.........I canT breath under fluorescent lightS......
......SO my search so far has been in vain for a job...there is so little out there ........even though my skills out weigh what is offered ...........are there no jobs which require a philisophical mind ...??? NY has been on my mind ..I think I may move there by next year if all does not go well.....Maybe its time I moved on to new terRitory........
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mohollyweird:
here's a thought, do you play the bass? 
.....Ok so I got fired today...as you all know ....that is those that know my journal,I worked for my X who lived across the street ..........well I was asking for the painting I gave her back since I find it hard for anyone having a piece of mine that does not want to associate with me.....I know thats indian giving ...whatever Blah.......it was more than...
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ash:
WHAT!!!!!! OH noooooooooooooo!!!! 
silverlaker:
do not go back. i repeat: do NOT go back. this is a blessing in disguise, if you can even call it "in disguise".
just cut your losses. and just as you said: really move on.
xoxo
L.
just cut your losses. and just as you said: really move on.
xoxo
L.
.....I had the most intense wet dream the other night.......is it normal to have these at 28..????probably ...It must mean I am virile.......anyway it was so real ...in fact more real than real.........In other news my acting class goes well....my Teacher gave me a compliment...and he never complimentS.....Heh I have ranGE..!!!!!! ....plus I may have a part in a friends upcoming film which is being...
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mana:
who?what?
mana:
oh haha guess not
.....My my ...my so little to say and so muCH time to say it....first did you know that the seeds in applEs carry a small amount of arsenic in them which if eaten helps clear the arterieS........
..............I have this idea I wish to make truE ..... a film of close up body partS......like a nipple a penis ....a thigh ....a arm pit..........film all these...
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..............I have this idea I wish to make truE ..... a film of close up body partS......like a nipple a penis ....a thigh ....a arm pit..........film all these...
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sicily:
AH! why must AA people always sit at the coffee house and rehash the good ol' days as a fucked up addict?! gets old. fast.
holly:
if a guy insist on sleeping with me after fucking there better be wake up sex.
...So I saw Lost Highway again last night on the big screen at the American Cinematheque.........God that movie is brilliant ....its all taking place inside the interior of his brain while he is locked away in prisOn.............fuckinG geniuS.......
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cat:
what a great idea. I love it. I want to play that game right now. too bad you're all the way out there though 
. CA's cool. I keep thinking about moving to SanFrancisco, but I don't think I could deal with LA (no offense). Actually I'm not sure I can deal with the West Coast at all....I'm WAY, WAY, WAY too East Coast. You can take the Cat out of New York, but never New York out of the Cat.
. CA's cool. I keep thinking about moving to SanFrancisco, but I don't think I could deal with LA (no offense). Actually I'm not sure I can deal with the West Coast at all....I'm WAY, WAY, WAY too East Coast. You can take the Cat out of New York, but never New York out of the Cat.
..........A weird day in hollywood today.......It began last night , I saw Sin City which Fucking Rocks........during the movie I se this girl I have not seen in a while but decide not to say hi...cause she is with some one else.......arounf 1 AM I go to 101 cafe and eat a medium rare cheeseburger....run into my friend Clu Gulager....who was in return of the...
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m_bethany:
tried to read... got a little lost. but sounds like a lot of things happened... damn
strange days are calling...
strange days are calling...
holly:
yep i reaed the whole thing. that is a fucking crazy day. but i mean LA is such a small city you're bound to run into old friends, bizaar father figures and old co workers from flordia.
my favorite pard is the "hey faggot" part. people are so awesome.
my favorite pard is the "hey faggot" part. people are so awesome.
....For the past 2 days i have been waking up with horrible migraine headaches.........I wish I knew what it was that causes them.......I feel like I am literally going to diE.......I started acupuncture for my back and neck problems which may be a cause for the migraines.... , He my acupuncturist says it is a build up of anGEr....and tension.....anywAy I feel less angry lately...
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kara:
oh, migraines are the worst. i get them and loose my vision. i actually had a friend who had them really bad it would make her so sick. she went to so many doctors and found out it was do to TMJ.
samantha:
i used to get migraines while i was in school... i won't say that it's the worst pain i've ever experienced but i'd place it in the top five. they just stopped... i wish i could tell you why.
...Why the Ring 2 sucks let me count thE wayS...........
.......I should have known this movie would suck and except for a few kool digital effects it did.....in fact it was pointless to make in my boOk. .......what else is there to complain about.....I cannot decide whether or not to apply to UCLA or Cal ARTS....guesS I can do both ...although I am sure I...
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.......I should have known this movie would suck and except for a few kool digital effects it did.....in fact it was pointless to make in my boOk. .......what else is there to complain about.....I cannot decide whether or not to apply to UCLA or Cal ARTS....guesS I can do both ...although I am sure I...
