Sunday Jun 07, 2009

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What I said before about having a good day?

never mind.

I made the mistake of actually being happy.

Luckily, a friend pointed out to me just what an asshole I am.

And another pointed out that I'll never be anything more than "good enough for now, but even then..."

So yeah, I cut myself.

I don't really care.
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_margot_:
I'm at around 107 now, I was 150 about 6 years ago.

My goal weight is around 100-105..and my stupid body says no
exning:
id try asking the groups or boards cuz i live in san jose haha

Sunday Jun 07, 2009

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For the first time in far longer than I can admit to, I felt not only not-ugly, but actually wanted.

I know I'll never be anyone's Mister Right, but god help me, it felt so rewarding to be something as simple as Mister Right Now.
peloroja:
Glad youre feeling a little better.
peloroja:
You're in the group. I think I know you enough my dear! wink Come say hi and introduce yourself PISCES

Saturday Jun 06, 2009

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At least one more friend lost, maybe two, because everyone fucking insists that I should talk when I'm depressed, and not just stay away.

I can't do this anymore. I can't keep losing my friends because of how fucked up I am.

From now on, if anyone asks how I am, I lie. Tell them I'm fine.

deal with this shit on my own.

win...
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aluka:
thank you for the welcome in V & E , nice to meet you too smile
praesepe:
Hello, thanks for the add. Sorry things are hard for you right now, hope it gets better.

Friday Jun 05, 2009

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uch...

I hate feeling so alone.

When I need friends most is when I'm least able to get any.

I'm in no mental condition to go out and meet people.

stoopud goddamn depression
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rockgirl0204:
If im not there for myself who be there for me ?but if im only for myself than who am i? and if not now that when ?

besides this being a ink on my arm that is something that guides me every day !

Dont give up on yourself


poopypest:
kiss kiss

Friday Jun 05, 2009

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uch...

I hate feeling so alone.

When I need friends most is when I'm least able to get any.

stoopud goddamn depression
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peloroja:
I hea ya bro. Im feeling the same way today. You're not alone.
sfaery:
Thank you hun. Thank you a lot, bad bad day here and you helped a bit.

/hugs

Thursday Jun 04, 2009

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Had a good night last night.

Hung out with old friends.

For someone who's been feeling so totally alone for so long, it was a hell of a thing!

And it's going to be a regular thing, too.

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padam:
Wooo! We're partying in my head, so it's all good. Hehe.

I'm sure we'll both get jobs, if only to fund our SG accounts.
padam:
Why thank you, dollface wink

Wednesday Jun 03, 2009

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I'm going to die alone.

I know it.

EVERYONE I know is either married, dating or attached in some form.

me?

I'm stuck in a shit life, in a shit situation that I can't get out of. I can't date. I'd eventually have to take her home.

I can't. The reasons don't matter. Yeah, mom's sick, can't work anymore, and I'm the good fucking son....
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onie:
ha.. I used to be a stripper, and have no plans of doing that again.. but poling is definitely for me.. I love it!! Its harder than you'd think (or at least I originally thought) but its soo much fun. smile

also.. its really too hard to speculated what will happen a year from now let alone 50, so maybe you should just stop with the assumptions and see what life gives you one day at a time, no?! wink
glitch23:

TO be fair, anyone who feels the need to judge you on a living arrangement that even you are not happy to be with, is noone you'd really want to spend the rest of your life with right?

I live with my sister, yes, i'd like to move out, but she needs the help with her mortgage at the moment, so i just suck it up, get on with life and try not to think about what could be, only what is.


Never say never mate, i thought i'd be single whilst living with sis, not so, i've dated a fetish model and a musician since moving in. Plus with you, as you said YOU'RE THE GOOD FUCKING SON who is looking after his sick mum, to most girls i know in the UK, that is a HUGE plus.

(but i do feel for you on all your mates being coupled off, I'm exactly the same at the mo)

Monday Jun 01, 2009

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karianne:
I like the facial hair ^.^
peloroja:
Eyes eyes eyes. very nice kiss

Saturday May 30, 2009

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Why is it so damn hard for me to believe that people give a shit about me?
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punkie:
awww! thanks, you are my friend boo!! smile im working on getting a better camera soon!! o and i've been having a similar problem with ppl not giving a shit about me or anything that affects me frown it sucks really bad
karianne:
Because you're overly pessimistic? :-(

Saturday May 30, 2009

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i just need to stop trying
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punkie:
hey thanks for the comment smile things just suck at the moment for a lot of us
hannelore:
Haha, you're silly. But yeah, it's probably a good thing you didn't phrase it any of the ways you originally tried to, I would have just gotten mad. LOL

Thanks for the offer of the ear. We'll see.

Friday May 29, 2009

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It's Friday.

The week is over.

Tonight I take a dear friend out to dinner

EDIT - Or maybe not.....

Tomorrow (or maybe sunday) I get to hang out with an old girlfriend. We're even going to compare nipple piercings biggrin

In my little world, things have been undeniable bad as of late, but they're really starting to look up!
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di_xia:
thanks bb i hope like u my set....thanks for u comment and u support
kraven:
Thanks hun! Fingers crossed!!!!! I am glad you like what you can see so far! I only hope the whole set lives up to expectations! Have a great weekend!

Wednesday May 27, 2009

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fuck

one of my very very very best friends is going thru an ugly divorce.

Because of it, and the fact that her soon-to-be ex has friends all over the internet, spying on her for him, she's cutting herself off of almost all communication until the divorce is settled. Minimum of two months.

She lives in Tennessee, I'm in California. I hate like fuck that...
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contessla:
Haha, Amen for the Handicap tag! I hate the fucking 409148023948 mile walk to the gate! Yeah man, for sure. It will be my Mom and I kickin' it old school basically. She loves anyone and everyone...So it will be pimp shizzle!
pinkcrystal:
that sound bad ,I hope everyhting gets better
I put a little preview of my set comming up on june 9th ^^
have a great day
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