Hello everyone.
I'm still not really up to talking, but its funny, I feel very lonely right now. I'm at work, and I can't stand it. I want to be with loved ones, I want to be talking and hugging my friends. Not left alone at my desk with my thoughts.
I want someone to hold my hand and rub the top of it. I...
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I'm still not really up to talking, but its funny, I feel very lonely right now. I'm at work, and I can't stand it. I want to be with loved ones, I want to be talking and hugging my friends. Not left alone at my desk with my thoughts.
I want someone to hold my hand and rub the top of it. I...
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I'm sorry if I'm not answering my comments as often as usual.
I just don't feel much like talking. I don't want to hear my voice, I don't want to tell the same stories, I don't want to feel like i'm on this constant hamster wheel.
I don't want to neglect all of you, you all mean so much to me. Its just easier to...
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I just don't feel much like talking. I don't want to hear my voice, I don't want to tell the same stories, I don't want to feel like i'm on this constant hamster wheel.
I don't want to neglect all of you, you all mean so much to me. Its just easier to...
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bloodyhammer:
Wanting to get away sometimes can be the best thing. I hope everything worksout for you. You deserve to be happy. Take care.
My mom is not doing well at all.
I come home at 11:30pm to a voicemail...I literally paniced, my stomach dropped, I thought I was going to pass out. I thought it was THE call.....the one I have nightmares about.
It wasn't...but she's probably going in the hospital tommorrow or at some point this week. I called her earlier today and she was too weak...
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I come home at 11:30pm to a voicemail...I literally paniced, my stomach dropped, I thought I was going to pass out. I thought it was THE call.....the one I have nightmares about.
It wasn't...but she's probably going in the hospital tommorrow or at some point this week. I called her earlier today and she was too weak...
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akathisia:
Awww. I'm sorry its so hard. Sending many hug thoughts your way.
love ya lady!
-Leslie
love ya lady!
-Leslie
kay:
Any updates on your mum sweetie? I'm thinking of you both. *hug*
~cheers
~cheers
Oh so hung over...
Spent too many hours in the sun today...
Oooohhhh so sick....
I am cheap, fast and out of control. I showed my ass, not once, but three times in a bar last night, I also flashed my bra about four times and got felt up numerous times. I'm a whore and I love it!
I need a nap, then July 4th...
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Spent too many hours in the sun today...
Oooohhhh so sick....
I am cheap, fast and out of control. I showed my ass, not once, but three times in a bar last night, I also flashed my bra about four times and got felt up numerous times. I'm a whore and I love it!
I need a nap, then July 4th...
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g00000ne:
Awww I am sorry you eneded up hungover!
Thank you for a WONDERFUL night!! Must do again and thank you for your lovely tits and ass you finally let me have.
Thank you for a WONDERFUL night!! Must do again and thank you for your lovely tits and ass you finally let me have.
illstabyou:
That picture is indeed very VERY in color. 
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akathisia:
I am going to hopefully take a lot of pictures of the wakiness that is the Country Fair. There are always rediculous costumes. Can't decide whether to do a costume or wear my fairy wings....i'd rather just worry about not being too hot instead or worrying about dressing up. I haven't gone to this event in five years. I think i will just enjoy it passively.
I love the color of your sweater! It will look really good on you. Some oragnes i can wear, and some i can't. I have a really bright orange and pink shirt that looks okay on me. Thats about as bright as my wardrobe ever gets!
I envy you the German fest. Those kinds of things are always fun. Amish quilts are awesome. Sometimes kinda spendy though.
On a side note, i just heard that i missed something awesome in Eugene! Grrrr! The Black Sheep Gathering sounded really fun. Of course i heard about it after the fact, and I work during the weekends anyway. Sigh.
I love the color of your sweater! It will look really good on you. Some oragnes i can wear, and some i can't. I have a really bright orange and pink shirt that looks okay on me. Thats about as bright as my wardrobe ever gets!
I envy you the German fest. Those kinds of things are always fun. Amish quilts are awesome. Sometimes kinda spendy though.
