beatnik

And happiness and peace of mind
Were never meant for me.
All these pieces and promises and left behinds,
If only I could see...

In my nothing, you meant everything to me.

Clarise had tricked Hannibal. Now she and Hannibal were attached at the wrists by a pair of clean, steel handcuffs. Seeing no other option, Hannibal angrily grabbed a butcher knife, threw their shackled wrists on a cutting board, and raised the knife into the air.

"This is really going to hurt," Hannibal muttered before slamming the butcher knife down.

He had severed his own wrist,...
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I've filled my profile with things so hideous, I cannot describe them to you or you will flee from the room! Women will weep and men will gnash their teeth!

update my ass, fuckers.

here's some exciting self-important and vain photographs of me, yes, brushing my teeth. how fucked up do you have to be like "damn, I'm brushing my teeth... i should really be...
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So I guess there's a party for me tonite. Be there, or I'll eat your souls!

9ish at landmark.

I think a lot of people underestimate just how much i love music.

It's such a beautiful force. I'm the type of person who, when I go to a movie or I listen to an album, EVERYTHING completely melts away and I totally commit myself to the film or to the music.

I'm only saying this because in the last week or two I've been...
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Hmmm.... I've got to stop worrying.

I am currently accepting charitable donations to the "Make Beatnik Not Poor Foundation."

Checks and mondey orders can be made out directly to me.......

Moving sucks for SO many reasons.

Now i really need to go through all my shit and decide what I really don't need anymore. I hate leaving things behind...

Ah, but there are so many things we can't change. So many things that are beyond our control. You can't fight the tide of time. So swim with it as far as you possibly can before...
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Yesterday, Monday the 15th, was a historic and remarkable day.

To my SuicideGirls friends, I am proud to annouce that I am no longer one of America's unemployed!

I've been hired at an amazing studio in Los Angeles - a studio that's been right at the top of my list for months.... nay.... YEARS.........


It's incredible... the sensation of movement and change after months of...
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