Thus far, today blows. And not even for any specific reasons, either...hmm. Well, I shall endeavor to repair that. See you fuckers tonight!
Update, 5:30: That didn't work out so well. But it matters not--kill four hours, and all shall be well.
And now, because I say it shall be so, the Stills:
We all need to feel secure and so middle-class
But I'm still...
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Update, 5:30: That didn't work out so well. But it matters not--kill four hours, and all shall be well.
And now, because I say it shall be so, the Stills:
We all need to feel secure and so middle-class
But I'm still...
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suiclide:
LISTERINE....ask pink..she will explain
daekrys:
sadly he's the only person that smokes less then i do, so it's just me hoping his is cleaner then mine.
don't forget that not only are we all fuckers but we are also all bitches....
sorry i have to....later donkey_punch
don't forget that not only are we all fuckers but we are also all bitches....
sorry i have to....later donkey_punch
I'm not getting over all this any time soon. Nope.
Life is, at the moment, balanced. But it's balanced between my exhausting, hatred-inspiring college career and set of fantastic experiences that, whenever I return to those places of normalcy (like the goddamn computer lab I'm stuck in for the next several hours) never seem quite real. Two extremes make for one dizzied fellow.
I need...
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Life is, at the moment, balanced. But it's balanced between my exhausting, hatred-inspiring college career and set of fantastic experiences that, whenever I return to those places of normalcy (like the goddamn computer lab I'm stuck in for the next several hours) never seem quite real. Two extremes make for one dizzied fellow.
I need...
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suiclide:
for sure man, came home on leave in aug. and i was able to spend some time at triple rock with some sgtcers
i'm not sceduled to come home till march but i like to say 'soon', planting the psycological seed, next thing you know i will be back getting more drunk than...well neo
i'm not sceduled to come home till march but i like to say 'soon', planting the psycological seed, next thing you know i will be back getting more drunk than...well neo
daekrys:
no we're not over, it's starting to look like she isn't going to be going to kansas after all, instead, she wants me to use my 2 weeks of vacation in feb to go down to kansas with her. apparently she has told her mom all about me and now she can't wait to meet me...yippie. besides if she does go, she'd only be down therebout a month anyways....i'd wait far longer then one month for her.
punch me for saying so, but you and your girl are just too damn cute....you fucker
punch me for saying so, but you and your girl are just too damn cute....you fucker
Argh. Every damn day I'm on this campus, and every day it's a little more sickening.
Lovely weather, though. Warm for late Oct, & the ol' Irish blood just eats up this chilled rain.
So what the hell am I doing Saturday? My girl went an implanted the seed of a "something," involving the ever-ominous force of "surprise." But I've been assured that it won't...
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Lovely weather, though. Warm for late Oct, & the ol' Irish blood just eats up this chilled rain.
So what the hell am I doing Saturday? My girl went an implanted the seed of a "something," involving the ever-ominous force of "surprise." But I've been assured that it won't...
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daekrys:
well we won't be drinkin together for a long time, since i've sworen of anything that isn't neccesary, including cigarettes, until i can get everything straitened out, but when we do, be the shit. hope everything keeps goin awesome for ya......
why do i feel like we're pen pals?
i've never set foot on anything campus related except high school, and that was plenty, you'll have to enlighten me on it's shittiness sometime.
why do i feel like we're pen pals?
i've never set foot on anything campus related except high school, and that was plenty, you'll have to enlighten me on it's shittiness sometime.
radio_sweetheart:
I updated again, punk.
Should I change my name to R_D? Will people think that I'm a scientist?
It surprise me that you like the Drive By Truckers. It's a good surprise!
Do you like Crooked Fingers? They are playing Monday night at the First Ave.....Kiki and I are going.
Should I change my name to R_D? Will people think that I'm a scientist?
It surprise me that you like the Drive By Truckers. It's a good surprise!
Do you like Crooked Fingers? They are playing Monday night at the First Ave.....Kiki and I are going.
Emotions rage, at odds with the ongoings of a mundane life. The most basic of tasks becomes a chore when you've only one thing on your mind, one thing from the hazy crawl to consciousness in the morn to the wearied collapse in the Hour of the Wolf.
Waking up, miles from her, becomes a trauma.
And he keeps on whining. Damnhellass, life is good....
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Waking up, miles from her, becomes a trauma.
And he keeps on whining. Damnhellass, life is good....
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neodrunk:
Yeah, I was a dirty hippie, but still have conservative economical views. Long hair... tye-dye's... smoked lots of the pot... and more of the pot. I think I just have a better understanding of politics and realize why i do vote the way I do. I'm 27, I've had some years behind me now. I feel like I should call myself darth_republican, "poet... i am your father. come to the 'right' side."
Have a rad weekend!


Have a rad weekend!
neodrunk:
Social conservatives give me the willies too. Either extreme, right or left, scares the living shit out of me. The religious zealots me be some of the worst because they are also extreme fundamentalists.


