derangel

i had so much fun last night just rubbing my fingers across joshuas body....i love the way it makes him feel!!

i feel so pushed away..i know he is angry but i am not quite getting who pissed him off...i know for sure im not mad..AT ALL...just confused..i get the same way towards him and say mean things when im not even pissed at him...so i get it so hopefully he will feel better and not hate the fucking world (as much)..... I LOVE HIM!!

i love him so much he is my world....he makes my heart pound!!

ive been so sick..stupid allergies...joshua has been so nice to me during it....im having a great day today...im feeling better...hope i stay that way...i love joshua...i cant wait to spend time with him again!!!

i am so amazed how much he cares about me and misses me....it makes me smile...even when i am having the worst day ever...he is my happy place. i worry about him when he doesnt feel well....and i think he doesnt know what to do with that....lol...hahahha

Let the competition begin!