First of all, for those of you who weren't yet aware, my boyfriend is hanging around these parts these days. Around here, he's known as fatboypezhead. Go say hi! Please. 
I noticed, when I was going through my breakup, I had so much to say, and wrote a bunch of journal entries. Now that my life has done a complete 180, that I'm in...
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I noticed, when I was going through my breakup, I had so much to say, and wrote a bunch of journal entries. Now that my life has done a complete 180, that I'm in...
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It's official. We're in love. 
Mad, passionate, foolish, scary, exhausting, can hardly concentrate on anything else, disgustingly sappy love.
I've been feeling like that just might be the case for about a week now (so, yes, 2 weeks into our relationship
), but I was scared to say it. Scared I was being stupid, or kidding myself, or that I'd scare him, or he'd think...
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Mad, passionate, foolish, scary, exhausting, can hardly concentrate on anything else, disgustingly sappy love.
I've been feeling like that just might be the case for about a week now (so, yes, 2 weeks into our relationship
), but I was scared to say it. Scared I was being stupid, or kidding myself, or that I'd scare him, or he'd think... Read More
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sakita:
i am so happy for you.. dont worry about falling in love quickly
i feel in love within 2o minutes...so........
good luck darlin
i feel in love within 2o minutes...so........
good luck darlin
retroactivwe:
So happy for you!
2 hours ago, there was a pretty fair chance I wasn't going to be able to see him (Tony, my *boyfriend* ) at all this week. Now he's coming over TOMORROW and I'm going to his place Thursday night. The hours we'll get to spend with each other (when I'm not supposed to be sleeping) are few, but I am really happy I get to...
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) at all this week. Now he's coming over TOMORROW and I'm going to his place Thursday night. The hours we'll get to spend with each other (when I'm not supposed to be sleeping) are few, but I am really happy I get to... Read More
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datsun:
glad to hear things are well for you (except the job, I'll hate the dad, too. 
<--- see?)
I am totally stealing your PPS. I have had so many random friendship requests lately.
glad to hear things are well for you (except the job, I'll hate the dad, too. <--- see?)
I am totally stealing your PPS. I have had so many random friendship requests lately.
dogslife:
I knew I had another set of fingers crossed for me out there somewhere. Thanks! 
I have a date for Valentine's Day! Yay! I'll be seeing the new boy again, he's coming to my house, and I'll be ditching a little bit of school to be with him, but it's all about priorities in life. I'm really excited he's coming over.
Although I admit that it'll be hard pressed to top last Valentine's Day, when Koleeta and I spent the...
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Although I admit that it'll be hard pressed to top last Valentine's Day, when Koleeta and I spent the...
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datsun:
If you like, I can be your emergency call for future blind dates. Sounds like you could've used one..
datsun:
Happy Valentine's Day!!!
A wise woman once shared with me her wisdom-"The best way to get over someone is to get under someone else."
Three words.
Preach it, sistah.
Three words.
Preach it, sistah.
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datsun:
reminds me of my favorite quote :
(Mae West)
"I never was much of a drinker
just one or two at the most,
with three I'm under the table,
four - I'm under the host!"
(Mae West)
"I never was much of a drinker
just one or two at the most,
with three I'm under the table,
four - I'm under the host!"
joscelyne:
Hehe, I can always use a reason to smile! 
Hehe, I can always use a reason to smile! (I wrote a different, better version of this journal yesterday, which, of course, meant my computer crashed before I could post it)
Time to face the cold, hard truth.
I want to get back together with Peter. And I really don't. And I feel so passionately both ways that it overwhelms me at times. It's a classic case of heart vs. head. And somedays the...
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Time to face the cold, hard truth.
I want to get back together with Peter. And I really don't. And I feel so passionately both ways that it overwhelms me at times. It's a classic case of heart vs. head. And somedays the...
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sluttygoodgirl:
I can relate to so much of what you wrote here....
datsun:
thanks for the good thoughts! (I'm sorry that I didn't read this journal entry. I'm hopped up on pain pills, and...)
Now that I'm back to school, there's never enough time for everything I want to get done in a day. Things are constantly winning out over these long, introspective journals I want to write.
Last night it was journal or sex. You understand, right?
Last night it was journal or sex. You understand, right?
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sakita:
how are you??? its been so long. i hope that you are doing well.
retroactivwe:
You could have split the difference between lurvin and SG involvement by turning on a webcam. 
/perv
/perv
It's when I do things like this, sit at my computer when I'm exhausted and freezing, that I really start to doubt my sanity.
to everyone I saw tonight. I had a fabulous time.
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retroactivwe:
Killer seeing you. albeit for about 15 seconds.
koleeta:
we need to hang out
My mom and I kind of got into an argument/discussion last weekend where she sent me an e-mail that really upset me, and where she said somethings that were uninformed, entirely inaccurate and some that were even childish. I replied with what I felt was a very calm, non-confrontational e-mail that I still felt got across my point well. A lot of "I feel______when you______,"...
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datsun:
hugs AND bacon?!? you generous girl! thank you! I'm actually feeling much better. I needed the day in bed, though.
glassheart:
i dont think you should count it as a loss or a win. Either way, she is your mom.
Hello. I'm sorry, my Booty cannot take your call right now, but if you leave a detailed message, my Booty will get back to you as soon as possible. Thanks. *beep*
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dogslife:
"Why does this phone smell like ass?!"
datsun:
I don't have a wishlist. Maybe if Amazon sold bacon....................
*sigh*
*sigh*
I've lived in my current place for over 5 months now. But never, in my memory, have I woken up so many times in a place not knowing where I am.
This morning I had a nightmare, a really bad one, and woke up all freaked out. My first thought was that I was going to go crawl in bed with my mom. My mom?!...
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This morning I had a nightmare, a really bad one, and woke up all freaked out. My first thought was that I was going to go crawl in bed with my mom. My mom?!...
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miffy:
she doesn't think it's wrong. that's the hard part, you can only get frustrated when they really think they're innocent.
Don't think too hard about it - one day waking up in a bed that is not the one you're in now will feel akward. It's just time.
Don't think too hard about it - one day waking up in a bed that is not the one you're in now will feel akward. It's just time.
requiem:
I hope she is in fact a kitty - I do so hate those little scruffy dogs.
In regards to your journal entry, if it seems to be because of the place, you should move. It's more because of the people who are missing from your daily live, don't worry - it'll pass.
In regards to your journal entry, if it seems to be because of the place, you should move. It's more because of the people who are missing from your daily live, don't worry - it'll pass.
Since I worked on New Year's Eve, last night was my party night. And boy was it ever.
I ended up venturing out to The Cafe, one of the local queer clubs that caters to both men and women. I had 2 drinks before I left the house, and was feeling pretty good by the time I got there.
There were very few people there...
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I ended up venturing out to The Cafe, one of the local queer clubs that caters to both men and women. I had 2 drinks before I left the house, and was feeling pretty good by the time I got there.
There were very few people there...
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glassheart:
thank you for the birthday wish!!!
joscelyne:
Sounds like a fantastic night. Happy New Year, doll.
It's been a strange trip, that's for sure. I thank this site for my "sanity" (if I have that) sometimes, the cathartic purge I get out of some of my too personal journal postings seems to be my safety release valve. I don't necessarily require a response like a discussion to some of the crap I spit out, but even a short comment like you just left still means alot to me.
"loaded and raw"
That's me baby.
edited because I forgot to mention that I am silently here in your journal alot too. I'm always reading you.
[Edited on Mar 12, 2005 9:42PM]