annielane

LOVING this new layout shit goin' down here. However, I thought I deleted this. Because, hey, guess what I don't have? MONEY. Well now that I got my paycheck I do, but that shit's not in the bank. :-/ I guess we'll see. Being home all day in this small house that is not my home, with a giant fridge full of shit is making...
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have not updated in a while...oops.

party in my room tonight! yaaay! excitement.

happy birthday to Qroxxy.

I realized that besides looking for someone to love me,
all of these crushes are my way of looking for a cure to myself outside of myself.
And the reason that most of them are uninterested at best,
is probably because they see the desperation in my eyes
which looks good on no one--no matter how fucking thin you are
and it's the only thing...
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I trust easily. but not all of me. is that contradictory?
I don't think it is.
after a little while I let one gaurd down. but I never let down the other one. when you know me well enough, though, you can see past it.

come look past it

I'm quite officially keeping track of my stats. and intending upon changing them.
New found determination to lose weight.
Because this is ridiculous and I should do the shit I want to do.
I need a scale.


have a beautiful night

I don't want to go to claaaass.
I want to sleeeeeeep.
mreh.

Also,
I didn't get into SG, but Qroxxy got to the next step().
Which is really what needed to happen.
I'm not that upset and I don't think I'd feel very comfortable being naked at this weight anyway. [Which is a thought I was starting to have right before I applied.]
I...
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My Phantom of the Opera cherry is about to be popped.

I'm rather excited.

I woke up this morning and couldn't move faster than a slow walk.
I also couldn't bend over.
I wasn't sore, as one might think from hearing my rant thus far.
My head felt like it would explode.
..or I would fall right on over.
..or both.
..simultaneously.
It sucked.
I tried to go to breakfast before class,
but, at breakfast, felt like I could...
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First entry..wooo!
I'm procrastinating. I should be in the darkroom, working my ass off.

Alright, alright, I'm going, I'm going.