OK, I need to get the phuck out of my house. Francisco and I are going to go out for coffee because everything and everybody sucks ass. I guess he was talking to Stacey and she claims i'm getting "too attatched" despite the fact she calls me SIX times a day and I call her, um, ZERO times a day? Yeah. And I never let...
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Thanks so much for your responses, they made me feel so much better. I felt like some hysterical woman in a 1950's movie and Dia's response was the good slap in the face I needed to help me make sense. I don't know why I went all crazy last night, it's just because when something really stupid and pointless keeps happening to you like 80,000...
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sixsixty:
but i bring my own water?
go_lately:
*happy dance*
Hmm, the love euphoria feeling didn't last, shit went down tonight. I feel like I am a half-dead corpse and all of the women in the world converge to become a smarmy 8-year-old boy that insists on prodding my eye with a very sharp stick to see if I am alive.
So both Stacey and Josie wanted to come clubbing tonight. At 9:30 I called...
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dia:
You're being silly, beautiful. We don't all fall into categories. I sure as fuck don't. That's why I love SuicideGirls, seriously, haha, because I never much got hit on by hot chicks until I was on here, yeeehaw! Irregardless, I think we should go out sometime and hook you up with someone rad. I can be the other woman that makes everyone jealous enough to hit on you. I totally understand what you are saying about why be gay if the perks aren't there. I've often thought I would've been if the perks were.
Your problem is just your self-esteem. And yes, the SF dyke scene is a certain way as well. And maybe you just have to take it slow... slow... I think with less selection, there are less returns perhaps. I cannot tell you all the many long hours I contemplated dropping men only to realize I'd just wind up alone myself.
My main concern though is how you categorize yourself. There is no point to it. Some of us are just sort of weird. I make zero sense either. It's okay. Just maintain your radiant level of who you are and let yourself shine, and be a fucking diva, be above everyone, and you will have them licking your toes.
First of all. You need to determine your goal, if you haven't already. What do you want? Do you want a LTR? Or what. Second thing to keep in your head... make a list even... what do you HOPE for in a woman? (column A) and (column B) what do you not find attractive or acceptible. There, now don't forget it when you go out. Know who you are going for. But don't go straight for the jugular, hold back some, if you were a man I'd give you different advice, but I think if you don't want to be used for sex, you need to warm into a relationship with someone slowly... really getting to know them first... women are often tempted to sleep with each other quickly just because you're like, holy fuck there's a totally hot naked chick in my bed. But resist.... as best as you can.
Your problem is just your self-esteem. And yes, the SF dyke scene is a certain way as well. And maybe you just have to take it slow... slow... I think with less selection, there are less returns perhaps. I cannot tell you all the many long hours I contemplated dropping men only to realize I'd just wind up alone myself.
My main concern though is how you categorize yourself. There is no point to it. Some of us are just sort of weird. I make zero sense either. It's okay. Just maintain your radiant level of who you are and let yourself shine, and be a fucking diva, be above everyone, and you will have them licking your toes.
First of all. You need to determine your goal, if you haven't already. What do you want? Do you want a LTR? Or what. Second thing to keep in your head... make a list even... what do you HOPE for in a woman? (column A) and (column B) what do you not find attractive or acceptible. There, now don't forget it when you go out. Know who you are going for. But don't go straight for the jugular, hold back some, if you were a man I'd give you different advice, but I think if you don't want to be used for sex, you need to warm into a relationship with someone slowly... really getting to know them first... women are often tempted to sleep with each other quickly just because you're like, holy fuck there's a totally hot naked chick in my bed. But resist.... as best as you can.
go_lately:
i think you're beautiful
i think you're sexy
i love techno too
i love your writing
if i was any closer to you i'd snatch you up in a second.
i just went though kinda the same thing last week. push. shove. you'll break through it. and yes, you will be stronger.
i wish you so much happiness and i wish even more that i could be there to give it to you
i think you're sexy
i love techno too
i love your writing
if i was any closer to you i'd snatch you up in a second.
i just went though kinda the same thing last week. push. shove. you'll break through it. and yes, you will be stronger.
i wish you so much happiness and i wish even more that i could be there to give it to you
Just a little shout out to say I like you guys. A lot. You make me feel happy and loved.
