Tuesday May 26, 2009

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sometimes, talking with friends is the worst thing I can do for my recovery...

*bangs head against wall repeatedly*
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hyndrix:
Trying to find one that I feel suits me best. When I started this, I just picked something without thought, and later I'm like..ehh it doesn't work. Plus I have no impulse control hah.
toez:
i'm totally not really moving there lol. the hubbster would never go back for more than a weekend

Monday May 25, 2009

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Asking for the help i need has been one of the hardest things I've ever done.
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raynne:
i dunno I look like the female version of teen wolf when i wake up! hahahha... minus the chest hair of course
itsybitsy:
well... at this very moment - nothing. while i'm in school i bike/walk anywhere from 5-10 miles a day. i am going to kind of start up a biking/yoga schedule after i get my bike fixed. and then maybe add some floor exercise and a little light weigh lifting to the mix depending.

Sunday May 24, 2009

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feelin fine.

not a care in the world.













(thank god nobody read my last blog...)
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peloroja:
Thank goodness someones feeling good My weekend has been freaking insane eeek
just12345:
"Where did he serve for Basic?"

Fort Knox, KY. he does his mos training there, too.

Sunday May 24, 2009

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Last night wasn't good.

The whole evening kinda blew, really.

And I have nobody to blame except me and my goddamn mental issues.

Took a visiting friend into Sacramento, to stay with another couple friends for the weekend.

Had a great time. Went to the county fair. Still had a great time.

Until I got one of those minute-long free massages. Damn near broke into...
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ladyaurale:
Cutting yourself off from people isn't going to fix a damned thing.
It'll only serve to make you feel more miserable and isolated.
And trust me, I know.
There's nothing wrong with having a bad night.
That kinda shit happens to everyone, and if they're your friends then they understand that.
I won't tell you to cheer up cause I'd like to hit people when they tell me that... but don't go running away to hide. You'll only worry your friends more.

Take care of yourself damnit *hugs*
hemah:
god damn i know how you feel.
but i also agree with the ladies above me that pushing people away isn't gonna solve anything. even though it totally seems like it will o,o...
and i know how you feel about being around people who are in love and all that bull shit. i was in a hardcore engagement before we broke it off months ago and until recently, i couldn't even see my parents sitting on the couch together without feeling nauseous. but just think how much more complicated things would be if you had someone else while you're emotions are haywire all the time. it isn't pleasant. and you end up dragging that person down with you. i've done that and it just makes u feel worse. be glad you only have to worry about yourself at the moment.

and the funny thing about car keys is they make great blades. ask my legs
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much luv!
hang in thar! kiss

Wednesday May 20, 2009

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akila:
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ricci:
Fucking ow indeed! Its more painful for guys too!
Did you get both done at the same time? xx

Wednesday May 20, 2009

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I need busy days. They keep my mind off of the shit that's fucking my brain up.

Today is a good, busy day.

Gonna start hanging with a new workout buddy. Take a good, long walk, start getting into even better shape.

Once I recover from that, it's time to put in the new Dishwasher.

LATER, I head into San Francisco to meet up with...
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deathkitten:
eeek OUCH!!!!!! eeek .... Although... I would probably pick nipple piercing over putting in a dishwasher ....

How was the walk?
ladyaurale:
Sounds like lots and lots of fun.
I'm debating some new holes this summer as well.

Monday May 18, 2009

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Christ....

dude can't even have a shitty depression night without havin the cops called.

first time in weeks I've gotten to sleep without prescription assistance, and now there's no way I'll be able to get back to sleep...





if you're wondering what happened to start all this, read my last blog
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comixbookgurl:
i have to go take care of some family issues.. >_<
pinkcrystal:
thank you dear , I'm kind of sick of dating but I like to have sex so I have to what I have to do tongue
I'm depresive too it's a big issue

good luck

xoxo

Monday May 18, 2009

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Started Paxil today.

I hope to fucking GOD that it works.

I can not live like this anymore.

if it doesn't work, I don;t know what the hell I'll do...








the last time I was this bad, the only thing that kept me going was not being able to figure out how to make it look like an accident, so my insurance would pay out....
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desdmonia:
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kay:
Just make sure that you do not just stop taking the medication without a doctors assistance. Trust me on this.

~cheers

Monday May 18, 2009

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Had an incredible night last night.

Picked up a dear dear friend from SFO.

She & I spent hours talking. About her marital problems. About my mental issues. About the weather and movies and happiness.

About our mutual level of trust - 100%. I know that she'll never hurt me, and she knows I'll never hurt her. She & I have a deeper connection than...
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marvel:
That's nice to hear smile
poopypest:
Thank you wink

Sunday May 17, 2009

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peck:
definetly, summer is comming!!!!!!
scotty:
Thank you biggrin
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