The agent provacateur goes unnoticed.
Big girl Bionic concentrates on getting the job on Friday.
Big girl Bionic concentrates on getting the job on Friday.
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The entire world is going to end on Valentine's Day.
Isn't that the day that the weapons inspectors are going to give their evidence to the U.N. council?
I always knew that holiday was bad news.
It's about a week and a half away. I will be made the brunt of mocking couples worldwide, and then we'll probably go to war. DOH!
With the upcoming...
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Isn't that the day that the weapons inspectors are going to give their evidence to the U.N. council?
I always knew that holiday was bad news.
It's about a week and a half away. I will be made the brunt of mocking couples worldwide, and then we'll probably go to war. DOH!
With the upcoming...
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volkov:
I don't feel like I can advise you too well here. but if it were me. I'd either ignore it, or respond in such a way as that the person would know that, while I was not ignoring them, they would do better to let me alone.
last Valentine's Day I was in frezzing rain shooting a machine gun. the year before that one I was just showing up for my first day of boot camp.
this year...I'll be packing for a much needed vacation.
St. Valentine can take his day and shove it up a downward pointing orifice for all I care.
if I've ever enoyed that day, it's been on my own terms.
so fuck Hallmark and fuck your local florist....I mean...if she/he is cute that is. ;-D
v
last Valentine's Day I was in frezzing rain shooting a machine gun. the year before that one I was just showing up for my first day of boot camp.
this year...I'll be packing for a much needed vacation.
St. Valentine can take his day and shove it up a downward pointing orifice for all I care.
if I've ever enoyed that day, it's been on my own terms.
so fuck Hallmark and fuck your local florist....I mean...if she/he is cute that is. ;-D
v
bionicfemme:
I already did.
She's the one who writes me the emails.
lol.
She's the one who writes me the emails.
lol.
She wrote me again to say she is sorry. I told her to never come back, and she did. But i'm not opening this door. I'm going to turn off all the lights and pretend i'm not home.
I will ignore the love I have for her, the strongest love I have ever felt for another human being in my entire life.
This is the...
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I will ignore the love I have for her, the strongest love I have ever felt for another human being in my entire life.
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requiem:
Go to L.A. with me.
volkov:
when we meet up for coffee, I'll show you some neet Marine Corps Martial Arts mojo.
I'd tell you to stay strong, but I don't think you need that. you've got enough metal in your soul keep your bones from collapse.
v
I'd tell you to stay strong, but I don't think you need that. you've got enough metal in your soul keep your bones from collapse.
v
Off to taekwondo.
You know what I really hate? Those people that completely suck, are unstable, yet act vain to cover up their own insecurities. It's like um yeah, putting on a Maria Carey facade doesn't make you look confident, it makes you look like an idiot.
And then they pretend they are soooo sad and hurt when they start fights with you and you...
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You know what I really hate? Those people that completely suck, are unstable, yet act vain to cover up their own insecurities. It's like um yeah, putting on a Maria Carey facade doesn't make you look confident, it makes you look like an idiot.
And then they pretend they are soooo sad and hurt when they start fights with you and you...
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volkov:
so you're saying you DON'T like passive-aggressive hoser poseurs?
have fun at tae kwon do. and don't be thinking you get to practice any of it on me! well...unless you wear the chun-li outfit! hee hee hee
*HUG*
v
have fun at tae kwon do. and don't be thinking you get to practice any of it on me! well...unless you wear the chun-li outfit! hee hee hee
*HUG*
v
prettyb0y:
I have come for comical relief.
*suddenly dressed in all black with white face paint and black lipstick* Even though there is no relief from the utter futility of bleak life. *Goth pose**Back to normal*
Any hoot...
Heather invited her mother over for dinner. During the meal, her mother couldn't help noticing how beautiful Heather's roommate was.
She had long been suspicious of Heather's sexuality and this only made her more curious.
Over the course of the evening, while watching the two women interact, she started to wonder if there was more between Heather and the roommate than met the eye. Reading her mom's thoughts, Heather volunteered, "I know what you must be thinking, but I assure you, Suzy and I are just roommates."
