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l7rules:
but reality sucks
twinkernaut:
Thanks, I hope that I can wait another 3 weeks at least! I'm ready though!
Holy Crap people I am still alive!!! For a minute there I didn't feel that way.
As for the mommy situation nothing has really changed. She is a little better but not much. I have made peace with whatever happens. Either way good or bad it will be better for her. I just want her to be happy. And what she is going through right...
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As for the mommy situation nothing has really changed. She is a little better but not much. I have made peace with whatever happens. Either way good or bad it will be better for her. I just want her to be happy. And what she is going through right...
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swindy:
have fun
poetik:
Helping otherhs is a cool way tolook at it. I really suck at sales too 
Sorry about the bad link, I made a typo.. here it is
Ah, I should find a concert worth going to (which shouldn't be to hard) and do it. have fun with NIN!
Glad you feel better
Sorry about the bad link, I made a typo.. here it is
Ah, I should find a concert worth going to (which shouldn't be to hard) and do it. have fun with NIN!
Glad you feel better
My world is falling apart.
I am losing the first person that ever loved me and that I ever loved.
She is in the hospital again. They rushed her to the ER from dialysis today. She didn't know who she was or where she was. She was talking about things from the 1930's and she wasnt even born until 1938. This confusion thing has been...
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I am losing the first person that ever loved me and that I ever loved.
She is in the hospital again. They rushed her to the ER from dialysis today. She didn't know who she was or where she was. She was talking about things from the 1930's and she wasnt even born until 1938. This confusion thing has been...
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derekthered:
Not a problem at all, trust me. And I'm glad you enjoy my attempts at humor. I often find that the person laughing hardest at my comments is me, so it's good to know that someone else is getting a laugh with me.
the_mad_monk:
My arm is doing ok i guess. Bout the same, no worse, so that's good. thx for asking.
How's your mom?
How's your mom?
Ok so there are things going on in my life that I dont want to talk about or think about right now so....Now for something completely different.
I have been trying to avoid my obsession with the Ipod but I can't help it. It's back again. I want one really bad!!! I can get in black and I can have a message engraved on the...
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I have been trying to avoid my obsession with the Ipod but I can't help it. It's back again. I want one really bad!!! I can get in black and I can have a message engraved on the...
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chocolatejesus:
An iPod will change your life. Really. I'll totally chip in if anyone else will.
thelastboss:
I want an ipod too! Try to get everyone to chip in on an extra one. 
Thank you ALL so much for being here for me and listening. I would go crazy without all of you and this journal.
My mom ending up going to the ER on Wednesday. She couldn't walk so I had to call the paramedics. She had built up excess fluid on her lungs which is why she couldn't breathe or anything. She was really non coherent...
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My mom ending up going to the ER on Wednesday. She couldn't walk so I had to call the paramedics. She had built up excess fluid on her lungs which is why she couldn't breathe or anything. She was really non coherent...
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aj_paradiselost:
Yer a tough chick, I have faith in you to come out on top in the end and you will always do the right thing by your mother. You have a heart of gold doll, as I've said before. Do they really have fetish balls in KC? LOL, here on the East coast we are made to believe that anything West of us, or South for that reason is nothing but a bunch of farmlands, corn, wheat, fields and Hillbillys.
Oh and by the way, thanks for your comments. And I hope they DON"T bring back Highlander. That was a great time in my life, full of fun and adventure and exploration, now everything is me paying bills and being completely grown up and stagnant. If Highlander comes back on I will remember the girl I left behind, the one that came after her, which sucked, and a time when, while it was on, I was completely happy. Her and I would watch Highlander and she would explain episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I havent' seen her in years....Oh fucking well...........L8er babe...AJ
Oh and by the way, thanks for your comments. And I hope they DON"T bring back Highlander. That was a great time in my life, full of fun and adventure and exploration, now everything is me paying bills and being completely grown up and stagnant. If Highlander comes back on I will remember the girl I left behind, the one that came after her, which sucked, and a time when, while it was on, I was completely happy. Her and I would watch Highlander and she would explain episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I havent' seen her in years....Oh fucking well...........L8er babe...AJ
inlikeflynn:
I'm glad to hear that your mom pulled through all right. close calls like that are terrifying in a way that can only be experienced, never relayed in words.
chin up.
chin up.
I am drowning in the sea that is my life. I know that people are going to offer me help and I honestly dont know what that would entail. My mom is not doing good at all. She is going to have to go into Assisted Living at least for a bit. I feel horrible for her. She is so upset and angry with herself....
