BLAH!!! I must apologize for the pity party I threw myself in my last journal. I feel much better after putting my rant "out there" and letting myself cool off the last few hours. Passion, in the form of anger, can be so destructive. I'm trying, although unsuccessfully, to control my anger. Funny, some situations where anger seems to be the logical reaction, I cry...
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Catiedid is not allowed to be happy
Catiedid is not allowed to have fun
Catiedid is not allowed to flirt
Catiedid is not allowed to be her own person
Catiedid will limit her comments to others
Catiedid will restrain herself from any flirting
Catiedid will limit her use of this site to the 9-5 work day
Catiedid will become dull unhappy girl
This is my...
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Catiedid is not allowed to have fun
Catiedid is not allowed to flirt
Catiedid is not allowed to be her own person
Catiedid will limit her comments to others
Catiedid will restrain herself from any flirting
Catiedid will limit her use of this site to the 9-5 work day
Catiedid will become dull unhappy girl
This is my...
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aeryn:
Hey there...do you have kids, too?
PS- I have a feeling that no matter how hard you try you wouldn't be able to be dull.
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PS- I have a feeling that no matter how hard you try you wouldn't be able to be dull.
[Edited on Apr 03, 2005 8:08PM]
aeryn:
Yeah I had some hestition too...but my world seems to be exploding.
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josephene:
i'm assuming you made it home...? 
lucina:
Thank you for the compliments. Sorry it has taken me so long to respond. There are so many things I have to do for school this week! Glad you had a safe trip.
Thank you Jacinda for my profile pic! 
I LOVE looking like a complete dork in my profile pic 
I took a few pics today, but since I am on someone elses computer with someone elses photo edit program, i'm having a hard time resizing so I don't look all distorted. So perhaps this one will stay until I get home this weekend.
Last night was...
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I LOVE looking like a complete dork in my profile pic I took a few pics today, but since I am on someone elses computer with someone elses photo edit program, i'm having a hard time resizing so I don't look all distorted. So perhaps this one will stay until I get home this weekend.
Last night was...
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josephene:
Of course being a "damn good" mom is a talent... You should really have a t-shirt that says that...wear it to the next PTA... 
I hope you had a good trip home, honey. Home can either be a fulfilling journey or a crystal clear reminder of why you don't live there anymore. Which one was it for you? A little of both.
I'm VERY impressed with our buddy remyx...you lovely people and your digital cameras.
You should really have a t-shirt that says that...wear it to the next PTA...
I hope you had a good trip home, honey. Home can either be a fulfilling journey or a crystal clear reminder of why you don't live there anymore. Which one was it for you? A little of both.
I'm VERY impressed with our buddy remyx...you lovely people and your digital cameras.
I'm on the hunt for a new profile pic. I don't like any that I've had recently. I feel I've lost my creativity. I can't come up with a cool pic and I haven't had any good journal entries lately. I don't want to be one of those people (although I think I am) that doesn't have anything of significance to say unless full of...
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acidevangelist:
FREE pub crawl? 
Where the hell do I sign up..
Saw my family for Easter. My niece Angela is now 8 months, she's so fun now. She likes me shaved head, she giggles when she touches it.
Yoga class was brutal tonight. We are getting into some balance poses, I was sweating like a mofo.
Has your shoulder healed? 
Where the hell do I sign up..
Saw my family for Easter. My niece Angela is now 8 months, she's so fun now. She likes me shaved head, she giggles when she touches it.
Yoga class was brutal tonight. We are getting into some balance poses, I was sweating like a mofo.
Has your shoulder healed?
catdad:
It might be.
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remyx:
aww, thanks. You really like them?
and thousands, no... I only do what I can here and there.
aww, thanks. You really like them?
and thousands, no... I only do what I can here and there.
remyx:
besides keeping things out of my eyes, I think they just add to the whole mystique. 
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josephene:
I see you made it, chica...glad you're safe and sound.
josephene:
Hey chica, sorry I missed you, busy work morning...blah! having fun?
A few observations from last night's SGArkansas St Patrick's Day Pub Crawl:
-- Guinnessman and Remyx are extremely cool and genuinely great guys
-- Jacinda is a free spirited beautiful girl
--Remyx looks damn fine in a green blazer
--Guinnessman can pull off a gold corduroy fedora with confidence and style
-- Remyx has bigger biceps and triceps than I do even though he...
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-- Guinnessman and Remyx are extremely cool and genuinely great guys
-- Jacinda is a free spirited beautiful girl
--Remyx looks damn fine in a green blazer
--Guinnessman can pull off a gold corduroy fedora with confidence and style
-- Remyx has bigger biceps and triceps than I do even though he...
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josephene:
Morning chica...I called your house last night to comment on how little Miss Carrie Underwood rocked the AI stage, and was told under strict orders that revealing any AI news was off limits. I forgot you had BUNCO, silly girl. Did you get all saucy? I betcha did.
