Brookelynne Suicide | Alternative Model for SuicideGirls

r a p t u r e
because I always want to remeber, and now theres no going back

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kris7:

Hey there. Sounds like your doing just fine and all is well. How is big man Lucas doing?

Feb 28, 2004

lorelei:

thanks on the hair advice, i looove tea tree, so i'm definitely going to try that!

Mar 1, 2004

Life is fabulous.

Remember a while back in one of my journal entries I said I wished I could just stay home in bed writing poetry and eating organic chocolate?

Thanks to my mum and Lucas's dad-
for the time being- I AM!!! They are supporting me so I can take some time off.

I get to stay home with my adorable son 24 hours...
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coldenginelogix:

....I want to lay in bed and do that......hope all is still well....keep meaning to write you a long email...but just got busy under the grind....talk soon.....

Feb 22, 2004

mistressrory:

Awwww He is a very beautiful baby!

Feb 23, 2004

much love
b

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kris7:

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

Feb 14, 2004

max_murder:

nah dont work there, but got most of my work there

Feb 15, 2004

a poem

12.02.03

Don’t know why im typing this here
Cant find a piece of paper
Only have blue pens
So damn trashy unfinished unpolished imperfect impoverished
This computer might crash like it always does because its
A piece of shit just like everything
Just like this feeling
Just because
Im too poor to help myself out of this mess
Don’t have any other choice...
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ndoki:

a response:

The future becoming present

From now on - and for some centuries to come - the Universe will help the warriors of the light and boycott the prejudiced.
The energy of the Earth needs renovating.
New ideas need space.
The body and the soul need new challenges.
The future becomes present and all the dreams - except those that involve prejudices - will enjoy the chance to manifest themselves.
Whatever is important will remain; whatever is useless will disappear. For that reason, when lots of people gather to give their opinion on how he should act or behave, the warrior ignores all criticism, understanding that his mission on Earth leaves him no time for explaining everything he does.
He also avoids commenting on the behavior of others: in order to have faith in his own path, he has no need to prove that the path of the other is wrong. Those who act like that have no trust in their own steps.

Feb 7, 2004

jayde__:

I feel cheesy saying this, but... wow... this is absolutely wonderful. It's brought me to tears, too...

Feb 12, 2004

I'm
hibernating
and trying to cultivate
some sort of portfolio
got to get the wheels running on this train
again
i think i can
i think i can

some doors are openng for me
ive got to be prepared

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cheech:

When I jumped off, I had a bucket full of thoughts
when I first jumped off, I held that bucket in my hand...
ideas that would take me all around the world
I stood and watched the smoke behind the mountain curl
took me a long time to get back on the train
took me a long time to get back on the train

--Tom Marshall/ Trey Anastasio

Feb 4, 2004

schoolgirl:

Kris7 told me to check out your pics, your baby is sooooo beautiful. from one proud mommy to another, never stop bragging about how awesome your child is. he's gorgeous, lucky you.

Feb 4, 2004

I think I am addicted to change.
I'm feeling the momentum of all the changes I've made recently, and I'm feeling the need to change bigger things about my life i.e which state I live in, who my lover is, when I go back to college, the type of people I let into my life, or maybe my hormones are just fluxuating

I saved $...
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coldenginelogix:

positive is good-----making art is even better-hope all is well with you and the kiddo--good times are being had by all....just landed a new job so yeah for me and you! Change is always good but can be a bit overwhelming......but we all have to weed our mental gardens when we can....

Jan 30, 2004

libby:

glad to see ur feeling so good

Jan 31, 2004

bitter
biting and
blistering
blustering
blindingly cold.

stayed home today.
kissed my son.
watched him sleep and wrote a poem
in a beautiful journal that kris7 sent me.
-thank you

******************
when I know nowhere
being here now
having nothing but this void
love vaccum sucking
me in those
rythms
suckling me like my son for nourishment
words like nourishment
starving soul speaker
stripped of...
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zerogirl:

bunny suicide book=

very funny

word of the day...cherish
because it all goes so fast.

Jan 28, 2004

sempi:

Hi, glad to see you & your son are doing well.

Jan 28, 2004

I cant wait for summer, or even spring...what the hell am I thinking livng in the northeast...it is so freaking cold...Mazzy doesnt even want to go outside to pee..poor pug...pugsicle

it was -11 degrees out this afternoon!

I got more pics of Lucas developed today and I posted a few....

I just realized Ive been wearing the same wool socks for three days now...ugh...

where...
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sempi:

Your baby's a sweetie. Glad to see your both doing well.

Jan 23, 2004

retsin:

mommahood seems to make you super happy...thats great cuz you've got one adorable little baby.

Jan 26, 2004

Oh my oh my....
this baby stuff is something to get used to....

sleep what sleep?

I am so happy though. It's such a rush having this little person around all the time who needs me for everything.

I've never felt so wholesome in my entire life. I'm surrounded by people who want to help me and who care about me (especially here at SG)...
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winter_____:

Congratulations, mama!!! He's beautiful, and I'm so glad things are working out.

Jan 12, 2004

salome_seule:

congrats- reading your journal, its obvious you're a girl with strength. and i'm sure you'll make a great mom.

Jan 16, 2004

lucas elijah was born on december 22 at 9:22 pm. He was 8 lbs 12 0z.
After 11 hours of labor I ended up having an emergency c-section because his head wouldnt fit through my pelvis.

We went home on Christmas and so far everything has been wonderful. My boobs are killing me (all this kid does is eat!)

I've posted one pic-more to come...
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flux:

he is lovely, but what would you expect from a momma like that? congratulations, and i'm so glad things are better for you.

Jan 7, 2004

dune:

awwwwwwwwwwwww

Jan 7, 2004

I'm at the best western in the lobby next to a fishtank trying not to be stared at but I had to clue yall in to whats going on...my house (well my mums house and thats where I've been staying) has burned down

her electric blanket caught fire while we were in bed, everyones ok, slightly singed but ok, and all the animals got out...
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vikprez:

Merry Christmas and my best wishes go out to you

Dec 24, 2003

elan:

We're all sending you good thoughts. Let us know how you are and if there's anything you're newly discovering that you need (that happens to all mommies whether or not disaster strikes).

Till then...

Dec 29, 2003

I got my apartment today!!!!!

I move in on friday...I am so excited!

No new developments on the baby front, just plenty of anxiousness and exhaustion on my end. I've completely lost my appetite and all I do is sleep(sorry I havent updated recently).

I'm still having $ issues but I have what I need and I can get by with what I've got so...
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artchick:

I think santia's idea is great! Yay virtual SG housewarming party!!!

Dec 6, 2003

nimhly:

yay, i got your journal run journal today. i love what you wrote in the front cover...

Dec 8, 2003

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