About a week later, Suzy came to Heather and said, "Honey, ever since your mother came to dinner, I've been unable to find the beautiful silver gravy ladle. You don't suppose she took it, do you?"
Heather said, "Well, I doubt it, but I'll write her a letter just to be sure." So she sat down and wrote: "Dear Mother, I'm not saying you 'did' take a gravy ladle from my house, and I'm not saying you 'did not' take a gravy ladle. But the fact remains that one has been missing ever since you were here for dinner."
Several days later, Heather received a letter from her mother which read: "Dear Daughter, I'm not saying that you 'do' sleep with Suzy, and I'm not saying that you 'do not' sleep with Suzy. But the fact remains that if she was sleeping in her own bed, she would have found the gravy ladle there by now."
"Love - Mom"
*suddenly dressed in all black with white face paint and black lipstick* Even though there is no relief from the utter futility of bleak life. *Goth pose**Back to normal*
Any hoot...
Heather invited her mother over for dinner. During the meal, her mother couldn't help noticing how beautiful Heather's roommate was.
She had long been suspicious of Heather's sexuality and this only made her more curious.
Over the course of the evening, while watching the two women interact, she started to wonder if there was more between Heather and the roommate than met the eye. Reading her mom's thoughts, Heather volunteered, "I know what you must be thinking, but I assure you, Suzy and I are just roommates."
About a week later, Suzy came to Heather and said, "Honey, ever since your mother came to dinner, I've been unable to find the beautiful silver gravy ladle. You don't suppose she took it, do you?"
Heather said, "Well, I doubt it, but I'll write her a letter just to be sure." So she sat down and wrote: "Dear Mother, I'm not saying you 'did' take a gravy ladle from my house, and I'm not saying you 'did not' take a gravy ladle. But the fact remains that one has been missing ever since you were here for dinner."
Several days later, Heather received a letter from her mother which read: "Dear Daughter, I'm not saying that you 'do' sleep with Suzy, and I'm not saying that you 'do not' sleep with Suzy. But the fact remains that if she was sleeping in her own bed, she would have found the gravy ladle there by now."
"Love - Mom"
And so I sit around, waiting for a pizza to help fatten me up, rocking out to Lunatic Calm.
I think of the one woman I have loved and the most recent one that is more psychotic than her.
I think about the relationship between Natalie and I, the walks on the beach and the nights clubbing amidst drag queens and electric supernovas.
Charming and...
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I think of the one woman I have loved and the most recent one that is more psychotic than her.
I think about the relationship between Natalie and I, the walks on the beach and the nights clubbing amidst drag queens and electric supernovas.
Charming and...
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claudia:
oh, and i really love your writing. i keep on meaning to tell you how much i enjoyed your tirade against voyeuristic lesbianism. you just have a way with words. period.
butterfly2:
I'm so glad that I got to talk to you tonight amongst our busy schedules!
But now i can't talk...
But now i can't talk...
But on to a better note!
I applied to the company that publishes Girlfriends magazine and On Our Backs as an intern (They are both lesbian magazines, On Our Backs is a porn magazine, like Playboy for dykes.)
Anyway, they emailed me back today, saying that instead of a position in the Circulation department, they are offering me a position in SALES AND MARKETING!!!!
I...
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I applied to the company that publishes Girlfriends magazine and On Our Backs as an intern (They are both lesbian magazines, On Our Backs is a porn magazine, like Playboy for dykes.)
Anyway, they emailed me back today, saying that instead of a position in the Circulation department, they are offering me a position in SALES AND MARKETING!!!!
I...
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grrlhavoc:
is the spinning bird kick the martial arts move they do in street fighter with the leg straight out? i can so imagine u doing that lol
melissa2:
"Pagin Jennifer Aniston" hahahahahahahahhaha
That job sounds too fucken sweet.......
glad things are on a better note and all.......
That job sounds too fucken sweet.......
glad things are on a better note and all.......
Dear Unbornbloom,
Hmmm...well, educated people care about spelling...that's funny!