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aj_paradiselost:
Baby, it is hard to be strong, it is hard to call on courage when you think there is none left, but there is always more. Do as much as you can, and make phone calls weather they are dead ends or not because at some point you are going to want to know if you have done enough. If she is being taken care of then you have time to make calls before or after your shift. Do as much as you can and call on that extra reserve of strength that I know you have. This has fuck to do with obligation but it is a great chance for you to prove how much strength you have within yourself to accomplish those things that need to be done.
Pretty girl, TEST yourself, and when you have nothing more to give to this particular personal fight? Then TEST yourself even further........L8er....AJ
Pretty girl, TEST yourself, and when you have nothing more to give to this particular personal fight? Then TEST yourself even further........L8er....AJ
yuriel:
-hugs-
-sighs-
know the feeling
-sighs-
know the feeling
Yes I have indeed returned from a whole day of being gray. Why? Because a REALLY wonderful person gave me a gift membership. I won't call him out just yet. Not sure if he is being modest or not. But THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!! I am a happy little girl right now.
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aj_paradiselost:
How did the outing go? Well the outing went pretty well. We went to a couple of bars and my best girl decided she wanted to hit on some blonde haired girl in the bar. I knew she was bi before her and I started dating so I let her have female playthings. She was drinking tequila all night. She thinks alot like a guy. She drinks and then looks for some girl to go to bed with. The things us guys would be fucking slapped for, she gets away with. Myself and my friends and our girls bascially go into bars and load them up with heavy metal and early eighties music. The chicks dance and we do several shots of snakebites or Yagerbombs when we can get them. I'm tired as balls. Anyway beautiful take care. Keep taking care of your mother and the balance will always see that you are taken care of. There is more to this world then flesh and blood. There are spiritual things and wolfen things that have been in around for awhile, no, not in flesh but in memory........L8er..............Aj
wunnspeed:
Wow, I need to check in to SG more often. Been really busy this week. Great to hear about the gift! Very cool!!
So yeah I already fucked up. I overslept this morning and was 11 minutes late to work on the second day. The trainer was a total bitch about it and made a several points all day about the importance of being on time. Granted there was one other person who came in a minute after me. At least I called her and left her a...
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nikkiis:
no, the point of my post is vaginas look funny with hair, i can't believe that yours looks funny WITH hair. prove it.
all jobs suck
all jobs suck
bleakronin:
Yay! You're back!
So here it is 6:00 in the monin' on Monday. I have been up since Four. I had to help the mommy get ready to go to dialysis. I got maybe 4 hours of sleep. I hope that I get on a regular schedule sometime soon. Still not sleeping well and I'm a bitch who needs her sleep. Here's hoping I can make it through...
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larue:
you are so good for takin care of your momma,best of luck.
swindy:
you too..
I start my new job tomorrow so everyone wish me luck. It's been a couple of years since I had to be anywhere at 8:00 AM. Please pray to whatever diety that I can make it through training. Six weeks of 8 in the morning. Then regular schedule at 9:30.
She IM'd me today. I was off line. She was wanting to know if I...
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the_mad_monk:
It really sux when friendships go bad! Like you said most of them have been with us longer than most of our relationships.
Good luck with the new job sweety.
Good luck with the new job sweety.
voiddragon:
good luck with that waking up early stuff i could never trick of it. Sometimes you just have to a break from certain friends for awhile....I know that what I usually do when I get tried of thier bullshit and such.
Things really suck right now.
I have lost my best friend over some bullshit. Even if we work past this it will NEVER EVER be the same again. There is too much to get into right now and my heart and head hurt too much to even begin to type it out.
Thank you to everyone who has been so nice and given good advice....
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I have lost my best friend over some bullshit. Even if we work past this it will NEVER EVER be the same again. There is too much to get into right now and my heart and head hurt too much to even begin to type it out.
Thank you to everyone who has been so nice and given good advice....
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poetik:
We will indeed make it through. Sucks that sometimes, we don't come out of it the same, but at least, I like to think we are a better person for it anyway. 
wunnspeed:
hug
hug Update....ok....
Mom is still in the hospital. May get to come home soon. She will have to be on oxygen at home and she will need to have some in home nursing for awhile.
Someone dumb fucks broke into my house while I was home. Ofcourse I went totally psyhco and chased 'em out of my house. One guy snatched my purse so I had...
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Mom is still in the hospital. May get to come home soon. She will have to be on oxygen at home and she will need to have some in home nursing for awhile.
Someone dumb fucks broke into my house while I was home. Ofcourse I went totally psyhco and chased 'em out of my house. One guy snatched my purse so I had...
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voiddragon:
You should get one of the stick taser thingies...it's on lethal but it will surely knock anyone of their ass for awhile.
Sex & Drugs???
Damn it!! You have been holding out of me or what???
Sex & Drugs???
Damn it!! You have been holding out of me or what???
poetik:
sounds like things aren't going too well.