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well i didnt make it in time for all that, my dad died last night.

its really no words right now. surreal unchartered territory.


thanks for all your well wishery. i'll talk to you later.

yeah i just got a call from my mom, my dad was taken to the hospital by ambulance this morning, he's terminal, they're gonna set up a hospice in their house. its an ongoing thing resulting from complications from alot of things, mostly cancer. so its not a total surprise. but still shock you know. so i have to go home. i don't know what...
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i havnt been a very good e-person lately. not updating or commenting in journals. sorry.

yeah, that's all i got today.

der... uh, nope. that's all.

Meow Meow.
fake,
frown,
and frame it.

ever get excited to do something, or, just do something and have a good enough time while it happens, but then afterwards feel all empty?


yeah.


edit: i wonder if its the absence of the moment that leads to the emptiness, or if it was a problem with your expectations of what the moement would do... or. huh?

somebody should buy the new interpol and let me borrow it.

aaaaaaahhahaha. finally done with my latest project.

to the couch i go. mmm, couch on a sunday afternoon.

you know when you're eyelids twitch and shit? i hate that.

i had big plans to sleep alot today. yeah. went to bed at 1 am. got up at 4 am.

had this wicked vivid dream that i heard something in the hallway, got up, and as soon as i walked out of my bedroom somebody stabbed me in the gut. so then i actually...
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i can see you. but you can't see me.

conflicting events:

a: this morning i hooked up digital cable after not having it for a few years.

b: i have a project with a saturday morning deadline, and i havnt even recieved all the raw materials for it yet.

really doe', its surreal having tv in here. i'll try not to let it hypnotize me.

i wanted cable for: the daily show, vh1 classic,...
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so its 5 pm on a fairly busy street on a friday.

i hear this dude screaming bloody murder gibberish at the top of his lungs.

look out the window, and this nice dog is running across the street, and dude is running behind it yelling (i think) "SKIPPY! NOOO! SKIPPY"

i live next to a vet clinic.

so the dog makes it across, then...
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