I am tired of depression. I am tired of feeling like I am nothing but crap all of the time. This is the most truth full I have been in a long time. I am just sick of hating myself and just feeling like I could get no lower. I need help. BUt when I have gotten help before, it really did no good. I...
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okay...thank you for putting up with me yesterday. I feel better today. I just needed to rant a little.
I am happy to be home for the weekend. I am going to be bored tonight as I write. SO PLEASE WRITE TO ME ON ANY IM. I am begging you.
I am sorry for last night. I love you all.
I am happy to be home for the weekend. I am going to be bored tonight as I write. SO PLEASE WRITE TO ME ON ANY IM. I am begging you.
I am sorry for last night. I love you all.
voldenae:
You beat me to the punch...damns...
So yea...if your bored, hit me up, lata hun!!!
So yea...if your bored, hit me up, lata hun!!!
zoos:
fine art, as in, your own self-portait. 
God, I am tried of it. I am tired of women and their fucking games. I am taking myself off of the market peroid. Yes I am still single, but I am sorry, women have just pissed me off so fucking much.
Yes I know that it is fucked up that I am writing about it on Suicidegirls.com, but oh the fuck well.
I just...
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Yes I know that it is fucked up that I am writing about it on Suicidegirls.com, but oh the fuck well.
I just...
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zoos:
hey hey hey.... don't take your anger out on women. besides you should never put yourself out on the market anyway, because that means just any old hag can try to buy you, and that's your problem. keep it to closed auctions and stop loking for a potential buyer. sometime the right one will come along who can really appreciate fine art. ;-)
okay boys and girls, it is sunday at 2:02 am. I am getting tired, but I don't know if I will be able to update "Tomorrow" when I get up.
I have some good news. One of my pieces of art work is going to be in a documentry. I am very excited about that. I have been talking to the girl who is doing...
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I have some good news. One of my pieces of art work is going to be in a documentry. I am very excited about that. I have been talking to the girl who is doing...
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bebe:
ohhhhh...how I wish someone would rub ice cream all over my face to bring my fever down 
strawberry is my favorite, esp. haagen daz strawberry. yummy!
congrats on your piece getting some publicity! what sort of documentary is it?
strawberry is my favorite, esp. haagen daz strawberry. yummy!
congrats on your piece getting some publicity! what sort of documentary is it?
kitsuneluvsyuki:
it was fucking freezing 
i'm good, workin a lot though. i don't really get to hang out on here anymore.
i'm good, workin a lot though. i don't really get to hang out on here anymore.
Okay, it is friday and time for an update.
I finally got my car fixed for once and for all. Thank god. I need it for work.
Hey, if there is anyone in the Kansas city area who wants to hang out tomorrow night, then please let me know. I am going to be bored off my ass. I am either thinking about writing or...
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I finally got my car fixed for once and for all. Thank god. I need it for work.
Hey, if there is anyone in the Kansas city area who wants to hang out tomorrow night, then please let me know. I am going to be bored off my ass. I am either thinking about writing or...
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saffrie:
sorry i havnt written to u in agessss...ive been busy uni life arrgh n turnin 20 all at once sigh...everyone keeps on tellin me 10 more yrs till 30...hah thanks guys like i really wanna hear that!...
ooooh n thats excitin about ur new boook...i had no idea u wer a writer hmm well i better b off lots of comments to catch up on!!
xxxxxxx
u shud take water pics tooo ther really entertainin in more ways then one hah!
ooooh n thats excitin about ur new boook...i had no idea u wer a writer hmm well i better b off lots of comments to catch up on!!
xxxxxxx
u shud take water pics tooo ther really entertainin in more ways then one hah!
midnyte:
I don't download anything
Well...I got the second book done on Sunday and sent it to the publishers on monday, so I am very happy about that. As well as I have started a new painting. I am joining this with the very beautiful, very stunning suicidegirl Jackie and so I am very excited. I am not saying anything else about it for now, so you will just have...
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silentassassin:
How can you not like Bush with all his intelligent speeches and witty repartee? Haha...
I leave you with a few Bushisms for you to laugh at:
"Those who enter the country illegally violate the law."