How very strange the folks around here are. Strange, in a lovely sort of way.
So who do I have to blow/pay off/kill to spend more than 4-5 hours of consciousness with my girl? Ugh, all school and no Sarah...
What a week...she goes pink, I go broke, and A Perfect Circle's new original track gets leaked (I'm fucking obsessed with this band, as you...
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So who do I have to blow/pay off/kill to spend more than 4-5 hours of consciousness with my girl? Ugh, all school and no Sarah...
What a week...she goes pink, I go broke, and A Perfect Circle's new original track gets leaked (I'm fucking obsessed with this band, as you...
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shanana:
After 5 years together, being apart is still not easy. Sorry, I hate to tell you but the more time you spend together, the more you will hate the time apart. It never gets easier.
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tenmile:
Dude, I accidentally deleted your reply
Fear not, I will PBR you on sight
daekrys:
god damn, i don't check my SG shit for a few days and everyone up and changes shit. it's all good though, and yes we will have to meet in person sometime, its kinda nerdish to be friends with a kid i've never seen in person. but don't expect too much i have a bad habit of letting people down.
So fuzzy-headed this morning. This is going to be a long day.
Which only makes last night all the more worthwhile. It was a fuckin' blast, y'all. We'll have to do it again sometime.
Which only makes last night all the more worthwhile. It was a fuckin' blast, y'all. We'll have to do it again sometime.
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pinkokitty:
hey. are your feet okay today? i think i stepped on them a few times last night. 
colombianlvr:
Was great meeting you as well....will definitely be there next monday as well.
Wow...so my parents separated in July of '03. But just last night I found out (from neither of them) that my mom served divorce papers on Friday.
The separation's been great for my mom; it's incredible to see someone in their mid-40s find a new lease on life; but my dad's been on a swift spiral into complete alcoholism...
I don't know how I feel...
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The separation's been great for my mom; it's incredible to see someone in their mid-40s find a new lease on life; but my dad's been on a swift spiral into complete alcoholism...
I don't know how I feel...
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rylie:
well that makes more sense than. cuz I could have sworn you were on my friends list. but I only read journals through my bookmarked page, I though you just never updated... or something. Yay, I'm 7-11!
neodrunk:
So I wasn't "aloof" when you were on my lap... I was "hard". Big difference. Big and hard really...
Actually my aloof comment would be to my situation. Like I told you, a lot on my mind.
Pimp-boy, your squeeze has a different name and color? Will she still play with us?


Actually my aloof comment would be to my situation. Like I told you, a lot on my mind.
Pimp-boy, your squeeze has a different name and color? Will she still play with us?
"It will go wrong, this love; it probably will. That contorted organ, like the lump of ox meat, is devious and enclosed. Our current model for the universe is entropy, which at the daily level translates as: things fuck up. But when love fails us, we must go on believing in it." - Julian Barnes
Found the book. Such good stuff.
Found the book. Such good stuff.
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neodrunk:
rolling tonight?


neodrunk:
Oh cripes... "angelic"? And of course, as I read above, I realize that the honeymoon is just beginning for the two of you. Great, now we all get to hear all the gushy, lovie-dovie writings of d_p and d_c.
Let me tell you about my fuck last night...
teehee!!!
Okay, seriously, I'll bring the disc for you!


Let me tell you about my fuck last night...
teehee!!!
Okay, seriously, I'll bring the disc for you!
There are no words for this; at least I'm fairly sure there aren't. But I know some that come close; I need to locate that particular book.
Still coming down from the shock of it all; this is going to make a mess of me. That and the who-knows how long until I get to see her again.
There's got to be a catch...right? Can...
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Still coming down from the shock of it all; this is going to make a mess of me. That and the who-knows how long until I get to see her again.
There's got to be a catch...right? Can...
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neodrunk:
Roger all that, captain.
I'll get it to you this week.


I'll get it to you this week.
kungfuvoodoo:
Welcome back (theme song playing in back ground)
Cheers and here's to the art...
Cheers and here's to the art...
11ish: Nothing will cause a major paradigm shift in your life like finding what you've always wanted; finding that the hellish years were worth the wait; finding that it's everything you believed it could be. Finding her.
1ish: In other news, I'm apparently scheduled to buy alcohol for my underage college friends. They're good people, happy for my happiness, but damn it gets old drinking...
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1ish: In other news, I'm apparently scheduled to buy alcohol for my underage college friends. They're good people, happy for my happiness, but damn it gets old drinking...
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pinkokitty:
see you at cc in the morning? and i'm sorry i didn't join you last night, but all my black was in the washer. i might be persuaded to make it to ground zero for the first time since the millenium change, though..keep on me about that.
and i'm happy about the reason that you're happy. tee hee!!
and i'm happy about the reason that you're happy. tee hee!!
daekrys:
i gotta find someone that can buy me alcohol for the next year, then i get to buy for underagers.

Without you, we'll deflate as you throw the cold water of your loss on us.
Listen to your owner, she is benevolent and just.
Saying you aren't what you thought you'd be is a no win question. What are you, then? What should you be? How do you define exactly what it is you need to accomplish to be who you think you should be? Having goals is great but there are few things in life that most people will experience that they look at as a defining moment in who they are. You are very young, the odds of finding enough of those moments in your life to define yourself is probably slim.
Sinking away won't help you find yourself. It will make things worse. I believe the best way to see yourself is through the eyes of those who care for you. What better way to find the courage to live than to take their positive energy for you and harness it for your own self-esteem. You should hold onto those people. If you don't, you will miss them more than you ever thought you would.
The grass is always greener...
[Edited on Oct 26, 2004 5:54PM]