disdain

i'm feeling awfully blue. its a feeling that i'm not used to and don't fully understand. so, on top of that i'm also a bit confused. i can never pin point why exactly i'm feeling sub par and that frustrates me. i'm not getting what i want out of other people and out of life in general and that makes me angry.


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87 degrees today.
i fucking LOVE global warming. it is probably the best thing to ever happen to me.
seriously.

don'tanswerthephonedon'topenthedoorparanoiapanicsuperballinarubberroomdon'tgooutdon'tshowyourfacethisisnotlifeilostmycre ativityican'tfindmyarti'veabandonedallhopepassionspiritnowthereisnothingleftbutthewarmcradleofdeath if only ..

school.

the hurt has gone away.
the passion and longing remain.
she is confused.

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

Anais Nin (1903 - 1977)

*how can such a small bicycle hold up 155 pounds of undulating girl flesh?
seriously.
*do i want it because i can't have it or do i want it fo' real?
i won't know untill i have it.
*what if i never get it back?
i will wonder forever.
*am i drinking because i'm lonely or am i drinking because i'm free?
both, maybe.
*do...
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work =
= gregsema 20/20
= mattbot
= sarah

wtf?

on Sept 14 2006: from Greg Pallast website (( http://www.gregpalast.com/ ))
(quote) Forget the orange suit. Exxon Mobil Corporation, which admits it was behind the criminal complaint brought by Homeland Security against me and television producer Matt Pascarella, has informed me that the oil company will no longer push charges that Pascarella and I threatened "critical infrastructure."

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Palast Charged with Journalism in the First...
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this is a poor excuse for a live show, indeed.

post-pythagorean economics

in june of 2000, a group fo 15 sorbonne economics students launched a petition protesting that neoclassical economics - the dominant version taught and practiced today - is highly dogmatic, obessed with imaginary worlds, and treats mathematical formalization and logic as ends in themselves. furthermore, its emphasis on the growth of abstract measures like gross domestic product was a threat to the planet....
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