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They stopped all treatment and put him into the hospice center this afternoon. i was there for the transfer.
So he's got 2-3 days. If that. But at least he'll be comfortable. no more poking and prodding, no more asshole doctors, no more pain. He's not concious, but the only way he's responsive is he's got one hell of a grip. I told him i...
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I am having the most shitty ass week of all motherfucking time.
but at least my jackets came today. one fits, the other is way too big so i gotta send it back
way to go tripp nyc for having unrealistic female proportions.

i'm so fucking pissed about everything going on, it's not even worth typing about.
and i'm sure this weekend is going to...
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Another awesome surprise. two small purple wounds under my left eye on my cheek bone.
Because nothing says awesome "Hey, you're birthday is coming up! Have a spider bite to the face!"

makes me look kinda badass though. Like most of my unwanted injuries. i guess that's just how i roll.
still. wonderful timing universe.

And now, time for a crazy ukrainian moment


I love that man and his crazy pants. and A.D.D videos.

man, i am so fucked up...

life's little surprises, still catching me off guard.
No matter how high i build that wall you'll always snipe that one vulnerable spot.

i hope one day to be so infamous as to burrow under some poor bloke's skin like that.

In other news, pretty busy day today. Had to wake up early enough to be in new brunswick...
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If any of you lovely folk know where i can get myself a bottle of Lucid Absinthe, let me know.
The website only has a few places listed, none of which near me, but i wanted to see if anyone else knew of other places as well. I have some lollipops made with it and they are fucking stellar.

it'll be the only birthday present...
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I really wish that phone didn't ring last night...now it's going to be a painful wait.

i do not have a proper coping mechanism for this sort of thing..
This ain't gonna be pretty, folks.

See you around charlie....

Admittedly, most of what i did this weekend was not the best for me, but i feel so much fucking better.
I ended up going down to stockton anyway yesterday, against my mother's wishes due to the family situation going on. we actually had a long talk about a lot of things, and i felt it was doable and got the fuck out of there,...
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i'm taking a long drive out of here.
this is way way way too much and i'm in over my head.

phone's on, don't worry about me.
i'm just feeling very destructive.

i'm running on fumes, but i've still got a little kick in me.
I did a little cover last night of You Can't Always Get What You Want by the Rolling Stones and it came out a lot better than expected. who knew all the fun little things my mac could do?

today was extremely rough on me. for many reasons. but i'm still here....
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