This year may receive the dubious honor of being the strangest year of my life.
December always has me contemplating life, the future, the past, all things that fall into my path. Perhaps it is the lack of light that makes it so. Perhaps it is because the year is coming to an end. Maybe it is both.
Nevertheless..
Starting with the trip to Thailand,... Read More
that's how life is i guess. some people have magnetic laps that attract great things towards it. my lap must have the same polarity as the great things. lol!
Sometimes I dream of you. It's never nice dreams. It's always about me being hurt by someone and then running to you.
And you know what I'm coming for. I couldn't stop crying but you yanked my head back and told me to stop.
Dressing in your bathroom. Pulling on my panties, my bra, jeans, buttoning them, you blocking the door and giving me that... Read More
Coffeelove: fuck
i don't want to be busy with dino-licking
all distracted
and then there is a god damn raptor behind me
walkaway: rudely eaten in the middle of the act
Coffeelove: AT LEAST LET ME FINISH!
walkaway: raptors might be... Read More
I hope you're right. It's just hard to see things that way right now. My health problems are just such a huge part of my life at the moment...Affecting pretty much every aspect of my life. It's so invasive that it's just hard to separate it from my identity I suppose
I lock up my dark side, those dark thoughts. I feed them.
I wait for them to grow stronger, fearless.
I wait for them to resemble reality.
That is when I dig up the key, unlock what holds them and I play them over and over.
To feel some kind of pain, to understand something I can't grasp.
To inspire myself. To be able to... Read More
I fail and fall down, inches from the finish line
As I hit the ground the air is punched out of me
Gasping for air, digging my nails into the dirt
I see, I understand, I know every tactic of this game
But here I am
Again
I have no excuses, only beaten pride
And shame
Every time I start over, the list of failures... Read More
I have to say I feel a sting of guilt right now.
Realized I can't remember the last time I saw my friends. Three, four weeks?
With my new job at TBS and all the things that have needed to be done there I just haven't had the time nor energy to hook up with my friends.
I know they all understand but I still... Read More
It is Sunday morning over here and I am making my first pot of coffee this week. That's how busy things have been, I haven't had time to make my own coffee!
Even though I have been dead exhausted every night of this week I have still had so much fun with it all. The opening day was crazy, I really thought people storming into... Read More
Have started my job for The Body Shop and wow has time flown the past few days with setting up the store, meeting new people, courses and whatnot.
I'm still alive, barely. It has been long days and tomorrow is the grand opening of the new mall.
Wish me luck, cause I am so fucking nervous!
The pirate flag has been thrown away, just a piece of cloth hanging over a chair
I'm not as hard as I had to be and my sails are down cause there is no storm
Wrapped up carefully, mended and placed in a chest for safe-keeping
Keys and treasures and lessons has been passed along
Returning to shores once familiar but somehow unknown
I'll leave... Read More
