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My shoulder are up under my ears and my neck is so stiff I can hardly look sideways. Hopefully from sleeping too much and not stress. Anyways a nice little ingredient to add to the FML-mix.
Originally had the day off tomorrow as my friend/boss and I are going to Oslo for some courses but her kid is sick and now I have to open...
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Some mornings there would be music. Other mornings just silence or the sound of a car passing by.
Perhaps the radio or the buzzing of bees.
But I would always wake up in the same manner.
Realizing I am no longer asleep, recognizing the bed under me and opening my eyes to stare up at a blue sky.
My pillow warmed up by the sun,...
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Finally got the test results from my EEG. My head is fine.
Antidepressants next, eh?
Reluctantly having my first cup of coffee in almost a week. Experimenting on how caffeine is affecting my panic attacks. Somehow I've actually managed to be semi-awake at the early shifts at work and no panic attacks either.
I have an appointment with my GP next week and now that...
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I feel so fucking defeated.
The whole week has pretty much been one long panic attack and then topped it off with a pay check that will hardly last me the month.
Meaning I can't quit my old job because it pays better than the store does.
I cried myself to sleep last night. I don't want this. This isn't getting me anywhere.
Fuck.

I think I sprained my shoulder doing some acrobatic masturbation.

There is a polka dotted bow in my hair, am invited to dinner at my mothers tomorrow and listening to Bob Dylan.
Go 2010.


There's nothing 'round here I believe in
'Cept you, yeah you
And there's nothing to me that's sacred
'Cept you, yeah you

You're the one that reaches me
You're the one that I admire
Every time we meet together
My soul...
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I have a sleep hangover. That extra hour that causes you to feel tired and have a headache even though you've slept for 10 hours. Hoping coffee will fix it.

Had a wonderful Christmas with my mother and stepfather. We celebrated at our cabin up in the mountains, it was a lovely -29 C outside (-29F) and at times +29 C inside (84 F). I...
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Who am I?

My six-bedroom flat looks like shit.
All my nails broke.
I had to take a shower in complete darkness because I couldn't find a light bulb that matched the previous one.
I thought I could sleep in tomorrow, cause I really need it but no, guess who has a appointment with her GP at ten in the morning.
I haven't finished any paintings that were...
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Who says I can't get stoned
Turn off the lights and the telephone
Me in my house alone
Who says I can't get stoned

Who says I can't be free
From all of the things that I used to be
Rewrite my history
Who says I can't be free

I wish I had the weekend off.
I want to curl up in bed, lay under...
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Sometimes my life is hilarious.
Let us begin with going to work yesterday, shall we?
-20 C, poor car covered in ice and wind shield wipers were glued to the windows.
I broke off the wind shield wiper at the rear window. It was stuck and I was simply trying to free it.
Good thing I won't need it until summer because I can't see...
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So to make up for yesterdays seriousness.

Had a shift at my old job, co-worker for today was from India/Pakistan/whatever. Around there.
Guy does not talk.
Me: So you're going to school right?
Him: Yes.
....
/end conversation

So this is what I did at work today, for 8 hours.

-Read 27 pages on textsfromlastnight.com
I will be racking up a insanely high phone bill....
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