On a side note, i just heard that i missed something awesome in Eugene! Grrrr! The Black Sheep Gathering sounded really fun. Of course i heard about it after the fact, and I work during the weekends anyway. Sigh.
sewpunk:
Are you like me, in that you wear black almost every day of your life?
It's a habit I can't seem to shake.
It's a habit I can't seem to shake.
Things I've done today, by Aponia Suicide:
1. got my hair cut and highlighted.
2. Walked around and looked at down trees in Washington Square Park
3. Ate pizza and drank a fruit shake at Redding Terminal Market
4. Walked over to Live 8, saw Will Smith, Dave Matthews Band and Toby Keith. (the last one scared me)
5. People watched in the hot sun...
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1. got my hair cut and highlighted.
2. Walked around and looked at down trees in Washington Square Park
3. Ate pizza and drank a fruit shake at Redding Terminal Market
4. Walked over to Live 8, saw Will Smith, Dave Matthews Band and Toby Keith. (the last one scared me)
5. People watched in the hot sun...
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shadyvito:
Glad you had fun. I worked all day trying to avoid the live 8 crowd.
g00000ne:
I called you!!! You and the boy should come with me tonite to Fast Cheap and Out of Control!!! I will pick you up!!! Call me back bitch!!!
I'm soaked and tired.
I had a terriblely bad day at work, so I made my boy walk over and meet me at 5pm. We went to Quizno's, ate dinner, watched the torrential downpour, walked to Ben and Jerry's in the rain, ate ice cream and walked through the park in the rain, then walked home in the rain.
It was so much fun!!! Definately...
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I had a terriblely bad day at work, so I made my boy walk over and meet me at 5pm. We went to Quizno's, ate dinner, watched the torrential downpour, walked to Ben and Jerry's in the rain, ate ice cream and walked through the park in the rain, then walked home in the rain.
It was so much fun!!! Definately...
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tiffanylynn:
nah I'm not going to the fireworks. That crowd is too much for me. I hate people enough right now.
I don't know what I'm doing. I might be going out for a drink.
My girlfriend is craving tequila!
you going to the fireworks?
ohhhh blonde huh? Lets see?
I don't know what I'm doing. I might be going out for a drink.
My girlfriend is craving tequila!
you going to the fireworks?
ohhhh blonde huh? Lets see?
twotoner:
Exotic dancer? Oh dear...you've seen me! I couldn't pass for a male model, let along a wang whipper.
Mmm...Quizznos...I lost respect for them when they dropped those weird spokesgerbils.
Mmm...Quizznos...I lost respect for them when they dropped those weird spokesgerbils.
My computer at work is being attacked by Spyware and Adware....so...no more updating in the morning for me.
Well, until I rip the fucking guts of it out. And dance on its innards!!!
I'm fucking tired, I was at work from 9am to 7pm. Long fucking day. My boy was with me for the last 2 hours trying to fix my computer. I sat around...
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Well, until I rip the fucking guts of it out. And dance on its innards!!!
I'm fucking tired, I was at work from 9am to 7pm. Long fucking day. My boy was with me for the last 2 hours trying to fix my computer. I sat around...
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g00000ne:
Its here!
Like my name? I changed it in your honor
Like my name? I changed it in your honor
fieldofdepth:
Sitting around looking cute is the job I do best! 
I'm exhausted and manic.
I've come to realize if I'm stressed out or really tired I go manic. Maybe its because my brain is sluggish, so it can't keep control over my mania.
I don't know. I hate it. It makes me miserable and annoyed.
I can't really describe what it feels like, but its not the best state to be in.
Tonight is knitting...
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I've come to realize if I'm stressed out or really tired I go manic. Maybe its because my brain is sluggish, so it can't keep control over my mania.
I don't know. I hate it. It makes me miserable and annoyed.
I can't really describe what it feels like, but its not the best state to be in.
Tonight is knitting...
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akathisia:
mmmmm, butt naked with yarn.....sounds good! I'm really glad you liked it. When i saw the colors i thought of you! We can be scarf twins, because i have a scarf made out of the same type of yarn, but in dark purple tones.
