$1.50 highballs at chicago's last night.
twas awesome. I danced for the majority of the night.
..speaking of dancing. Keith's MSN name is "Dance naked in the snow"
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i want to tell him that i did just that the other day. i spun cartwheels and there are Diana Footprints in otherwise virgin snow. Footprints that are 7 inches deep and you can clearly see...
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twas awesome. I danced for the majority of the night.
..speaking of dancing. Keith's MSN name is "Dance naked in the snow"
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i want to tell him that i did just that the other day. i spun cartwheels and there are Diana Footprints in otherwise virgin snow. Footprints that are 7 inches deep and you can clearly see...
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Spent some time with Megan. That's always very nice. We may be shooting a menstrual themed photoset in the snow. For Bella Vendetta. Kristen, the creator of BV is very excited about this.
megan's also given me beautiful gifts of lush-y goodness. I will need to go to the lush NA forum and brag.
had a good talk with Keith. *barf* i know i know....
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megan's also given me beautiful gifts of lush-y goodness. I will need to go to the lush NA forum and brag.
had a good talk with Keith. *barf* i know i know....
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phraktyl:
You, dear, are amazing, and I knew there was a package I hadn't unwrapped yet this holiday season.
Quite simply, you are exquisite. The lighting in this photo brings out so much. Things I love about the image:
- The wisps of hair that caress your neck
- The half-look you are giving over your shoulder that shows you know we are watching, but aren't going to give us the satisfaction of acknowledging us
- Yet again, the way your creamy, pale skin brings out the savage red trickles of blood, and even more how the bright red blood shows off your near-perfect skin
And I love how seeing that image of you makes me want to pull you close, stroke your hair, and whisper, "it's all over," while I gently tend to the marks that mar your beautiful back; but at the same time know that you revel in the delicious pain that bring the marks, and want to take over, and give to you pleasure more intense than you have ever known.
Most pictures are worth a thousand words, but this one is worth a thousand times that.
Thank you.
Not that I can concentrate on anything else at the moment, but my first love was the same way. I kept all of her notes, letters and photos even after I was married, until my now-ex-wife found them one day and took it upon herself to get rid of them. The girl that was my first love and I still talk to each other. And although we have been through a lot of things recently, she will always have a special place in my heart.
I can't wait until BV goes live.
PS: Did you get my e-mail?
Quite simply, you are exquisite. The lighting in this photo brings out so much. Things I love about the image:
- The wisps of hair that caress your neck
- The half-look you are giving over your shoulder that shows you know we are watching, but aren't going to give us the satisfaction of acknowledging us
- Yet again, the way your creamy, pale skin brings out the savage red trickles of blood, and even more how the bright red blood shows off your near-perfect skin
And I love how seeing that image of you makes me want to pull you close, stroke your hair, and whisper, "it's all over," while I gently tend to the marks that mar your beautiful back; but at the same time know that you revel in the delicious pain that bring the marks, and want to take over, and give to you pleasure more intense than you have ever known.
Most pictures are worth a thousand words, but this one is worth a thousand times that.
Thank you.
Not that I can concentrate on anything else at the moment, but my first love was the same way. I kept all of her notes, letters and photos even after I was married, until my now-ex-wife found them one day and took it upon herself to get rid of them. The girl that was my first love and I still talk to each other. And although we have been through a lot of things recently, she will always have a special place in my heart.
I can't wait until BV goes live.
PS: Did you get my e-mail?
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wottan:
Hmm..whts that tattoo of?
freakqueen:
a butterfly !
i love butterflies
i love butterflies
A rant.
A big fat, fucking rant.
I'm unsure of where to start.. but believe me. Once i do, i won't have any problem continuing.
all the honest comments i got the other day struck home. My bmezine journal doesn't lie. But my SG journal does. A lot.
Why? Because non-members can read my entries. But i need an online journal that i will keep...
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A big fat, fucking rant.
I'm unsure of where to start.. but believe me. Once i do, i won't have any problem continuing.
all the honest comments i got the other day struck home. My bmezine journal doesn't lie. But my SG journal does. A lot.
Why? Because non-members can read my entries. But i need an online journal that i will keep...
