on one hand, i'm feeling like a really horrible friend right now then on the other hand, i'm pretty excited as a fireman i met at deranged just called to ask me out on saturday and as i wasn't sure if i could make it (respect festival greenwich dome) so we got chatting and he is on his way over in his nice little shiny...
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There is no pleasure without some degree of pain.
There is no pain without some amount of pleasure.
-Bhante Henepola Gunaratana, "Mindfulness in Plain English"
There is no pain without some amount of pleasure.
-Bhante Henepola Gunaratana, "Mindfulness in Plain English"
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partiallyblind:
evening trouble...
hope the hand is feeling a little better. are you going to come along to the film night on aug 1st?
hope the hand is feeling a little better. are you going to come along to the film night on aug 1st?
fej:
true friends know no distance...
not a bad day, considering i had to stay relatively undrunk enough to come home this evening and work on a strategy document. altho i don't get why it matters that i write it as my bosses have their own idea about what should happen and will change it all anyway...
but some hanging out in soho with the girls from the gym and then...
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but some hanging out in soho with the girls from the gym and then...
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vampsinthe78:
Excellent!
A bit of Sepultura to breeze the cobwebs away...? It used to be my 'unwind' music.... I seem to have an unwind ROUTINE now instead.. Discman in bag.. Mountain bike 'berzerker run' on the farm tracks.. Miscellaneous cds on super loud... That was pretty much the run of today... Have a top day tomorrow.... Im off to get trained in stone masonry believe it or not...
A bit of Sepultura to breeze the cobwebs away...? It used to be my 'unwind' music.... I seem to have an unwind ROUTINE now instead.. Discman in bag.. Mountain bike 'berzerker run' on the farm tracks.. Miscellaneous cds on super loud... That was pretty much the run of today... Have a top day tomorrow.... Im off to get trained in stone masonry believe it or not...it alwaays comes bask to haunt u
sitting
here typing one handed
dishcloth around other
tried to open some shit jar of aioli sauce boy bought me when he took me to tenerife for valentines. yes i know it sounds cheesy and it was but it did not matter as we were together
anyway - screwdriver slipped and dug into bottom of my thumb, cut...
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sitting
here typing one handed
dishcloth around other
tried to open some shit jar of aioli sauce boy bought me when he took me to tenerife for valentines. yes i know it sounds cheesy and it was but it did not matter as we were together
anyway - screwdriver slipped and dug into bottom of my thumb, cut...
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fej:
Thinking of you!
maelwys:
Ouch! Hope yer hands ok
well damn
went up essex road for the 1st time in ages this evening to go meet my x (trying to get back with me) tiger trinity - yes, she is the one that changed her last name so it would go with mine...
but it felt like home.
2 stabbings and a shooting. ppl having wounds packed, and others just not knowing what the...
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went up essex road for the 1st time in ages this evening to go meet my x (trying to get back with me) tiger trinity - yes, she is the one that changed her last name so it would go with mine...
but it felt like home.
2 stabbings and a shooting. ppl having wounds packed, and others just not knowing what the...
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vampsinthe78:
Good on ya! Im so glad you had a cool night! Also very glad you werent aparty to the carnage... Sounds very worrying, since as of lately, the yobs up here seem to be hitting each other (as opposed to knifing and shooting...) 
v78 xxx @_@
v78 xxx @_@
tattoosnscrews:
You are not too old .. not to young ... not to small .. not to tall .. you're just some sexy cake mix baby! Thank you for the Birthday Love ... can I kiss you now?
:Sits and waits for answer:
Kisses you anyway
:Sits and waits for answer:
Kisses you anyway
fucking hell - new emoticons 
BIG thanks to metalchick who orchestrated my re-launch party tonight. for all you straight boys out there and femme loving girls - just imagine 6 really hot rock chicks all dressed in black...well, that was my evening - including champagne and vodka.
i feel so bad and was such a crap friend when i kinda ignored everyone, expecially metal, while...
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BIG thanks to metalchick who orchestrated my re-launch party tonight. for all you straight boys out there and femme loving girls - just imagine 6 really hot rock chicks all dressed in black...well, that was my evening - including champagne and vodka.
i feel so bad and was such a crap friend when i kinda ignored everyone, expecially metal, while...
