antipunk

Life at its fucking finest in and out of focus... Here then gone... I wonder if worlds beyond us fuzz into focus us...

No cure. No disease. No life. No please.

My life was a story once.
A story I told every waking morning to hung over friends answering questions of wild exotic nights, most usually forgotten and left undiscussed. Nobody really valued or cared...
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*spelling AtrOcious and thats the way its staying because thats the way I'm feeling*
*Bitch decoder rings not included*


I get off at rebeling against Life itself.
Death, suicide, chaos, apathy...fatalism.

Fuck society, I'm angry with life.

I wish everyday like it will never come true. I wish for death.

Kill me in an accident...so I can handle it. The misery of fatality graunted with...
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Another expense has been paid for..with blood and hands of war
We are the living ash of time, puffing on us like cigarettes
Flakey caught up in the wind forsaken and beaten
This is the mistake I regret for, this is the life I wished for
No, NO I WISHED FOR SOMETHING MORE!

No, no don't make the stars fall, No, no dont let me...
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Swinging back and forth, back and forth...I'm awaiting disaster something more than real.
I just want to feel...alone, or dead, crazy lost in my head.
I'm bleeding but I'm not dieing, not dieing yet.
I can't stop the infections, I can't cure the illness, I won't stop the madness, I refuse to call it what it is.

A liar is what I am. A liar...
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Wrapped up with fishing line pulled tight around your mouth. I want your tongue poping out...Hanging from my throat I want you to watch me choke. Entangled and horrfied I wonder how you'll act after seeing another human die. Driping blood into your mouth...fantasy...pure reality..

Clench your teeth and stare into the mirror as you force your muscles to buldge from your face. Clench harder until you feel your teeth start to break, now imagine thats me every day staring back at you.

Release your jaw, use drugs if you have to...for the release.. for the temporary ease and comfort... No one wants to hate forever.

I breathe through my...
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Freedom...Release the chains that hold you above the drowning pool of reality.
Sink into the depths of madness...violently fight for survival, or close your eyes and drown.
Inhale death as you choke on realization. Your life is nothingness...

Just figuring it out. Looking for that thing...

I found the thing, but I don't want it anymore... You can have it back, but I need it....
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People are so often caught up in belonging; they often sacrifice their own opinions in favor of the larger whole. An unnecessary blending...

Even the most radical find common ground and sacrifice for the group. A need to feel accepted perhaps...but it is definitely always out of ignorance.

The intelligent break down into smaller groups, but groups none the less.
We classify ourselves with general...
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Its so pathetic.
Reality.
It makes me ill...

So sick and disgusting, I feel I should be just as sick and disgusting.
The world is real.
You can touch it, you can taste it, you can suck it, you can fuck it.

I'm so tired of your lie.
I am not society.
I am not you.
I am barely me....
Just a fragment of a...
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Its a paradox called life...do drugs? often the cause to exposure of lies...die alone inside.

I bleed, I taste, I live, I die.
I burn with every second overloaded jam packed with desire.
We always seek what we desire most. How are things to be when madness is always me...
I lust for more, always more.

Rebellion! and so it is...

Like the taste of blood, it felt warm and empowering. I was transcended into bliss, pure absolute madness. Realities of worlds colliding with each stroke of my hair. With each new vision more fantastic than the one before. Nonsensical happiness, the effects appear permanent. My imagination beyond limitations, I cannot describe in full the happiness I felt. The creations of my mind more obscure than...
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MOTHER FUCKING CID BITCHES!!!

I hope I trip into tommarrow...lets dream of better nows...