cakemix

hey...
m just left - came to get more of his things and we talked
oki we aren' back together but we both want to try, we aren't actually trying yet but he's asked me to have safe sex if i do fuck anyone else...

its weird but its a step closer
he still loves me he said

it was really hard - i was...
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i'm being all "cultural" and doing so much more these days...went out thursday night and saw 'the bull' at the barbican which was really fucking amaxing - well all but the golf scene. go see it if you can - its supposed to be based on an old irish fable but had so much vulgarity and violence in it that it coulda happened in my...
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my eyes itch and i hurt all over...and what a fucking weekend its been!

zodiac mindwarp party upstairs at the intrepid fox last night and then eritrean vegan dinner with gimpo from KLF this evening - 2 blasts from the past and now pushkin has come back here to stay with me while her mommy and daddy are off playing.

my allergies mean my right...
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thanks to all your help (well a couple of you)

i've decided to give up looking for a new boyfriend/girlfriend for lent.

so for 40 days/nights i'm only going to have fuck puppies.

and luckily i think that lent breaks right after my birthday - whew!
well that is if there are any suitable candidates to be had by then...

wish. me. luck.

VIDEO of RavenIsis preforming with renegade burlesque at the club nasin at the underworld on valentines night. i am such a proud mom!

if you shoved the reddish pinkish jelly babies up my cunt and liquidized them then that would be the period blood i'm having today...smell likes sweeties as well!

the doctors are still being useless and i have the worst pain in my upper left abdomen.
ugh.

my life does just go in cycles - some good, some bad, some i'm not so sure about.
last night was a strange one where things have shifted and i am so thankful for the people around me. it was my first weekend alone as a single rampant divorcee in 2 years and i ended up spending it almost exactly like the last night of...
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...but then he shows up at the spur of the moment last night just as i have to leave for wolfmother and in the end we hugged and it was the release i needed. no idea how my make up stayed intact! this is so hard and it sucks the big one that we do really love each other but i dont' know how to...
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so when someone leaves you isn't LEAVE the operative word and shouldn't they then just leave you the fuck alone? i've asked him really really nicely over and over again not to call me, to just txt me when he knows when he's collecting the rest of his things, but he's still calling me daily...and today when i was wobbling between hate, anger, sorrow, depression...
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in the end he's made it really easy for me to walk away from him...

he showed up this morning to pick up his stuff and despite what he did to me in cyprus i still wanted to work things out. i'm a woman - i started crying. then he yells at me that i'm an embarrassment to myself and that i'm being dramatic. sorry...
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