As soon as I write something substantial or rediscover something I wrote long ago that was cool, i'll post it.
I love you, man!!!
As soon as I write something substantial or rediscover something I wrote long ago that was cool, i'll post it.
I love you, man!!!
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prudence:
hey, what a coinky-dink. i just updated my journal and wrote all about feeling loved. i'm so glad you feel it, too...
mike11:
just being honest.
I was irresponsible today. Instead of going to my Spanish class, I hung out with my creative writing professor for an hour and we talked about life/things we think are funny. We talked about how to improve my writing and I think it rekindled my desire to write. She talked about how much she liked my most recent short story and how it made her...
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mike11:
I knew just by reading your journal entries that you are a great writer. Does this meen your entries are going to get even better? I like the new photo - you have great eyes.
freyja__:
agreed!
you are such a lovely *lady*!
eloquent, enchanting and so fine!
go ahead now with your smart self.
xo
you are such a lovely *lady*!
eloquent, enchanting and so fine!
go ahead now with your smart self.
xo
Current soundtrack: #1 Crush by Garbage
Does anybody else love this song as much as I do? Although I have many, many self-proclaimed theme songs, at times I think this is the one that fits me best. I've adopted it since 8th grade.
Talked with Stacey tonight and she told me she likes me, that she wants to keep dating me. She explained that she...
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Does anybody else love this song as much as I do? Although I have many, many self-proclaimed theme songs, at times I think this is the one that fits me best. I've adopted it since 8th grade.
Talked with Stacey tonight and she told me she likes me, that she wants to keep dating me. She explained that she...
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Awww! Claudia just named me as her fave SF member!!! Thank you! **Tongue hangs out of mouth, drools all over self**
Just got out of Spanish class, where I flunked a pop quiz. I abhor Spanish. It's hard for me to grasp since i'm used to English sentence structure so much. Also, it is an embarassment that I don't know Spanish. My family speaks only...
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Just got out of Spanish class, where I flunked a pop quiz. I abhor Spanish. It's hard for me to grasp since i'm used to English sentence structure so much. Also, it is an embarassment that I don't know Spanish. My family speaks only...
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digdug:
cut of the fat of fate?
Que es?
sorry toots, your just too fricking cute to look evil. you look like, at and minute, you're either gonna crack and start laughing or that you are about to ravish some little hottie.
Que es?
sorry toots, your just too fricking cute to look evil. you look like, at and minute, you're either gonna crack and start laughing or that you are about to ravish some little hottie.
volkov:
guys may be dumb, but girls are just plain wierd.
:-)
hopefully that works out somehow....I mean...what is she thinking?? If she had any sense at all.....hmph...some people just don't know what they have in front of them.
and uh...not to be the asshole male....but if you *should* happen to give Angelina Jolie the sine on (as IF!) ..could you give her my number? :-D
I get what you mean about Spanish. I've been trying to learn it since I am in Cuba and am supposed to go to South AMerica at some point, but it's bad enough that my Russian and my English overlap in my head.
Dammital! ( a new antidepressant! it works my inhibiting the chemicals in your brain that make you give a flying fuck...)
Anyhow just wanted to day I hope all goes well. You deserve better than those stoopid reindeer games.
V
:-)
hopefully that works out somehow....I mean...what is she thinking?? If she had any sense at all.....hmph...some people just don't know what they have in front of them.
and uh...not to be the asshole male....but if you *should* happen to give Angelina Jolie the sine on (as IF!) ..could you give her my number? :-D
I get what you mean about Spanish. I've been trying to learn it since I am in Cuba and am supposed to go to South AMerica at some point, but it's bad enough that my Russian and my English overlap in my head.
Dammital! ( a new antidepressant! it works my inhibiting the chemicals in your brain that make you give a flying fuck...)
Anyhow just wanted to day I hope all goes well. You deserve better than those stoopid reindeer games.
V
Today is such a nice day in SF. The sun is out and everybody is cheery, just walking down the street makes me feel like I am in a broadway musical.
