oh well i'm outta here.
he was avoiding calling me because he didn't wanna "Get into it" which is fine i guess ;/
i talked to him this morning, i feel WAY better.
maybe now i can have a day that's not filled with anxiety.
flying is bad enough.
anyhow have a great few days guys
i'm not gonna take my puter so i'll see...
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he was avoiding calling me because he didn't wanna "Get into it" which is fine i guess ;/
i talked to him this morning, i feel WAY better.
maybe now i can have a day that's not filled with anxiety.
flying is bad enough.
anyhow have a great few days guys
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im avoiding packing.
boston tomorrow, 5am.
ugh.
didn't call tonight, really hurts when he doesn't call, i mean REALLY hurts.
not sure what's up. left a voicemail, all i can do.
oh well.
boston tomorrow, 5am.
ugh.
didn't call tonight, really hurts when he doesn't call, i mean REALLY hurts.
not sure what's up. left a voicemail, all i can do.
oh well.
bellica:
Men suck sometimes babe... *HUGSSSS* and tons of kisses so you feel better! 
work was insane.
tonight i need to work on my rfp, even more.
ugh.
i'm tired. i just want to take a shower, talk to josh throw on a flick (a sappy chick flick) and hit the sheets.
wednesday i'm off to boston, then also maine, and back to CA on friday.
busy workin girl.
i love my travel and i haven't been anywhere since...
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tonight i need to work on my rfp, even more.
ugh.
i'm tired. i just want to take a shower, talk to josh throw on a flick (a sappy chick flick) and hit the sheets.
wednesday i'm off to boston, then also maine, and back to CA on friday.
busy workin girl.
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spud_bliss:
i just read stephen kings Cell. good book, starts in Boston
Have a Good Trip
Have a Good Trip
havilah:
I went to the show here in town on Saturday. It was weird not seeing LeRoi. I've been going to shows since '99 so it was a first not to have him there. I cried when they played Bartender.
im kinda in a mood today...well it is sunday isn't it?
i went with a friend to her church, she goes to saddleback, which is insane, but it was cool. a rock service, and they did jam.
interesting.....
anyhow....i've been thinking about josh all day....like i often do on Sundays. this weekend he divulged to me that he's back into online gaming again (which is...
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i went with a friend to her church, she goes to saddleback, which is insane, but it was cool. a rock service, and they did jam.
interesting.....
anyhow....i've been thinking about josh all day....like i often do on Sundays. this weekend he divulged to me that he's back into online gaming again (which is...
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punknitemike:
dont ya wish ya could just skip sundays?
what you're feeling is normal, i think girls get that way moreso than guys. but it doesnt mean that guys dont feel like that, they just have a better way of putting those feelings aside and hiding it. i wouldnt worry too much, he'll come arouind!
do you chat on messenger? i'd love to chat with ya sometime!
what you're feeling is normal, i think girls get that way moreso than guys. but it doesnt mean that guys dont feel like that, they just have a better way of putting those feelings aside and hiding it. i wouldnt worry too much, he'll come arouind!
do you chat on messenger? i'd love to chat with ya sometime!
caffeinemonkey:
You really need to try and balance the time and give him space. If his entire free time and interest was only you... I think you would get sick of it pretty quick. I know it is tough when you are apart like this. But gaming and other hobbies are health.
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misterclean:
she sure is...oh and so are you
bellica:
Awww, just seeing how much you care about him makes me have faith in humanity!
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sherrillee:
I'm so glad that you had a great time. (And you know that Josh was happy for you too!)
Separations are really hard - but it's easier for both of you when you enjoy what your doing. Guilt can be so damaging. And you still have being together in the future to look forward to.
It'll all work out. And you know, if your happy, he will be happy, and if he's happy, you will be too. Sort of a self fulfilling prophecy - if both of you are happy - you will find a way to work it out.
So ride that high through the weekend - and don't stop stressing Sunday's
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Separations are really hard - but it's easier for both of you when you enjoy what your doing. Guilt can be so damaging. And you still have being together in the future to look forward to.
It'll all work out. And you know, if your happy, he will be happy, and if he's happy, you will be too. Sort of a self fulfilling prophecy - if both of you are happy - you will find a way to work it out.
So ride that high through the weekend - and don't stop stressing Sunday's
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caffeinemonkey:
Glad the concert was fun!
today was hectic didn't get home until almost 9pm, lately seems like there's not enough time in the day to get my work done, ugh.
it's okay being busy is good helps me get through the time away from josh, and keeps me focussed on my career.
speaking of good, i may be going to seattle and alaska next month, to check out some vendors,...