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freakqueen:
LMAO!!!!
i like the boys. I have an insty crush on Rubella.
random keith comment : i'm sure there will be boys that are more perfect for me. but that relationship was really the most beautiful.
i like the boys. I have an insty crush on Rubella.
random keith comment : i'm sure there will be boys that are more perfect for me. but that relationship was really the most beautiful.
coolheart:
Well then, go forth with you and allow those creative juices to ooze from you.
i was a fool to think that i could avoid mind games, manipulation and lies just by cleansing myself of them.
It also turns out that i'm not so clean.
i have far too many friends that live their lives by deceit and manipulation of others. And hiding secrets and plotting and telling you what you want to hear... only because they know thats what...
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It also turns out that i'm not so clean.
i have far too many friends that live their lives by deceit and manipulation of others. And hiding secrets and plotting and telling you what you want to hear... only because they know thats what...
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trebo:
Playing mind games I hate that shit! That's part of the reason I'm not involved in a relationship. Always telling you what you want to hear and finding out it was lies! "I love you. You mean the world to me. You're nice sweet funny, Oh by the way I'm pregnant and it's not yours 
!!!" That little scenario happened twice !!
People don't know how to be honest. My philosophy in relationships/friendships is this You want to be with me be with me. If you want to be my friend be my friend. It's nice and simple! I hope you BE YOURSELF.
!!!" That little scenario happened twice !!
People don't know how to be honest. My philosophy in relationships/friendships is this You want to be with me be with me. If you want to be my friend be my friend. It's nice and simple! I hope you BE YOURSELF.
abracadabra:
teh..everyone has thier own agenda..as long as you are getting shit in yer own life done and having fun , life is good..salut
-doot-
broke up with cam
keith and i got into an argument today regarding whether or not i called him while he was in Vernon.
...i did NOT call him. I emailed him. Once.
he accused me of lying...
.............hmm, i think i'd remember calling someone i purposely didn't call..............
of course i didn't say that cuz i don't want him to think he's important....
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broke up with cam
keith and i got into an argument today regarding whether or not i called him while he was in Vernon.
...i did NOT call him. I emailed him. Once.
he accused me of lying...
.............hmm, i think i'd remember calling someone i purposely didn't call..............
of course i didn't say that cuz i don't want him to think he's important....
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abracadabra:
i gave up playing head games years ago...when people start accusing you of lying to them..you just gotta laugh and tell them to get over their own insecurities and find a good shrink...seriously..there are billlions of people on this planet ...why do people get hung up on just one???..just have fun and enjoy life while you are still around...on that note..we should have drinks and hang out..i only live in seattle..don't worry,i have a gf so it would be for fun..i love vancouver..maybe in the spring on the beach???...peace and happy joy joy..
the_mad_monk:
Maybe he was drunk and thought someone else was you???
Either way i got your back sweety, we'll kick his ass!!!
Either way i got your back sweety, we'll kick his ass!!!
Merry Christmas
just had a flashback to an old convo that me and my friend jessica had.
aliens would probably think we're crazy for cutting down a tree and carrying it indoors.
flowers.. understandable. But a tree? they're probably thinking "where do you people get off on this?!"
if anyone's a member of IAM / bmezine.. you should check out my journal i am anonymosity...
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just had a flashback to an old convo that me and my friend jessica had.
aliens would probably think we're crazy for cutting down a tree and carrying it indoors.
flowers.. understandable. But a tree? they're probably thinking "where do you people get off on this?!"
if anyone's a member of IAM / bmezine.. you should check out my journal i am anonymosity...
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paolodesade:
Thanks for sharing, hope you got some.
A toast: Raise your glass(mine is mead tonight) May your highs be unbelievably high, and your lows devistatingly low so that you may better appreciate the good things that come your way. Happy New Year to you and yours.
mmm...Mead. What a wonderful way to get drunk, just wish I was getting laid, then it would be a perfect night.
A toast: Raise your glass(mine is mead tonight) May your highs be unbelievably high, and your lows devistatingly low so that you may better appreciate the good things that come your way. Happy New Year to you and yours.
mmm...Mead. What a wonderful way to get drunk, just wish I was getting laid, then it would be a perfect night.
freakqueen:
omg.
i forgot to mention that this is megan's backyard and beyond the fence is a golf course.
while doing a photoset in her bedroom, we had the windows wide open cuz natural light is so better than the kind that comes from wires and resistors.
it was my first photoset and it was most memorable.
i forgot to mention that this is megan's backyard and beyond the fence is a golf course.
while doing a photoset in her bedroom, we had the windows wide open cuz natural light is so better than the kind that comes from wires and resistors.
it was my first photoset and it was most memorable.