Yep yep. I haven't seen Stacey yet today. We have been spending incredulous amounts of time hanging out and although it's fun, I think we both kind of realized that we were rushing into...
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Yep yep. I haven't seen Stacey yet today. We have been spending incredulous amounts of time hanging out and although it's fun, I think we both kind of realized that we were rushing into...
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claudia:
I am so happy that you are happy! and stuff! I haven't had the chance to do anything on this site lately except post haphazard journal entries trying to sum up my busy life. Not having the internet makes shit difficult. But I just wanted to give a shout out to my favorite SF member, so YOYO!
febo:
re: that first paragraph; that would be one musical i'd actually sit thru. enjoy the weather and think about us dummies who live down south here. who the fuck's idea was it to settle in texas anyway. what morons.
nice day to you!
t
nice day to you!
t
I'm so glad I have absolute confirmation that my Stacey stories aren't boring, lol. I just got through hanging out with her again, too. It's 5am.
Basically, after my last journal entry, we proceeded to talk on the phone for 5 hours straight. Excerpt from actual conversation:
"Dude, have you ever eaten Red Swedish Fish?" -Stacey
"I haven't even heard of them." -Me
"Oh. That...
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Basically, after my last journal entry, we proceeded to talk on the phone for 5 hours straight. Excerpt from actual conversation:
"Dude, have you ever eaten Red Swedish Fish?" -Stacey
"I haven't even heard of them." -Me
"Oh. That...
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prudence:
stacey sounds really cute, too!
mike11:
She sounds great. I am glad to hear that you have met a person as good as you .
Ahem. **Walks over to stereo, puts on the flashdance soundtrack**
"She's a maniac, maaaaaniac on the floor! And she's dancing like she's never danced befoooore!" **Does flashdance move, spinning around rapidly in circles pumping heels**
This is what Stacey makes me do every time I get off the phone with her. Just kidding.
I should probably stop talking about Stacey, i've noticed reader response in...
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"She's a maniac, maaaaaniac on the floor! And she's dancing like she's never danced befoooore!" **Does flashdance move, spinning around rapidly in circles pumping heels**
This is what Stacey makes me do every time I get off the phone with her. Just kidding.
I should probably stop talking about Stacey, i've noticed reader response in...
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rogueboy:
HAHAHA!!! You know what, I still love the title track, despite the 80's cheesiness. But I can't listen to it TOO much, lest my manhood be threatened, or something.
And remember, the story does not have to be about those three objects. Your story just has to be about your characters, as they drive the story. The ceramic dog and the spanish fan (the two props I think you should stick with) are simply props in the story.
Flannery O'Connor must have been a good writer because she must have known her life was going to be short.
And remember, the story does not have to be about those three objects. Your story just has to be about your characters, as they drive the story. The ceramic dog and the spanish fan (the two props I think you should stick with) are simply props in the story.
Flannery O'Connor must have been a good writer because she must have known her life was going to be short.
mike11:
I have been away for a few days and have not seen you journal lately. I cant believe that it is getting boring - you are too creative in your writing for that.
I got the DJ Irene CD today, it fuckin' kicks ass! I have a lot of respect for her, to be not only a sucessful female DJ, but to proudly display the fact she is a lesbian as well.
Stacey and I roamed around Haight, shopped, and had coffee. I like her so much...her enthusiasm is so refreshing to experience. I love how bright her...
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Stacey and I roamed around Haight, shopped, and had coffee. I like her so much...her enthusiasm is so refreshing to experience. I love how bright her...
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prudence:
it is true- i DO kick his ass, and he knows it!
dia:
leetle note to say you are rad.
Good point about tonight: Stacey admitted to having a crush on me to Maria
Bad point about tonight: Um, I witnessed A RAPE.
So Maria and I were walking home from the club, right? We were near my place when I heard a woman's muffled cries coming from behind some bushes. I asked Maria if she heard anything, and she could only vaguely hear it...
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Bad point about tonight: Um, I witnessed A RAPE.
So Maria and I were walking home from the club, right? We were near my place when I heard a woman's muffled cries coming from behind some bushes. I asked Maria if she heard anything, and she could only vaguely hear it...
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but hey, if you're happy, that is what matters most.