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it's okay being busy is good helps me get through the time away from josh, and keeps me focussed on my career.
speaking of good, i may be going to seattle and alaska next month, to check out some vendors,...
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wyldesage:
Im glad your going to the concert.
phunkybrewster:
how long have you been into dave? fave song?
wow alaska !!!!!! you must take tonnnnnnnnns of pics! it is my fantasy to go there.
and you definitely deserve pampering!
i love you girlie!
wow alaska !!!!!! you must take tonnnnnnnnns of pics! it is my fantasy to go there.
and you definitely deserve pampering!
i love you girlie!
happy monday i'm tired.
long day at work, mondays and tuesdays are so fulla meetings for me, i can't get any analysis done, ugh. anyhow late day, but had dinner with misa, she's such a cool kid. we had pinkberry afterwards, was nice to hang with her.
josh called at work talked about him visiting but of course no dates yet but i like to...
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long day at work, mondays and tuesdays are so fulla meetings for me, i can't get any analysis done, ugh. anyhow late day, but had dinner with misa, she's such a cool kid. we had pinkberry afterwards, was nice to hang with her.
josh called at work
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wyldesage:
Yeah this bieng sick sucks for sure, I just need sleep!
Hope you have a good week my dear!
Hope you have a good week my dear!
caffeinemonkey:
Hopefully today won't be too crazy for you.
The only place I have bought DVD's on-line has been Amazon.
The only place I have bought DVD's on-line has been Amazon.
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sherrillee:
We abandoned the bar scene long ago - too expensive! let Craig's List decide on your tix - if they don't sell - go with a friend, take pix and have a blast. If they do sell - well then Karma is saying it's time for a new computer. Leave it up to fate!
heatdude:
Yea, I onced paid $78.50 for bud light....but that did include a lap dance..
busy ass week, wow....just got home, tired, ate a bean and cheese burrito, and i plan on VEGGING. i was gonna have a beer but i think it will put me right to sleep.
actually i have a price increase proposal i should be working on, ugh.
anyhow....tomorrow i have to pick up a b-day gift for my sister in law who i can't stand....
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actually i have a price increase proposal i should be working on, ugh.
anyhow....tomorrow i have to pick up a b-day gift for my sister in law who i can't stand....
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sherrillee:
Damn girl - saying that to someone like me - who's notoriously cheap and a nerd to boot- that you could buy a computer with the proceeds.... damn that's a tough one.
Me, I'd seel the tixs and buy the computer. LOL
Hey, have a great weekend.....
Me, I'd seel the tixs and buy the computer. LOL
Hey, have a great weekend.....
heatdude:
a new nightie
tired tonight, i presume as last night/yesterday was so hectic.
i swear, i had nothing but meetings one after the other all freaking day, and then had to work until like 8pm to get the work i had promised to do today done.
i'm so behind...and tomorrow will be again like this.
stress.
talked to the honey, he was busy too, tired, going to bed...
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i swear, i had nothing but meetings one after the other all freaking day, and then had to work until like 8pm to get the work i had promised to do today done.
i'm so behind...and tomorrow will be again like this.
stress.
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sherrillee:
You should go to Dave Matthews - invite a friend and have a blast. There's no point in denying yourself because Josh is not there. In fact, if you tell him that you are not going because he's not there - it will make him feel guilty. I'm not sure you want to go there with him. And, you can send him pics - and let whoever goes with you take pics of you being happy - and you know that will be a gift you can send Josh. He loves you - and he wants to see you happy.....
Have a great weekend. I can hardly wait for it to be here myself.
Have a great weekend. I can hardly wait for it to be here myself.
caffeinemonkey:
Hopefully after this long week you can have a nice relaxing weekend!
i'm knackered as the brits say.
up at 3:30am, driving to san diego by 4, got there by 6:30....
worked till 10am, ate breakfast until around 11:30 - took us 3 fuckin hours to get to huntington bch where my friend lives that carpooled with me.
oh hells no.
traffic on the 5 was pure hell.
but
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up at 3:30am, driving to san diego by 4, got there by 6:30....
worked till 10am, ate breakfast until around 11:30 - took us 3 fuckin hours to get to huntington bch where my friend lives that carpooled with me.
oh hells no.
traffic on the 5 was pure hell.
but
we did have the iphone, and we did...
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bellica:
Awww, I know how you feel, you've got a hunny buthe's away and I don't have one, LOL... And yes, sushi is the shiznit... 2 FOR 1? obviously!
bellica:
Of course it is... it's always worth the wait if you love someone... Hopefully I'll find my own hunny soon enough, LOL... 
Have a good time!