And yes, you did say you were going to cut yourself, so don't fucking lie. All you ever do is lie and pretend to be the victim.
Well, I suppose you can't expect much honesty from a diagnosed Klepto anyway.
She stole my heart and my...cat?
And you say you're "defending yourself from my rampant bitching"...
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Hmmm...well, educated people care about spelling...that's funny!
And yes, you did say you were going to cut yourself, so don't fucking lie. All you ever do is lie and pretend to be the victim.
Well, I suppose you can't expect much honesty from a diagnosed Klepto anyway.
She stole my heart and my...cat?
And you say you're "defending yourself from my rampant bitching"...
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claudia:
oh my god. i fall into a drug-induced stupor and come back only to discover so much has changed. again. i am sorry that your ex is being a psycho bitch. you really deserve better. if this comforts you in any way, my super-hot roommate that you met has not been able to find a suitable companion for FIVE YEARS now. bitter is not the word to describe her mental state.
it is strange to compare one's view of a significant other at the beginning and end of a relationship. i always question my own judgment and wonder just how gullible i really am. i have picked out some real winners. i gotta go to work, but write me back.
peaceout girl. keep your cute chin up.
it is strange to compare one's view of a significant other at the beginning and end of a relationship. i always question my own judgment and wonder just how gullible i really am. i have picked out some real winners. i gotta go to work, but write me back.
peaceout girl. keep your cute chin up.
The Renegade Dyke meeting was fantastic!
We talked about art, literature, politics, dyke culture...everything. Everyone was very intelligent and well-spoken, as well as respectful of each other.
I have decided that this is my prioritized list for life:
1) Enrichment (Spiritual, emotional, physical)
2) Education/Activism/Establishing comunity
And romance, in third, can take a back seat.
And i'll climb into that back seat whenever I damn...
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We talked about art, literature, politics, dyke culture...everything. Everyone was very intelligent and well-spoken, as well as respectful of each other.
I have decided that this is my prioritized list for life:
1) Enrichment (Spiritual, emotional, physical)
2) Education/Activism/Establishing comunity
And romance, in third, can take a back seat.
And i'll climb into that back seat whenever I damn...
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unbornbloom:
1) spelling?! who gives a shit, who nitpicks about spelling.
2) You gloss things over like im still attached to you. Im not. In defending myself from your rampant bitching, Im in the defense. Contrary to your ego, i never said anthing to the affect of Id cut myself over you. I dont know where the hell you got that from, because sweetie, your really not all that much worth it. but enough of this "you need to get over it crap" because ive been over it for a while, Say it doesnt seem so. I just argue in defense. I really dont give much a shit about all of this squabble anyhow. And I grow bored. So i end this now.
Its easy to hate. Its easy to rage. Its easy to fight.
Its harder to love. benevolence isnt innate.
good luck.
2) You gloss things over like im still attached to you. Im not. In defending myself from your rampant bitching, Im in the defense. Contrary to your ego, i never said anthing to the affect of Id cut myself over you. I dont know where the hell you got that from, because sweetie, your really not all that much worth it. but enough of this "you need to get over it crap" because ive been over it for a while, Say it doesnt seem so. I just argue in defense. I really dont give much a shit about all of this squabble anyhow. And I grow bored. So i end this now.
Its easy to hate. Its easy to rage. Its easy to fight.
Its harder to love. benevolence isnt innate.
good luck.
bionicfemme:
Benevolence isn't innate, but sanity is, for most people.
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Dear Psycho-Bitch,
Can you NOT read my journal and make catty comments about it in yours?
Go, run, and cry, you've been skewered by the goddess of war.
Love,
B-Femme
Can you NOT read my journal and make catty comments about it in yours?
Go, run, and cry, you've been skewered by the goddess of war.
Love,
B-Femme
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grrlhavoc:
LOL i will come to SF soon i hope..and when i do we will hone our kickboxing....and go paint the town fucking red
grrlhavoc:
You fucking crack me up..do you realize this??? And believe me my ex has given me alot mor e grief than u are getting..i was forced to visit my ex in the loony bin only to have her be transported there 2 days later once again....she is a fucking nut
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Went to a lesbian performance art thingy tonight. This butch that was even shorter than me came up and asked if she could sit down and talk and stuff. So she hung out with me at the show and then asked for my number afterwards.