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annalee:
Yeah, thats cool, that would be amazing if you did! 
silverlaker:
i'm glad you are enjoying my fiction.
i know those chicks fr: ghetto gloss- they're cool. they have a lot of studio connects, so i hope that works out for you.
my condolences about your kitty. it's horrible when a pet dies. do you really have a black widow spider? how do you contain it? aren't you afraid it will escape someday, only to poison you?
i am sorry to see that you and your ex are still entangled in a weird dysfunctional tete e tete. i hope you are the one to pull away- i mean you have to ask yourself, why is she keeping you as her wing man and hanging out & being nice & going to the movies w/ you, all coinciding w/ her 4th breakup w/ her "boyfriend"? that's fucked up!!
i know those chicks fr: ghetto gloss- they're cool. they have a lot of studio connects, so i hope that works out for you.
my condolences about your kitty. it's horrible when a pet dies. do you really have a black widow spider? how do you contain it? aren't you afraid it will escape someday, only to poison you?
i am sorry to see that you and your ex are still entangled in a weird dysfunctional tete e tete. i hope you are the one to pull away- i mean you have to ask yourself, why is she keeping you as her wing man and hanging out & being nice & going to the movies w/ you, all coinciding w/ her 4th breakup w/ her "boyfriend"? that's fucked up!!
....One of my kittieS got kiLLed Tuesday.......night. I had to bury her.....it was so surreal....I miss her and think that her sister knows she is gone as well................
.......by the way check out thee new project greenlight on Bravo I know the director who got pickeD.
.......by the way check out thee new project greenlight on Bravo I know the director who got pickeD.
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ash:
Ohhhh no babes. Im so very sorry to hear abt your cat! Was it a cat you've had for a long time? Either way, thats a very hard thing to deal with .. my condolensces.
and Im not sure if it would ruin the illusion to meet me .. thats all up to you of course.
Im sure Ill dissapoint you, hahahah!
Im so very sorry to hear abt your cat! Was it a cat you've had for a long time? Either way, thats a very hard thing to deal with .. my condolensces.
and Im not sure if it would ruin the illusion to meet me .. thats all up to you of course.
Im sure Ill dissapoint you, hahahah!
kara:
i'm so sorry. i know how hard it is to loose a pet. i am really sorry.
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hahah, oh, no! i will have to watch it just to know all your mistakes.
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hahah, oh, no! i will have to watch it just to know all your mistakes.
...........alright ...So I went to SanFrancisco on a spur of the momenT.......Saw a koOL banD caLLEd BlacK ICe...........drovE arouNd....alot doing nothinG and yet somEthinG as well...I cannot get over how different SF is from L.A. , the people ,scenes everythiNg...............
...broke down and got cable for a few monthS.......theres a year worth of movies I have not seEn on...pluS I can watch Deadwood and CarnivaLE.............
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as of late I have bEen ,,....leading a vampire existence....
......................I go to sleep at 5AM............is this wrong????? I cannot break out of the habit............sometimes I feEl as if everything is going by me as I do this.....................Yet it is ......at best a great creativE tiMe.............................................
...................................My landlord refuses to pay for my broken winDoW..........shE is usinG my DeposiT money>>>>>>>GOd I hate this woman and...
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......................I go to sleep at 5AM............is this wrong????? I cannot break out of the habit............sometimes I feEl as if everything is going by me as I do this.....................Yet it is ......at best a great creativE tiMe.............................................
...................................My landlord refuses to pay for my broken winDoW..........shE is usinG my DeposiT money>>>>>>>GOd I hate this woman and...
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ash:
dude .. why dont u sell your half of the business or something? or ask HER to sell her half? Its killing you to work with her every day. Its really bad for you.
And yes, I have thought abt doing a set like that ... actually, my previous set (most recent one up) was supposed to be exactly like that .. with artwork and shit all around .. but the photographer was a lazy piece of crapola and didnt set anything up the way I asked him to. Id love to do something like that again .. but Id have to have some artwork to do it with. This is one of the reasons I want to get back into painting.
And yes, I have thought abt doing a set like that ... actually, my previous set (most recent one up) was supposed to be exactly like that .. with artwork and shit all around .. but the photographer was a lazy piece of crapola and didnt set anything up the way I asked him to. Id love to do something like that again .. but Id have to have some artwork to do it with. This is one of the reasons I want to get back into painting.
ash:
dude, dont play her games .. DO NOT make any attempt to be her "friend", all she wants is drama. Fuck that bullshit.
and I have no idea why my email isnt working, it should be .. Ive been getting all my emails from the site. try it agn
and I have no idea why my email isnt working, it should be .. Ive been getting all my emails from the site. try it agn
well Kim Basinger rocks...
yeah the sex secen was hot...britanny murphy, she's a pro...