boozilla

my love life is really confusing. my ex-bf im still totally in love with but i wont get back with him till i can trust he's not doing drugs any more. now today my friend rebecca asked me out and it was awkward. i told her i wasnt looking for a relationship (i gues she was yikes) and gave her a hig and a kiss on the cheek so she would feel better. and then my ex bf found out now hes pissed. grrr and all i want is a new bf/gf i can trust that is cute and has their shit together (like thats too much to ask for lol) but i cant get over my damn ex-bf.