I get back, I'd appreciate it.

Anyways,...
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I'm going shopping with my mom, sister, and nephew.

I hope everyone has a good day.

I'm soooo happy! JOY!

My uncle returned a tape he borrowed from me God knows how many years ago, 10 I'd guess, before he had kids I know. It has like 6 hours of Ren and Stimy shows taped on it, the old good ones that nobody ever plays, so I'm stoked. I'm going to stay up and watch them all, booyah!

What rolls down...
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