I need to say something but I dont know what it is, I dont know how to say it, Im not even sure when or if you will get this message. But I need to do something about this pain in my stomache and chest. I know nothing I can say will console you but that wont stop me trying I am a stubborn person... Read More
Thought long and hard about it wracking my brain what is it that is making me so sad and then I hit me like a bolt of lightning. The fucking pain meds. only thing I can think of, they make me loopy and I dont like it. So I am cutting them out and just going to bear the pain. What is a little pain... Read More
I have become an emotional rollercoaster since wednesday. Im not sure exatly why learning whay I did broke me from being a very happy person into a crying mess. Best I can figure it was the straw that broke the camels back. I lost my great grandmother late last year and two uncles in the same week a few years back. I couldn't cry then... Read More
Well this weekend is a bust had to deal with emmisions yesterday have a BBQ today and mothers day tommarow only plus is the people at the bbq are all my fighting buddies so even though Im on the disabled list we can have some fun. Looks like having to wait another week till I can look for my cinderella.
Ever wish you didn't care about someone else? I learnd about a friends pain from years ago and though I have never seen her in person. I am devistated and can't get past it. I hate myself for it. I know im stronger than this so why is it kicking my ass. Cant help thinking about it. Eating me alive. I didn't feel this bad... Read More