beatnik

i really, really miss talking to people.

i mean, of couse i talk to people these days. but everything..... EVERYTHING ... is so incredibly sterile.

I really miss just sitting and talking to someone. someone who doesnt know anything about me.... someone who can be genuinely interested in what i'm about.

someone I can be genuinely interested about.

i just found out i've spent the last year of my life hiding in my dreams

i am so unbelievably, indescribably, infinitely sad...

Ok - I hate the winter. I don't like the cold. and all the cloudy weather gets to my head.

but i had this wierd thought today....

I miss the winter......... and i realized i miss it because it's already gone....

so everything's pretty 'blaahhh' right now.... im kinda stuck in that feeling where it feels like everything I'm doing has already been done.

meh. i graduate in 3 weeks at any rate....!

shit bitch you is fine

i am laaaaaaaughing my ass off

Isnt a smile such a wonderful thing? I wish more people would smile at me.

So I met Don Hertzfeldt yesterday.

We took a look at some of his older stuff, and looked at his new film in the new Animation Show. His new film is like masturbation - he only made it to please himself. it's total nonsense. It's not even funny - it's trying to be meaningful.

Any Don himself? He's pretty high up on his artsy fartsy...
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hmmm what to say what to say.

hello invisible friend.

i love cadbury eggs.

i suck at drawing.

i like photography.

i like music.

im constantly thinking.


ok that's quite enough. Later!!!

what if i told you i was dead...

I've never been a fan of anti-war songs.... not because they're anti-war, but because they lack any creativity (?)

But i think I just discovered the greatest anti-war song i've ever heard. Find it if you can. It's by Saul Williams, called "Act III Scene 2 (Shakesphere)"

"And what you do is question everything they say do, every goal ideal or value they keep pushing...
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i feel like the only true romantic left in the world. am i doing something wrong? am i just setting myself up to be let down?

i feel like somehow im not going to get out of life everything i put into it.... as if i feel i should be expecting more from something that's becoming more and more concrete.

so like i said -...
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