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8_missing_8:
Miss Behave introduced me to the site when I built her site for her, before I met you or we had a ::relationship::
I didn't realise being friendly constituted flirting but whatever...
I'm using this as a medium, I have found some old friends here that I don't log with to keep them that way, and made some good contacts for my Oz plans.
I don't see why you are hanging up on something that wasn't working anyway... Suggest you read your own journals as a reminder.
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I joined after we broke up. Yes. I also stopped ::looking:: at SG and other such sites sometime into our relationship thinking it the right thing to do. The :: is used by me to emphasise an action or something...
Yes we were both monogamous (spelling?) but as your May 4th entry shows, for how long? I knew there was something about Sword from when you challenged me with his love back in Dec and what you told me after we met him on Oxford Street that night... Then you kept going on and on about your old friend back in town, washboard belly, yadda yadda. All good timing, and as you were so devastated it took you a whole 48 hours to arrange a date so you could fuck again after having loved etc.
I'm no fool... I'm also not here to get in your face. We work for the same company, we live in the same country, I think SG is not really an issue... and at least 2 out of 3 won't be an issue soon. As for me being childish, who joined one of my groups to leave comments to people I just wanted some advice and a beer from? And now i've been evicted from SGUK... Jeez.
I made the effort to try and be friends one day, i've not said a bad word or any word about you on any of the platforms I work on, inc SG. I left Friendster as requested although you saw fit to contact one of my friends to warn them about me...
Sometimes people do get what they wished for... I wish you all the best.
[Edited on Jul 11, 2003]
I didn't realise being friendly constituted flirting but whatever...
I'm using this as a medium, I have found some old friends here that I don't log with to keep them that way, and made some good contacts for my Oz plans.
I don't see why you are hanging up on something that wasn't working anyway... Suggest you read your own journals as a reminder.
Edited to save space
I joined after we broke up. Yes. I also stopped ::looking:: at SG and other such sites sometime into our relationship thinking it the right thing to do. The :: is used by me to emphasise an action or something...
Yes we were both monogamous (spelling?) but as your May 4th entry shows, for how long? I knew there was something about Sword from when you challenged me with his love back in Dec and what you told me after we met him on Oxford Street that night... Then you kept going on and on about your old friend back in town, washboard belly, yadda yadda. All good timing, and as you were so devastated it took you a whole 48 hours to arrange a date so you could fuck again after having loved etc.
I'm no fool... I'm also not here to get in your face. We work for the same company, we live in the same country, I think SG is not really an issue... and at least 2 out of 3 won't be an issue soon. As for me being childish, who joined one of my groups to leave comments to people I just wanted some advice and a beer from? And now i've been evicted from SGUK... Jeez.
I made the effort to try and be friends one day, i've not said a bad word or any word about you on any of the platforms I work on, inc SG. I left Friendster as requested although you saw fit to contact one of my friends to warn them about me...
Sometimes people do get what they wished for... I wish you all the best.
[Edited on Jul 11, 2003]
cakemix:
but you didn't join until after we broke up, knowing it was somewhere i was...
and what's with the :: around relationship?
if being in love with someone and being monogamous with them for 8 months and making plans for the future together isn't a relationship then what is.
and what's with the :: around relationship?
if being in love with someone and being monogamous with them for 8 months and making plans for the future together isn't a relationship then what is.
just thought i'd post right now as i'm not feeling REALLY bad... 
plans for tonight are now all over the place. those of you with my number - use it!
metalchick - maybe i will see you tonight after all...
plans for tonight are now all over the place. those of you with my number - use it!
metalchick - maybe i will see you tonight after all...
vampsinthe78:
Just to let you know I DID manage to get home OK.. There was a hlaf run tram, so I had to walk back from Pomona Docks... About 3 miles.. Booo... And to let you know Kevs not too badly hurt.. At least we didnt have to scrape him off the road, like last time. Bad break on his drumming/wanking arm Slight fractured femur and loads of road rash.. (ouchy) I hope your eve with the lovely Metalchick1979 was pretty good!
