eireann

Fuck.

I'm getting transferred.

AGAIN.

I am being transferred back to the branch I left. Sucks, but also good... less time sitting around bored.
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The vibration of your touch and the sweet tenderness of your kiss is exactly what my dreams are made of
and you take away my fear that this is synthetic steadfast sympathies of loneliness.
the room fades and it is
only
you
only
me
here in this symphony of...
my sorrow for the morrow and your joy for the moment.
your eyes dance with my...
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And... the past few days have been a little crazy.
I got a text message on Thursday morning from Sean letting me know that his Grandpa had passed away that morning.
Now... To quote Clueless, "you divorce wives, not children." In my case, I got divorced, but I never lost that family. Of course, I lost a husband, but I never lost my best friend....
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So...Today I have been divorced for one year.
What a wonderful week in history; Kristallnacht(november 8), finalized divorce (nov 9) and armistice day(november 11). 2 good, one bad...
So... I know I've said this before, but I thought I would say it again. Whenever I'm talking to someone, and they relate something they feel, I kind of take on that emotion sometimes, and then I...
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I slept a grand total of 2 hours last night. I just tossed and turned all night. It was really not happy.

I'm at school. What are you doing?
Here's a random question for you, since you all seem to like them: What is one thing you have never done, but would like to do?
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I
miss
the warm touch nostalgia on cold winter...
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I hate myself so much right now.

Thank you.

I feel ill.

Edited:

I am not physically ill, really.

I have a lot of psychological trauma from the events of this week and it has left me a little queasy.

I don't really want to talk about it openly, though.

So kids...I have been busy...I went to Switch last night, where the hell were all of you?

Anyways... This week was amazingly sucky. I mean, REALLY bad. And... at the same time really good.

-I filed for graduation.
-I figured out how to file indepenently for my financial aid.
-I feel old and tired.
-I am poor once again.
-Going to the Shabby Thanksgiving because...
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So kids...I have been busy...I went to Switch last night, where the hell were all of you?

Anyways... This week was amazingly sucky. I mean, REALLY bad. And... at the same time really good.

-I filed for graduation.
-I figured out how to file indepenently for my financial aid.
-I feel old and tired.
-I am poor once again.
-Going to the Shabby Thanksgiving because...
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these nights overwhelm my sense of security with a distaste for serenity
eleven days
12 nights
dreaming of a place I cannot be in a heart I cannot find
and your apathy overwhelms me with a desire for passions that never tire
I
will
never
find you.
at what cost can i find the lost and what price must I pay for the lives that...
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