beatnik

So this is life in 4/4 time. I thought I was starting over.

No amount of what you add to your face will add to you. It's only what I've taken away.


In other news, the snooty little cocksuckers in the LA group wont let me into their little club. Well here's a message to all you SGLA assholes:

GO MOTHER-FUCK YOURSELVES

first day at work. quake 3. im broke. works cool - lots to take in. wish me luck.

im notoriously bad with words. its a bummer cuz i think sometimes people get the wrong impression when i say things. and its funny - i struggle so hard to be clear with what i say, but it seems like the most important people never hear me....
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ive got something profound to say about living out here now, but i cant conjur the energy to say it.

I'm ready, desperately ready, to start work at the studio.

I'm ready to meet new people, make new friends, and party like mad.

I'm ready to start the rest of my life.

im in limbo now, bottled up and achey. i got a new cell...
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I'm here. 35 hours of no-sleep, non-stop driving. 2 meals at Arby's, 1 at Taco Bell. $250 in gas at 27 miles to the gallon. 2060 miles due west.

Los Angeles, California. I'm home!

I'll have more for you soon... thanks for all the well-wishes!!! I'm grateful.

this is it, everyone. I'll be shutting down this computer before the day's through and loading it quietly into the back of my car. Tomorrow, I leave for Los Angeles - disappearing forever into the sandy and warm wastes of America's southwest. It's a 30 hour trip, and I'm making it non-stop. Wish me luck, and I'll talk to you all soon.

This is Beatnik,...
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i feel like harry potter with a vagina

....drowning....

<gurggle gurggle>

Hmm, how about a real update. Sounds good.

Bought car yesterday with a loan I pulled out (pictures in my pics section). Moving to Los Angeles in 2 weeks to start a job... I'm pretty excited about that... though I'm nervous and stressed out of my mind.

It strange - I've never felt so alien in my own skin. Suddenly I'm submerged in a life...
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