amory

Never lose hope.

That has been a reocurring theme in my life.

Still haven't lost it yet.

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ok so i decided Im just going to be incredibly drunk for the next month untl school starts.

Yay to being an alcoholic.

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desmobile:

have a few drinks on me

and say hi to my pal mr hangover, i'm gonna meet him tomorrow

Jul 21, 2004

cutmeup:

You gave me hope... now i will get drunk

Mmm,

beer

Jul 21, 2004

I'm trying to be optimistic about everything. I guess in the long run little things like this in my life will be irrelevant, only a memory.

When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants and murderers and for a time they seem invincible but in the end, they always fall -...
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punt:

Sounds incredibly familiar...

Time alone for me has been different than any other time in my life.
I used to enjoy it and welcome it, but it's not the same.
Weird.

Keep the chin up.

Jul 20, 2004

godsmoker:

Awww. Sorry to hear you're feeling

. I totally understand the heartache, and that feeling is the worst. Here's some words of wisdom from an artist/philosipher who is probably not so well known. Hope you feel better.

Jul 20, 2004

Im really confused this morning.

REALLY confused.

Things are always so up and down with me. I really wish they weren't that way anymore.

For once just give me something stable. please.

and im sick of finding out important things about relationships with people i really care about over the internet.

how impersonal. what a great way to tell someone you just really dont like...
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blaueminxaugen:

You think your little ac sucks? Try a swamp cooler. I'm fuckin' dying here man!

Jul 19, 2004

noahjm:

do you ever notice that when someone could use comforting, someone else always has to try and throw their problems out into the open and make it seem like theirs are worse than yours? i wish i could help comfort you with your problems and hope that we could resolve the issues with them as soon as possible.. (of course thats without me throwing my problems out into the open and bitching about anything.. (I.E., just being there to listen to anything that you would have to say and etc... =) ))

Jul 19, 2004

Got a drunk phone call last night that cost the person calling me $50.

I feel loved. It was a really good hour conversation too. Being drunk dialed rules.

For that I should have at least given phone sex or something...

Its like someone driving you somewhere. You are OBLIGATED to give road head.

Any other questions??

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calmer_than_you:

actually the both of them at the same time would be damned hott, hah!!

Jul 18, 2004

rumrunner:

yea I got a question when do I get to take a trip with YOU ???
meowww

Jul 18, 2004

Why I'm so incredibly pissed off this morning....

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If you missed the rant this morning then you missed it.

I'm done.

He called... we talked... I cried.

I'm so done with this... this bashing over the internet. Done.

I'm over it.

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cutmeup:

I Fucking feel your pain! TY for the comment btw.

Jul 17, 2004

godsmoker:

Hi, I stumbled upon your journal to find out things aren't going too well. So it seems, anyway. I hope things work out for you. Good luck.

Jul 18, 2004

eeep. i have cameron.

hes being a monster.

doing some major contemplating of life right now.

Theres a lot going on with my friends and I'm always here if they need my support... but other than that I don't think I'm gonna be around much.

at all. I'm going into hiding.

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mothra:

You have full permission to take a few days off from everyone. I know I need them occasionally, or more than occasionally. But I'm sure I'll call you at 2am before I let you go too long.

Jul 16, 2004

toothless:

, but ok.

Jul 17, 2004

One day at a time......

thats all I can say.

Deep breath in... and out.
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I spent last night with one of my favorite people... John you are my new hero. He rescued my mattress from the freeway because we didn't tie it down... oh man. It's pretty messed up. Then we looked through old pictures and talked about life. Seriously.... I appreciate him...
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calmer_than_you:

he spells it jon

Jul 16, 2004

annamei:

the visual image of you petting a couple of dolphins is so freakin cute!

have a fantastic weekend

Jul 16, 2004

I wrote TONS in my livejournal about my day today. Please only read it if you really care.

If anyone is interested... MY LIVEJOURNAL

I really want to hear from someone imparticular. I hope they are not mad at me. And I hope that they call me back.

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Got the call. Glad to hear you're ok

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toothless:

why did i just get a flashback to a lynard skynard song in my head?

i hope things are going well hunny!

Jul 15, 2004

doctoroctopus:

Wow... sorry to hear about all the bad stuff in your life. I sure hope you work out something where you get to see Cameron more. Also that eating problem thing, it's a lot harder to fix then most people know, but I'm sure you're determined enough to make things right.

Btw... huge congrats on the school thing. I know just how important it is to get back into school and get some sort of positive outlook on your future, so I'm sooooo proud and happy for you!!! You rock!!!

Jul 15, 2004

woooooo

where to begin?

I updated my myspace page and it took awhile so now I'm tired of typing.

Alot has happened in the last few days to totally change the way I feel about things in my life and people in my life.

I just need a break.

Nothing I've been doing in this last year has really been healthy.. with a couple exceptions....
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squishylizards:

really sorry to hear that you are hurting

Jul 13, 2004

angelfuckaz:

It was all just a joke to make you smile I hope you dont hate me.

Jul 13, 2004

new pics....

tonight i puked in mothras car.

I suck.

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Oh no- here comes that sun again.
And (that) means another day without you my friend.
And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself.
And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else.

And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes -...
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mothra:

Puking sucks, you rule.

Jul 12, 2004

falling_jon:

New pics, huh?

...

My new favorite Suicide Girl isn't even an official Suicide Girl. Hmm.

Jul 12, 2004

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Life is about to get a WHOLE lot different.

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mothra:

Different might be good.

Jul 11, 2004

toothless:

change is good. as long as it does not interfere with you and your smiles!

Jul 11, 2004

Everything is a mess right now but I'm still STRANGELY ENOUGH....happy.

I don't want to mess this up. Don't let me.

And I want to get everything else in place. Life would be so much nicer.

Could I handle ALL that happiness????

hopefully!!!

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annamei:

it was nice to meet you! hope to see you again sometime

Jul 10, 2004

herotozero:

the COOLEST person I've EVER met.

you rule SOOOOO much I want to be JUUUUST like you.

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