man... last night twas a bust! 
baby sat for 6 hours, had a borderline migraine the whole night and when i got home didnt feel good, nick and i never made it to friends to play pool , i watched metalocalypse and such then went to sleep lmao... today going to friends kids bday party, then hopefully visit me mum... WOOHOO dunno how i survive...
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baby sat for 6 hours, had a borderline migraine the whole night and when i got home didnt feel good, nick and i never made it to friends to play pool , i watched metalocalypse and such then went to sleep lmao... today going to friends kids bday party, then hopefully visit me mum... WOOHOO dunno how i survive... Read More
lisskiss:
your friday night sounds errily similar to mine. i love metalocalypse!
dedlyniteshade:
YESS!!!! i REALLY wish the episodes were more than 15 mins this season!
few new pics are up
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4sev4en:
i need what you are using to edit. badass!
dedlyniteshade:
corel paintshop x4, as well as adobe cs6, ya can blow a bunch of money or download from*coughcough pirate bay *cough lol
" FIBER-GLASS INSULATION"=YOU!
from the moment i saw you, it reminded me of when i was 5.
not knowing true pain, and only feeling alive,
like the insulation in the attic, looking so soft and bright,
i felt i needed to touch you, the caution stickers in red, were meant to invoke my fright,
but just like when i was that child, the warnings stopped...
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from the moment i saw you, it reminded me of when i was 5.
not knowing true pain, and only feeling alive,
like the insulation in the attic, looking so soft and bright,
i felt i needed to touch you, the caution stickers in red, were meant to invoke my fright,
but just like when i was that child, the warnings stopped...
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last night while sitting on couch alone , i broke down and just once i started i couldnt stop lol i swear i looked like i should've been quarantined as bad as my eys looked, i decided i had too many things i was dwelling on, too many things festering and eating away at me. I decided to get the balls and finally let someone...
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knives2meatyou:
You just described my situation to a "t," at least the first part of your blog. In the end you can only do what you can do, and the rest is beyond your control. A hard lesson, but true. You always hope for the best, but it's hard sometimes to plan for the worst. Hope tomorrow isn't too hard on you.
dedlyniteshade:
thank you so much! hope ur situation gets better too homie! if i can stand seeing this pal ive wrote about up top without screaming or crying then ill def be ok lol
thank you so much! hope ur situation gets better too homie! if i can stand seeing this pal ive wrote about up top without screaming or crying then ill def be ok lolFML!!! so kayla was killed 4 days ago, i was just called by my brother letting me know my friend ross was killed this morning ,wrecked 6miles from my parents house... im utterly speechless and torn... i fucking hate june now!!! 2012 was gonna be "my year" fun, living to the fullest, ect. so far travesties have hit my life every month except for feb....
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sugar_serpent:
I'm truly sorry to hear about your losses.
dedlyniteshade:
i thank you very much so
i hope its just mania but gollygeewhizz im unhappeh with life <_< i cant quit falling asleep even if i sit for 5 seconds! so weird!
knives2meatyou:
This too shall pass. Hang in there. The best part of the low times is there's nowhere to go but up. Hope you feel better (and more energetic) soon.
dedlyniteshade:
thank you much yo always have the kindest words yo!
yo always have the kindest words yo! one of my husbands friends died over seas fighting for our country yesterday
i hate to have to wake nick up with such news
i hate to have to wake nick up with such news
knives2meatyou:
I am so sorry to hear that. People talk about heros all the time, but sacrificing your life for someone else's way of life is way beyond heroic. My thoughts are with Nick's friend's family and of course Nick too and everyone else who knew him.
dedlyniteshade:
thank you much yo! yeah its effing sad!!! and what s hardcore messed up is i had this whole thing in my head that our sf squadron was invincible almost (i knew better just wishful thinking) as much heat and horrors as they have seen we have VERY few life altering physical injuries and rarely any fatalities.. im jsut REALLY glad nicks not over there, hes actually supposed to be.
I dreamed of a face last night, didnt recognize it but i missed that face this morning. I hate saying good bye to strangers in my dreams so glad todays sunday and i get to start anew tomorrow! maybe this week will be better!
so glad todays sunday and i get to start anew tomorrow! maybe this week will be better!what a completely fucked up day... nick is STILL asleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i tried to wake em but NOOO....so im by meself once again, arguing with myself on whether i can handle this "pre -funeral setting-up for my friend... its looking like a "no i cant handle it right now"i feel like a dick for not going but i just cant take it right now
knives2meatyou:
You can only do what you can do. Right now it's just too overwhelming, I suspect. Don't beat yourself up if you can't go, but maybe you should pour a pitcher of water on old sleepy Nick, ya know?
(I appreciate your encouraging words on my blog - perhaps we are getting good at propping each other up)
(I appreciate your encouraging words on my blog - perhaps we are getting good at propping each other up)
dedlyniteshade:
anytime yo and thank you as well , yeah im bout to go taser the hubby on the B-hole bet that'll wake em up! lmao kidding ... or am i? lmao bahh water will have to do!
anytime yo and thank you as well , yeah im bout to go taser the hubby on the B-hole bet that'll wake em up! lmao kidding ... or am i? lmao bahh water will have to do!This morning upon waking i couldn't rid this wretched feeling in my gut... i HATE being reminded of how very short and unexpected this life is. I want to live it to the fullest,go where i want , pursue my goals, and (get set of the day some day ) i hate when so many things seem so far away and everyday that passes adds...
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i was just notified that a friend of mine i just went and hung out with last month and ive known for 12 years died whoa...............VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
sheepy:
I hope you are ok.. keep your friend in your mind and in your heart, and they will be with you forever.
dedlyniteshade:
thanks dude i appreciate it
WOOT! lmao for the record i dont bathe in virgins blood or do i? (dundundun*insert suspense music) dammit having trouble postin pic!
or do i? (dundundun*insert suspense music) dammit having trouble postin pic!
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