fische

My thoughts for today are about fisting...
Currently reading Intimate Diary of a London Call Girl...and one of the blogs is all about fisting. And how guys think it's really hot, but in reality it's really difficult to do. I am so glad I'm not the only person who just doesn't get it. Whywhywhy? How does a fist even fit in someone's vagina?!
And that's...
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Drank possiby my body weight in Mojito's and vodka last night...haven't not been that drunk in a long time. Lots of dancing with a school friend I haven't seen in months and months. Totally paying the price of it today...look and feel disgusting. All that can save me now is the boyfriend making me pasta bake for tea, and curling up with him and the...
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I wish i could erase about 4 years worth of memories. Things i've said, mistakes i made, choices I chose. I wish I could erase over three quarters of the people I've slept with. I was a horrible person. Thinking about alot of the past really, really makes me dislike who I used to be. But what really frustrates me is that I had alot...
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Best 24 hours in a long time.

new hair...sunshine...de-cluttering...dieting...comparing life now to that of four years ago...finally letting myself cry for what seemed like an hour on my boyfriend...I feel a bit lighter.

I ma back to being a redhead. Definately prefer it this way

fed up of feeling all lonely. and fed up of feeling unwanted. and definately fed up of hearing myself complain, like a broken fucking record. I bore myself, god knows what i do to other people

Frustration.

I am officially exhausted. I wish there was a handbook for babies; i dunno what I'm doing wrong.
On the plus side, definately appreicating being able to drink wine again. It helps all things.

Can't wait till im able to get tattooed and pierced again. 4 Months to go...