I'd like to clarify that I DON'T want to date anyone right now.
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superscott:
i thought i was lord of the dance. yeah girls suck right now for me too. booooo girls. 
g_felix:
Hey Bionicfemme,
You can't really blame her for wanting your number or to have you come back to her place, can you? You're cute!
If seeing Natalie again opened up a festering wound, then it was good that you saw her again. If the wound was festering, then you were keeping it all inside. A wound has to be cleansed or cauterized. If the wound is not taken care of, then it will eat you alive.
Why don't things feel right? Are you looking for a long term relationship and everyone around you is looking for a quick fix for their hormones?
It sounds like you are comparing everyone you meet with Natalie. Cut the ties. Let her go. All bonds can be broken through abuse or neglect. Sometimes you still have to consciously let go.
Its like not scratching when you itch but you cannot compare anyone with Natalie. She is an orange. You might meet a grape, apple, peach, or even a tangerine. Everyone is unique. Find out who they are. Make sure they are interested in YOU, too.
And you will find someone who is interested in you for who you are. It's tough! I did not meet the woman I would marry until I was 26 despite all my attempts to rush it.
Hang in there! Don't get too discouranged, ok?
You can't really blame her for wanting your number or to have you come back to her place, can you? You're cute!
If seeing Natalie again opened up a festering wound, then it was good that you saw her again. If the wound was festering, then you were keeping it all inside. A wound has to be cleansed or cauterized. If the wound is not taken care of, then it will eat you alive.
Why don't things feel right? Are you looking for a long term relationship and everyone around you is looking for a quick fix for their hormones?
It sounds like you are comparing everyone you meet with Natalie. Cut the ties. Let her go. All bonds can be broken through abuse or neglect. Sometimes you still have to consciously let go.
Its like not scratching when you itch but you cannot compare anyone with Natalie. She is an orange. You might meet a grape, apple, peach, or even a tangerine. Everyone is unique. Find out who they are. Make sure they are interested in YOU, too.
And you will find someone who is interested in you for who you are. It's tough! I did not meet the woman I would marry until I was 26 despite all my attempts to rush it.
Hang in there! Don't get too discouranged, ok?
Whoopah.
The emails have increased to nearly 35 women who are sick of living up to the facist Ani D subculture of lesbianism. I have noticed that a lot of the girls emailing me are punks too. One was a leather daddy. And a few are black. I hope a good mix of girls shows up to this and we can just hang out and...
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The emails have increased to nearly 35 women who are sick of living up to the facist Ani D subculture of lesbianism. I have noticed that a lot of the girls emailing me are punks too. One was a leather daddy. And a few are black. I hope a good mix of girls shows up to this and we can just hang out and...
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g_felix:
Hey Bionicfemme,
Looks like you may have started something there! That's great!
Whatever happens, have a large time!!
Looks like you may have started something there! That's great!
Whatever happens, have a large time!!
melissa2:
you are a true pioneer........
fucken awesome.....
fucken awesome.....
Viva la resistance!!!!
I posted my challenge to the dykes of SF on CL and got lots of email from other girls who are tired of having to fit a stupid Ani DiFrancite stereotype.
There are other girls who are sick of this, too.
In response, I suggested we have a Renegade Dyke/Bi meeting at a coffeeshop sometime this weekend and meet each other.
My...
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I posted my challenge to the dykes of SF on CL and got lots of email from other girls who are tired of having to fit a stupid Ani DiFrancite stereotype.
There are other girls who are sick of this, too.
In response, I suggested we have a Renegade Dyke/Bi meeting at a coffeeshop sometime this weekend and meet each other.
My...
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grrlhavoc:
DO you have your Superdyke costumes and capes yet???
prettyb0y:
I've always thought of myself as a lesbian trapped in a man's body. Does that count?
Yes..i do think so
[Edited on Feb 06, 2003]
Tane