codycat

I actually broke down and cried today, I can not remember the last time I cried, but the tears are still rolling down my cheeks... this is a bad sign indeed.. my thoughts are bouncing around my mind so fast and the only ones I can actually hold on to are horrible suicidal thoughts! I wish there was something I could do about it but...
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Ugh I'm so close to losing it.... my life that is! Oh well its for the best.....

Don't read this!!!

Well read if you want, even though no one will... oh well I understand than I'm an ugly guy on a site of the most beautiful women I've ever seen, so of course no one wants to talk to me....

Well if you feel like sayin something go ahead and do so, ill be pumping myself full of drugs in my little...
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Sadness, suicidal thoughts, drug cravings, and just pure hate for myself..... things have never been better.

I don't think ill make it, I don't think ill survive much longer!!! My fuse is burning down, and the time is coming!!! I really can't wait!!! I crave inhaling my last breath, I imagine it tasting so sweet, like the strawberries we used to grow when I was in cali... I only hope that I don't have to do anything myself...

Getting evicted today because my friend brought his dog over I feel horrible because I live with my mom and brother, so we're fucked oh well I guess I go homeless again for a while

There really is something wrong with me! I think I need to hurry up and fuckin die already... my mind doesn't work like a normal mind, it never let's me be happy, even in situations that I lnow should put a giant smile on my face.. oh well maybe ill fall of the mountain today.. its like the only thing I think or dream about...
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Gonna spend a whole day on my bike get my mind off the bad thoughts it enjoys to think...

Bye bye ya'll