Sunday Oct 02, 2005

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I`ve become such the pot head pill popper and im enjoying life ...........................sex is so fugen grrreat !

It was a bitch to find a new (vicodin) candy man but thats all taken care of now

lotsa luv hotties wink
derelict:
just a pot head. no pills for me. too addictive. I love the energy they give me. I'm like the enegizer bunny with a few pills up my nose.
blah. I miss it just talking about it. But ya know. I BF here is so addicted to OCs, that its breaking up our friendship. She hangs around long enough anymore to just get comfortable enough to ask for more money. And by God, her tab is high enough right now....she owes me, and all her other friends $$$$$$. whatever

Have fun though, just don't get too carried away again! kiss

Thursday Sep 29, 2005

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changing doctors is a BITCH! fuckers i hate them with all their guessing .

IM HAPPY I GOT SOME NEW VICTORIAS SECRET biggrin YEAH YEAH wink

I still hav`ent got the secret .

DO YOU KNOW HER SECRET ? no,my man does though haha

HAVE YOU EVER STOLE FROM A FRIEND? never

ARE YOU A CLOSET JUNKIE (PILLS) ? I AM

SEX, LOVE OR FUCKING?fucking , little...
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Thursday Sep 22, 2005

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YEAH! vacation vacation going to L.A. this weekend no kids and room service .............just lovely some wher near the beach im not really sure but im going and thats all that counts.

I have running and doing yoga i feel awesome and im noticing how toned im getting and things i have`nt seen in forever like collor bones i know that sounds funny but it`s...
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ouioui:
So awesome! You are motivating me. I have been considering getting back into working out. Hope your weekend was super fun!
sharon:
I believe that its "Swimming" from MAC

Sunday Sep 18, 2005

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I so happy things could`nt be better thank god for LAMICTAL my prescription ran late this last time and i just lost it i felt horrible......................so i made sure that will never happen again i have 12 months refills now YEAH! biggrin

Ok so enough of the shitty sad journal entries i promise my self and my family and all the world i wil be a...
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twizzler:
HEll yeah glad to see your in the positive being that awsome positive is always best no matter what the fuck goes on .
derelict:
hiya girl. I see my man knows who you are now. Thats cool.

I am so glad you are felling better. Thats so great!. ANd thank got for prescriptions, huh? lol.

skull

And, BTW, I dont think your journal entries are sad. I just see them as real, as I do my own~! surreal
Keep in touch!

Saturday Sep 17, 2005

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ouchhhhhhhhhhhh fucken wisdom teeth ! blackeyed

they fucked me up ,all bruised along my jawline and now its itching but cant scratch it hurts...............

jello and pudding and soup is what i been living off for 2 days...................... 3 befor that nothing but water .......................im fucken hungry frown

Wednesday Sep 14, 2005

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OMG FUCKEN WISDOM TEETH R A BITCH!................. im such pain now i wish i were dead...............k no i dont but i feel horrible cant sleep ,eat ,drink spit anything its so puke puke puke even the pain killers are not doing it frown ........anyway what ever i put in my tummy wants back up puke ...........i will attempt to have a normal day whatever that is bok
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ouioui:
AAAHHH man I am so sorry... It will pass but I remember it being a bitch too. Hope you feel better soon.
derelict:
eww...I still rember the bloody pillows when I had mine taken out. I've had surgery after sugery, but I would still prefer that to dental work. Ouch! I feel for you baby! kiss

Monday Sep 12, 2005

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Thank you every........one for all your kind words i love you all its good to have that even when theres no personal interaction .......................WELL DUH YEAH IM STILL HERE IT DIDNT WORK ALTHOUGH I DID GIVE A IT A GOOD TRY ...............O.D. ON PILLS I LOST COUNT AFTER 20 OR SO A COMBO OF PAINKILLERS AND SUCH I JUS WANT TO ESCAPE MY LIFE I...
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fauxton:
Please don't do it again. You had me worried there.

Friday Sep 09, 2005

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I just wrote my first suicide note ,im quite impressed with it i have to say ...................................up and down im sick of it ...................BYE.
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munke:
Hmmmm. mine would sound pretty much the same way, I think.

surreal

don't ya just hate the rollercoaster?

skull
twizzler:
WTF . No matter tuff gets life is so sweet dont think of anything like that gurl there is always ups and downs in life just hold in there stuff will look up .

Wednesday Sep 07, 2005

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PROBLEMB:Im happy i actually love my self finally ,for me this is a big change .......................................................................................................................................................................
ok so getting to the problemb i hate my life i dont know why i feel bad i cantt stand being home i dont wanna be around my husband .......even worse he gives me panic attacs BIG TIME so its like a xanax life for me EL SUICIDO LOCO


Something im very...
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derelict:
You should post the new tatts. And I'm glad to hear you are learning to love yourself. Thats so much easier than self loathing when you get used to it anyways...
And as for the hubby thing. ew. I have a feeling I know where you sit. Best wishes at making the best out of it, or changing your position. Those are your options, if you think about it. I'll keep you in mind. kiss

Saturday Sep 03, 2005

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I dont know what to say except im so excited i`ve been working so hard on excercise ,running ,joga and weights so i finally am size 9 a big accomplishment for me starting at a size 15, i wont quit not done biggrin

OH YEAH ,my sisiters are still the biggest assholes on earth my whole family puke i donot care for them .SOME ARE DYING AND...
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twizzler:
That place is so peacefull I have been down there like 40 times all kinds of water falls around there . Last time I went we all just got nacked and well went skinning dipping lolol Water feels so good to really refreshing . surreal

Thursday Sep 01, 2005

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I............. just .............wanna............. die.......... and i feel selfish with all the damage the hurricane caused i hope no one has any family out there and if so my thoughts are with you all its very sad .

I hate how depression can cause chronic pain im hurting i wanna cry and its been a long time since all that pain ............popping pain killers like candy(starburst...
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sharon:
you are so pretty.....don't be sad!!! I love you! kiss

Tuesday Aug 30, 2005

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This shit is a trip, LAMICTAL wow !

I been bad lately i`ve been doing a bit of my kinda therapy .......shopping.......shopping ...............movies

OK so PROZAC NATION, seen it?

kinda like watching your life..............SCARY tongue
SO I LIKED IT.

I NEED A NEW BELT I BEEN USING THE SAME ONE FOR LIKE 4 OR SO YEARS ,I LOVE IT OBVIOUSLY BUT I WANT A NEW ONE...
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