Thats good you know what may cause your manicness, yet not so good because that means you are both tired and / or stressed right now, which is not so good. I hope you feel less stressed soon! I am giving you a mental foot massage right now. There, feel better yet?
I wish i had weekends. I have "weekends" but they fall on tuesday and wednesday. None of my friends seem to have those days off. Sigh....so much for any social life.
Thats good you know what may cause your manicness, yet not so good because that means you are both tired and / or stressed right now, which is not so good. I hope you feel less stressed soon! I am giving you a mental foot massage right now. There, feel better yet?
I wish i had weekends. I have "weekends" but they fall on tuesday and wednesday. None of my friends seem to have those days off. Sigh....so much for any social life.
tiffanylynn:
Wissahickon? The shore? Pine Barrons? Up Kelly Drive?
I totally get what you are saying. I got away last weekend (went camping). It was fucking heaven. This weak I ditched work.
you should ditch for a day. It feels so good!
I totally get what you are saying. I got away last weekend (went camping). It was fucking heaven. This weak I ditched work.
you should ditch for a day. It feels so good!
I'm wearing a light blue shirt. For anyone who has met me more then once will tell you that this is a big deal. Unless the shirt is black, you normally won't see me in it.
But I'm trying to broaden my color horizons. So baby blue is of course where I plan to start.
My boy needs some love, go give hime some: Apocalypse_Dude...
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But I'm trying to broaden my color horizons. So baby blue is of course where I plan to start.
My boy needs some love, go give hime some: Apocalypse_Dude...
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juliette:
i've got everything crossed. even my intestines.
oldskoolpat:
cool deal.
Hi kids,
I still feel this knot in my stomach. I got all my tax information sorted out. But its just weird, knowing thats its gone and I'll never see them again. I'm still overwhelmed with emotion.
But I have to pick myself up by the boot straps and carry on. I've already started a scarf to sell in November in Pittsburgh.I'm also looking into...
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I still feel this knot in my stomach. I got all my tax information sorted out. But its just weird, knowing thats its gone and I'll never see them again. I'm still overwhelmed with emotion.
But I have to pick myself up by the boot straps and carry on. I've already started a scarf to sell in November in Pittsburgh.I'm also looking into...
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shadyvito:
Hey I need a new scarf! Let me know when I can buy one. Knitting seems like it's a great outlet for you, we all need something like that.
tailin:
I'm soooooo soooo sorry for you, I wish there was something i could do. I hope all gets better soon. ....Crossing fingers, toes and eyes...ouch....thats giving me a headache...okay so toes and fingers.
Hope your week goes better, can't wait for another event. See you soon.
Hope your week goes better, can't wait for another event. See you soon.
My stuff was not found. No good samaritan turned it in. No call on my phone.
I cried all night, but I've tried to stop. I'm trying to block it all out of my head. Its too painful to even talk about.
For anyone who doesn't know why i'm so upset go back one day in my journal.
I still can't believe all of my...
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I cried all night, but I've tried to stop. I'm trying to block it all out of my head. Its too painful to even talk about.
For anyone who doesn't know why i'm so upset go back one day in my journal.
I still can't believe all of my...
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bittergirl:
Oh my God, I am SO sorry to hear that! I hope someone finds it and gets it back to you!
Someone on our side of the park got the glass in their truck smashed in, too...
Someone on our side of the park got the glass in their truck smashed in, too...
akathisia:
Oh my gosh, I'm really sorry. Thats really bad. Although I hope it doesn't actually stop you from making bags since you are so good at them. It really sucks because those bags are one of a kind, but i guess if anything positive at least making them is expirience. Ugh. I'm not helping am i?
Anyway, I'm sorry lady.
I hope you get something in the mail to cheer you up soon.
Anyway, I'm sorry lady.
I hope you get something in the mail to cheer you up soon.

We saw her last year at the Punch Line in SF. It was a really small venue. We sat so close to that I actually had my feet on the stage at one point. After it was over and she was walking off the stage I bowed to her like "were not worthy" from waynes world and she did it back to me!!! I almost pee'd myself! I would love to read that letter.