"Wow! Brazil is big." --George W. Bush, after being shown a map of Brazil by Brazilian president Luiz Inacio Lula da Silva, Brasilia, Brazil, Nov. 6, 2005
"And the second way to defeat the terrorists is to spread freedom. You see, the best way to defeat a society that is -- doesn't have hope, a society where people become so angry they're willing to become suiciders, is to spread freedom, is to spread democracy."
I leave you with a few Bushisms for you to laugh at:
"Those who enter the country illegally violate the law."
"Wow! Brazil is big." --George W. Bush, after being shown a map of Brazil by Brazilian president Luiz Inacio Lula da Silva, Brasilia, Brazil, Nov. 6, 2005
"And the second way to defeat the terrorists is to spread freedom. You see, the best way to defeat a society that is -- doesn't have hope, a society where people become so angry they're willing to become suiciders, is to spread freedom, is to spread democracy."
liv:
aww lovely pic with the kids
Well, okay, I had a pretty good day today. Went out to my parent's house and worked on my car, so MOST of it is fixed now, just have to either clean the fuel fuilter or get a new one. We did have a cook out tonight where we roasted hot dogs and made smores. That was fun. Oh and the kids got another kittie...
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silentassassin:
Sounds like you've been busy. Congrats on finishing your book.
you know...I don't really know what to say. I am still sitting at home looking for work. I get really worried about not working because I fear that I will not be able to provide for the kids. That is why I have sent them over to their grandparent's house these past few days, to make sure that they have something to eat and what...
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lelaina:
is there any possibilty of reuniting with Ami??
no its not too much to ask, everybody needs somebody
hugs xx
no its not too much to ask, everybody needs somebody
hugs xx
god, I feel worthless. FUcking US Bank Let me go today. THey clamed that I talked to someone about my hourly wage there. That is bullshit. They were going to make me an asst. manager of their Point of Sales support team at the start of the year. That would mean I would be making about $20/hour. Now, as a single father of two, why...
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linoleum:
Lelaina's right!!
silentassassin:
I think we both know that being let down and having to struggle to get what it is that we need or want is all part of life and learning. I have faith in the fact that you can pull through this one. I mean you've been through rougher times before and look at yourself!!
chin up!
chin up!
bored. I am going to go see Social D and Placebo tomorrow night. Should be a fun time. I hope to take photos, but there is no promises.
I miss my kids. They are with their mother tonight and I get them back tomorrow, but that will be after the show, and I almost doubt that I will be able to see them before hand....
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I miss my kids. They are with their mother tonight and I get them back tomorrow, but that will be after the show, and I almost doubt that I will be able to see them before hand....
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Blah.
It is sunday morning, and I wish I was not up this early. However, what can one really do? I need to be heading out in a half hour to go to my parents house and then to Lawrence to get some shit done. God it would be a lot better if I had someone to join me in this outing, but oh well....
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It is sunday morning, and I wish I was not up this early. However, what can one really do? I need to be heading out in a half hour to go to my parents house and then to Lawrence to get some shit done. God it would be a lot better if I had someone to join me in this outing, but oh well....
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toxii:
aw no need to worry hun. <3
toxii:
it was a very good show. thank you. they were amazing, like they always have been.
Wouldn't you know it, I got the job with less than half of the interview done. It was nice. I am excited.
So thank you all for your wishes about the job...it worked.
I need to get two things fixed asap. I need to get my car and my Ipod fixed...in that order. Both are still usable, but annoying. HA.
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So thank you all for your wishes about the job...it worked.
I need to get two things fixed asap. I need to get my car and my Ipod fixed...in that order. Both are still usable, but annoying. HA.
GIVE ME SOME MUSIC TO...
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meow:
...uh... that's it. 
I am also tired of depression. Currently I'm taking vitamins and herbal goodness for it, because the fluoxetine fucked me over. St John's Wort and 5-HTP (5-hydroxytryptophan) - they take a week or so to work, but they're much nicer to your system than the drugs are.
Of course this is all advice which is much easier to give than take. If you want to chat though, you know where I am - PM or email if you want to rant, I can take it