And...have you been away from Indiana so long that you know it's IMPOSSIBLE to pack for the weather? So, bring shorts and your snow suit. You never know what we're going to serve up here.
And...have you been away from Indiana so long that you know it's IMPOSSIBLE to pack for the weather? So, bring shorts and your snow suit. You never know what we're going to serve up here.
jacinda:
OK...I was a lil bit disappointed at first but I am ok. I had sun taking pics of my sissy! KISSES for you though you lil hottie!
Okay, long overdue post about my weekend in Hot Springs. First thing I need to mention is that all the girls (except my friend, the sister of the bride) were all of 24 years old. So there was a bit of a generation gap.
A few highlights:
Conversation from Friday night:
girl 1 to girl 2 "Have you ever kissed a girl?"
girl 2 "I'm...
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A few highlights:
Conversation from Friday night:
girl 1 to girl 2 "Have you ever kissed a girl?"
girl 2 "I'm...
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acidevangelist:
The Dr. is in.
the_happy_pig:
I don't mean terrifying in the 'Morgoth, dark foe of the world' way.
I find it quite intimidating that someone of your ethereal beauty can find the time to come down off the higher plane of existence you (quite rightly) inhabit, in order to rub shoulders with the.... well to put it bluntly..... scum like me.
Hot girls rarely talk to me, and when they do, it's normally something along the lines of 'yuk'.
so it's terrifying in the fact that I'm in unkown territory, not that you make me quake in fear.
Leonard's fine by the way, I'm not sure hes too happy at having me disturb his private little reverie, but I've got someone checking in on him when I'm gone.
I find it quite intimidating that someone of your ethereal beauty can find the time to come down off the higher plane of existence you (quite rightly) inhabit, in order to rub shoulders with the.... well to put it bluntly..... scum like me.
Hot girls rarely talk to me, and when they do, it's normally something along the lines of 'yuk'.
so it's terrifying in the fact that I'm in unkown territory, not that you make me quake in fear.
Leonard's fine by the way, I'm not sure hes too happy at having me disturb his private little reverie, but I've got someone checking in on him when I'm gone.
I was told today that I need to find a way to bring my two worlds closer together
--still pondering this from yesterday
I am off on a girlie weekend! YIPPEEEE!!! Bachlorette party in Hot Springs, day at the horse races tomorrow, night out with a limo tomorrow night, lots of fun and drinking. I'm looking forward to a mindless weekend. I only know two...
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--still pondering this from yesterday
I am off on a girlie weekend! YIPPEEEE!!! Bachlorette party in Hot Springs, day at the horse races tomorrow, night out with a limo tomorrow night, lots of fun and drinking. I'm looking forward to a mindless weekend. I only know two...
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acidevangelist:
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You need to warn me before you post those kinds of pics. I almost had a heart attack. And my head hurts from my eyes popping out of their sockets.
You need to warn me before you post those kinds of pics. I almost had a heart attack. And my head hurts from my eyes popping out of their sockets.
acidevangelist:
I am blown away. BLOWN!, I tell ya!
I was told today that I need to find a way to bring my two worlds closer together
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kingskottie:
no flirting? sorry.... snuggle?
kingskottie:
have fun sweetie pie.
i promise i'll miss you and i promise we'll have some journaling time together soon.
XOXO.
i promise i'll miss you and i promise we'll have some journaling time together soon.
XOXO.
To an Insect
I LOVE to hear thine earnest voice,
Wherever thou art hid,
Thou testy like dogmatist,
Thou pretty Katydid!
Thou mindst me of gentlefolks, --
Old gentlefolks are they, --
Thou say'st an undisputed thing
In such a solemn way.
Thou art a female, Katydid!
I know it by the trill
That quivers through thy piercing notes,
So petulant and shrill;
I think...
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I LOVE to hear thine earnest voice,
Wherever thou art hid,
Thou testy like dogmatist,
Thou pretty Katydid!
Thou mindst me of gentlefolks, --
Old gentlefolks are they, --
Thou say'st an undisputed thing
In such a solemn way.
Thou art a female, Katydid!
I know it by the trill
That quivers through thy piercing notes,
So petulant and shrill;
I think...
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kingskottie:
ugh... i just wanted to say *hi*... no flirting... well... ok... *HI* in a bedroom eyes kinda way.
Reading your journal, I am struck by how well you have articulated so many things that I myself have been grappling with as of late. My inability to deal with strong emotions (passion, anger, fear), often translates into some very self-destructive, self-defeating behavior. Your statement: "...some situations where anger seems to be the logical reaction, I cry and feel sad and beat myself up. While other situations, that really "aren't that bad," I completely lose control" absolutely hits home for me. And how the destructive ghosts of the past resurface just at that crucial moment when one feels as if one has reached some point of happiness and self-acceptance.
Oh, how I can relate, my sweet friend!
Rant away any time, babe. It is therapeutic and necessary.
Bete
PS: I adore your new pics. Your inner beauty is SO very evident. (And they are DAMN hot, too!)
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