I have New Model Army on loud for some reason, whilst I formulate a plan... Its my thinking music, is s'pose. A hotel room for the night doesnt sound too bad actually.... O_O Lets hope you can come up for the 18th eh? Really hope you can! xxx v78
Slight fractured femur and loads of road rash.. (ouchy) I hope your eve with the lovely Metalchick1979 was pretty good!
I have New Model Army on loud for some reason, whilst I formulate a plan... Its my thinking music, is s'pose. A hotel room for the night doesnt sound too bad actually.... O_O Lets hope you can come up for the 18th eh? Really hope you can! xxx v78
firstly. thanks to all who commented, phoned, texted and sent me flowers...it was really sweet and kind that u all took the time to do that for me. i really want to stay but we will see how it goes...i'm on a thin edge and can't really risk doing things that could tip it over any more.
i still feel lonely and homesick and even...
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vampsinthe78:
Up at the dawn chorus eh? Theres nothing more horrid than that noise (and light O_O)
BIIIGGG Love n kisses.. Hope you get on the recovery road soon, mate! Did you get to see any of Slayer? Did you get to the horrendous bar in the astoria? I nearly died of dehydration coz they kept serving all the TALL people first. I was at that sodding bar for about 40mins... Serves me right for going to a Neds/EMF, a gig, as a callow youth really though dunnit?
vampsinthe xxxx @_@
ps.. Cranberry DOES help, so my sister reckons!!!
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BIIIGGG Love n kisses.. Hope you get on the recovery road soon, mate! Did you get to see any of Slayer? Did you get to the horrendous bar in the astoria? I nearly died of dehydration coz they kept serving all the TALL people first. I was at that sodding bar for about 40mins... Serves me right for going to a Neds/EMF, a gig, as a callow youth really though dunnit?
vampsinthe xxxx @_@
ps.. Cranberry DOES help, so my sister reckons!!!
[Edited on Jul 10, 2003]
twwly:
oh dear.
i am sending lots of hugs your way.
i am sending lots of hugs your way.
what i wrote in the x boy (8_vagabond_8) journal and posted to sguk earlier:
first of all. when u joined this community after you dumped me u said that u would stay away from ppl i know and their journals. i still don't understand why you joined when you didn't have any interest when we were together and i invited you when we first started...
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first of all. when u joined this community after you dumped me u said that u would stay away from ppl i know and their journals. i still don't understand why you joined when you didn't have any interest when we were together and i invited you when we first started...
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big_dave:
sorry to see you going thru the mill again honey After your previous postings re the schmuck I'd noticed his ass popping up here and there on the site and guessed it must be pissing you right off.
you have my number if you wanna talk
After your previous postings re the schmuck I'd noticed his ass popping up here and there on the site and guessed it must be pissing you right off.
you have my number if you wanna talk
kinto:
That sucks when people just don't know where a story ends... Try to take it easy and if your friends list shrinks, well you'll know who are the real ones
K
K
have no idea how or why but feel so much better today. just woke up that way after a very strange dream. probably induced by drinking tony montanas at garlic and shots mixed with allergy medicine. forgot how that can affect me. almost overdosed a few times back in the day because of the way it affects me for some reason.
unfortunately just because i...
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first day back at work. i hate it here. everyone knows the boy dumped me and it makes me wish as tho i hated him, but i don't - well, maybe sometimes. but its so fucking embarassing.
vampsinthe has sent me some more little bettie designs for web/tattoo and that makes me happy. can't wait to get everything up online so you can all see...
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vampsinthe has sent me some more little bettie designs for web/tattoo and that makes me happy. can't wait to get everything up online so you can all see...
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papawheelie:
you rock,sister. you'll do well wherever you go
fej:
Hi darlin...
Check out my profile pic...
Check out my profile pic...
my mood is still scaring me. i've got my first dread client since i came back from l.a. today and i dont know how i'm going to get through it. then tomoro is my first day back at work. there are hundreds of ppl there that all know i was dumped hard by a person i'm still in love with but if i don't go...
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bostonstrangler:
hey sugar......cheer up,ya still got me.that counts for something right?
koolthing:
love and hugs...hope all is getting better and you are spending some time on you. You deserve it...
check the LJ - i was trying to bring Mikey to the Hootenanny...
check the LJ - i was trying to bring Mikey to the Hootenanny...
except for everything...
and your smile is everything...