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trebo:
I hope Santa gave you everything you wanted!
freakqueen:
i hope so too!
i have to wait unitl mom gets home from work to open gifts... yay for anticipation
i have to wait unitl mom gets home from work to open gifts... yay for anticipation
whoa.
i sometimes forget how long megan and i have been friends for. And the things we've been through. Everything from pepper spraying grade 8's to my past girlfriend tori.
who used to try to undress me and grope me in public. Oh yeah. Memories.
anyway, just realized that megan has an extraordinary memory for detail. And that most of my close friends do. Cuz...
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i sometimes forget how long megan and i have been friends for. And the things we've been through. Everything from pepper spraying grade 8's to my past girlfriend tori.
who used to try to undress me and grope me in public. Oh yeah. Memories.
anyway, just realized that megan has an extraordinary memory for detail. And that most of my close friends do. Cuz...
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psyko514:
i've got mostly acquaintances... but i do have a best friend. i've known him for almost 10 years now and we've been through a lot together. i don't get to see him as much as i'd like to, but we're always there for each other when needed.
megan sounds like a pretty awesome friend
megan sounds like a pretty awesome friend
freakqueen:
ACK! i can't believe you guys read my entire rant!
i feel so special
i feel so special
torq
this boy hates it when i write about him
we didn't have sex
we got drunk and watched a movie and walked a couple of miles and then came back to my place and fell asleep.
this morning was the best morning ever.
or at least the best morning in a very long time
i woke up late and torquil woke up to me...
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this boy hates it when i write about him
we didn't have sex
we got drunk and watched a movie and walked a couple of miles and then came back to my place and fell asleep.
this morning was the best morning ever.
or at least the best morning in a very long time
i woke up late and torquil woke up to me...
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i am sad.
and i hate being that girl sobbing her eyes out in the locked bathroom stall. And i dislike being the girl gripping her arm hoping to seal the cut via razor blade so she won't get blood all over herself.
i want to puke because i'm so nauseous with emotion.
i hate you. i really truly do.
my mind is hazy and...
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and i hate being that girl sobbing her eyes out in the locked bathroom stall. And i dislike being the girl gripping her arm hoping to seal the cut via razor blade so she won't get blood all over herself.
i want to puke because i'm so nauseous with emotion.
i hate you. i really truly do.
my mind is hazy and...
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trebo:
Emotions races upward...
Love hate spew from her being
damage is sudden and climatic
Love and Hate are tied together
One not able to live without the other...
they spawn pain...
Pain grabs her and shakes her...
Not letting go...
She bleeds for noone but pain...
It's her only companion
Her cries pierce my soul
Eruptions of emotions will subside..
Like the pain
After all said and done...
Life will go on...and...
HER BEAUTY WILL REMAIN!
You are beautiful
Love hate spew from her being
damage is sudden and climatic
Love and Hate are tied together
One not able to live without the other...
they spawn pain...
Pain grabs her and shakes her...
Not letting go...
She bleeds for noone but pain...
It's her only companion
Her cries pierce my soul
Eruptions of emotions will subside..
Like the pain
After all said and done...
Life will go on...and...
HER BEAUTY WILL REMAIN!
You are beautiful
paolodesade:
That which does not kill us makes us stronger. Hang in there and survive, some day YOU will be invincible.
*read it slowly, over and over and over, until it gives you strength. It has got me through many more painful times than I can count.
*read it slowly, over and over and over, until it gives you strength. It has got me through many more painful times than I can count.
w00t! glad to hear everyone enjoyed the christmas party.
*sigh* i did leave rather early... had work the next day... But if i had known i was going to miss out on a limo ride and breakfast at Denny's.. i would've pulled an all-nighter.
retrospect can be a cruel thing
M. is good. Sarcastic and bitchy as always.
.............
Made an ass out of myself...
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*sigh* i did leave rather early... had work the next day... But if i had known i was going to miss out on a limo ride and breakfast at Denny's.. i would've pulled an all-nighter.
retrospect can be a cruel thing
M. is good. Sarcastic and bitchy as always.
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Made an ass out of myself...
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godlessnerd:
werd up homes... hey editor, do you know what happened to my erotica book?
maliki:
thats a tasty pic...
that day fucking rocked.