I realised today that I really really need to find a way back into school. I need to get out of this dead-end job scheme I have been living in, and get into a field I enjoy. Then all the little things will seem just as small because I will believe in what I'm doing. If nothing else, I should probably find some other dead-end...
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Hunger Pains. Too late to make music. Don't want to go shopping. I think I'll go to sleep.
thedarkness:
I think it is sad when a celebrity has to take any job he can get.
Saturday's are wonderful for the doing of Nothing.
pulloffmywings:
lucky you... I've worked the past 3 saturdays. ugh.
On my way out to get some coffee, think some things through, and hang out until the sweat band plays at the surly wench here in T-town. Anyone who has some free time should check them out. Without a doubt, one of my favorite local bands.
esther:
I could make you a cup of coffee that would change your belief system.
Funny how people fail you when you need them most. They're never there when you need them to support you. I wonder what causes this problem?
Went through a lot of old journal entries tonight. Funny how going through the past makes you that more reflective on the present.
Went through a lot of old journal entries tonight. Funny how going through the past makes you that more reflective on the present.
esther:
I try to avoid reading old entries because of that. I don't remember five minutes ago out of choice. 
I just watched a really sappy movie that I have already seen before. I watched it when I was younger, and didn't think too much about it. Being so young the first time around I didn't notice all the connotations that can be taken out of it, and applied to my own life.
Basically, I realised something that I have realised so many times before,...
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eireann:
Piece by piece.
And I won't be entertained by your misery. My job is so fucking miserable I'd probably just commiserate with you.
I had the same blockade for a long time. I was unhappy with my life and looked for other things to fill it. I got married basically because I thought it would be someone to fulfill me. Instead, I got ripped apart. I had a near nervous breakdown, but its very hard to get to the point where you don't have that blockade up. It prevents you from being happy- but it keeps you from being hurt. You get into this limbo groove where you feel safe.
Alas, someone always manages to bust through with their fancy greek fire and fuck me up. Thank's for the comment.
And I won't be entertained by your misery. My job is so fucking miserable I'd probably just commiserate with you.
I had the same blockade for a long time. I was unhappy with my life and looked for other things to fill it. I got married basically because I thought it would be someone to fulfill me. Instead, I got ripped apart. I had a near nervous breakdown, but its very hard to get to the point where you don't have that blockade up. It prevents you from being happy- but it keeps you from being hurt. You get into this limbo groove where you feel safe.
Alas, someone always manages to bust through with their fancy greek fire and fuck me up. Thank's for the comment.
Sometimes I wish I had all the strength in the world. The loudest scream ever. I think it would make me feel so much better.
pulloffmywings:
hey mr. greedy, you can't have both all the strength in the world AND the loudest scream. you only get one!
pulloffmywings:
remember that super eyesight you wished for last year? you were supposed to use THAT to read the fine print.
Tired out of boredom. I can't help but think that I have lost all my ambition. I can't even find something stupid to amuse myself with to keep from falling asleep. How much does that suck?
New CDs for the week (yeah, I buy my CDs. Im so old-fashioned)
Autolux: Future Perfect
Aphex Twin: Come To Daddy EP
David Bowie: I'm Afriad of Americans EP...
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New CDs for the week (yeah, I buy my CDs. Im so old-fashioned)
Autolux: Future Perfect
Aphex Twin: Come To Daddy EP
David Bowie: I'm Afriad of Americans EP...
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Yes, Waffles are Yummy. A lovely, lovely Satruday Morning/Afternoon. Let's hope the rest of the night is this good.
ataxia:
indeed they are.
waffles kick pancake ass
waffles kick pancake ass
I want Waffles.
The Booms and flames are echoing in. Waking up to a fire is no picnic. Not when you feel the heat 150 yards away
A stranger walked in today, and no one seemed to know who he was. This stranger knew these people and had connections to them, knew bits of their past and was all but sure of their futures. Still, none of these people recognized him as being there, and he felt vindicated. Somehow, his absence had made him far too distant and real. One would see...
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rainwolfkin:
you couldn't possibly be referring to me, could you? 
you're right, i spend too much time on here. i've been limiting it to breaks at work and breakfast time. i dont' think that's so bad.
you're right, i spend too much time on here. i've been limiting it to breaks at work and breakfast time. i dont' think that's so bad.