chesca

Needing another cathartic moment / rant.

Keep thinking I'm making progress on the being independent and strong and then I let the simple fact that someone I don't expect to really keep in touch upset me because they haven't got in touch. It's like one half of my brain can get my head round the whys and wherefores and is behaving logically and the rest...
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Doing that thing again where I don't want to go to sleep because I don't want tomorrow to come. Gah

Blimey, I am rubbish at blogging. I'm pretty rubbish at coming on here full stop but I'm not too good at making the time to build any sort of dialogue with people on here. Blogging too much encourages me to be introspective and trying to keep that in check. I'm developing a fine balance between anti-social/hermit like me-time and actually getting out there, doing stuff,...
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Life is good.

I'm still having little crazy moments where I think I'm worthless, useless, everybody hates me (and I really must sort out seeing someone about that) but otherwise things are on the up.

I need to stop judging myself by what it is other people are doing etc and recognise that I'm actually quite happy being a little bit of a hermit. I'm...
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Going to cry - just did a huge blog and didn't copy it before hitting post only to get an error message

Disliking people who pretend to be genuine but fail to mention things like girlfriends.

Feeling like a complete fool.

Strangely not too hurt though, once again feeling more than a little relieved. Guessing that's worse than another betrayl. Oh well. So my love life ain't too hot, have to be grateful that everything else is pretty damn good though.

Wow it has been a little while! I've been lurking now and then but I've not had the time to participate in an online community so I've not seen the point in updating.

I can't help myself though, I don't want to bore my friends with my stupidness. I'm getting giddy like a teenager about a guy at work. Months ago I thought he liked...
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I had a very family orientated Easter weekend which, for once, wasn't too stressful. My grandad came down for lunch and although it's always good to see him it can be difficult to interact with him sometimes. He doesn't have any hobbies or much interest in sport, the only time he really chirps up is to talk about the war. He didn't really start talking...
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There a lot of things I've been mulling over recently. My own naivety especially. Until fairly recently I'd let my sense of loneliness make me feel like I was failing in some area of my life. That because i didn't have this tight circle of friends like some people I know that I was inadequate. Shockingly it's taken me too long realise that I need...
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