Wed. January 15

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Why do I always decide to blog when I'm already so tired?

Anywho, I'll try to keep this brief. So, today was the big day; weigh-in day. I waited with baited breath for the digital read out and lo and behold, I was down another 2lbs. Obviously, there is nothing wrong with this, but I'm still struggling with the idea of "only" losing 2lbs. I...
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Sat. January 11

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I'm really struggling with a lot of random thoughts at the moment.

First off, I'm obviously worried about the whole weight thing. I know it's a process, I didn't put it on overnight, I won't lose it overnight, I'm just worried about plateauing or gaining. I've been super faithful to the challenge. Not perfect, but still really good. Been working out. No chocolates, no pastries,...
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blackhelix:
That can definitely be true at times.  I don't think you're crazy though, the second part of your blog talks about going over scenarios in your head and possible outcomes of conversations and stuff like that, I do that a decent amount too.  As for not forgiving someone that screwed you over I think that's normal as well.  It's hard to let certain things go especially if they've caused you pain of some sort.  Try your best to do the things that make you happy and don't worry about what other people think.  Other people come and go all the time but you have to live with you your whole life.
bellaswan:
I can relate with so much that you are writing here! I mean I never realised it until I read this post that I pretty much do all the same things! I over imagine absolutely everything, like you said, down to situations with people who have fucked me over in the past.  I think about what I'd say, how I would say it if I was to see/confront them! I also have the issue where I always think they have 'won' if I forgive and forget.   I find that my grudges have altered my life a lot though, I have let people just wander out of my life purely based on the fact that I wasnt willing to forgive.  I have lost a very good friend from exactly that problem!!   I only have 1 friend, she is my best friend and the only person I can trust with anything, everyone else are just aquaintances! I also have my boyfriend who I have a very decent relationship with and can trust him wholly but I find it difficult to trust anyone else at all!   I hope it doesnt alter your life half as much as it has mine!! 

Wed. January 8

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Quick update before I gotta go to work.

Weighed myself this morning and I was down, which means I've lost 6 lbs since last Wednesday. Obviously, I'm super happy about this, but now I'm slightly unsure how to... proceed? Should I aim to lose another 2lbs by this time next week, or should I just be happy that reached my 3rd week goal so quickly?...
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2014 Goals

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1) Read 4 books
2) Lose 30lbs
3) Get a new job
4) Go to the gym at least twice a week
5) Get at least 3 new tattoos and touch up/fix another 3
6) Procrastinate less
7) Keep my room clean and organized
8) Speak my mind more
9) Have $15,000 in my RSP by year end (currently over $10,100)
10) Try to fall...
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Tue. January 7

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Gonna try to keep this post short, otherwise I'll end up rambling and whatever.

- Tried apple slices with (melted) peanut butter for the first time yesterday and I actually kinda like it. I found it helped me deal with the sometimes boring taste of apple. And I had it again today. If anyone's debating this, I would recommend it.

- Wanted to go for...
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Sun. January 5

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So, I'm still doing alright-ish. I think.

I technically only had 2 meals today. One was a sandwich from Quizno's and the other was a chicken caesar salad from a pub. However, at the pub, the people I was with ordered a cheese and onion ale dip or whatever. I did have some, but just a little on 2 small pieces of baguette and 2...
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