Would you rather be called stupid or ugly?
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Personal I think the work love is under used. People often think its over used and miss used . It should be said more often. Its a powerful word, and can hold tons of meanings.
To Whom ever reads this,
I love you. It means a lot to me that you took time to read my blog, that you took time to view this website,...
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To Whom ever reads this,
I love you. It means a lot to me that you took time to read my blog, that you took time to view this website,...
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noahmack:
Weeellllll,
A. I don't know where "here" is (or maybe I do know and I just can't remember at the moment), and
B. Because for the next 2 and a half months or so, I am still going to be living in Iraq. Then I've got to go back to Kansas for 5 months. Then, I have to go to San Antonio for 4 months, and then I'm probably gonna be in Ft. Cambell, Ft. Knox, or maybe Ft. Benning.
Maybe if I wasn't in the Army, but then I probably wouldn't be alive right now, and DEFINITELY wouldn't be on a computer so much.
If it's any consolation though, wherever "here" is has gotta be better than where I am, if not just because you're there, so I wish I was there too. 
A. I don't know where "here" is (or maybe I do know and I just can't remember at the moment), and
B. Because for the next 2 and a half months or so, I am still going to be living in Iraq. Then I've got to go back to Kansas for 5 months. Then, I have to go to San Antonio for 4 months, and then I'm probably gonna be in Ft. Cambell, Ft. Knox, or maybe Ft. Benning.
Maybe if I wasn't in the Army, but then I probably wouldn't be alive right now, and DEFINITELY wouldn't be on a computer so much.
If it's any consolation though, wherever "here" is has gotta be better than where I am, if not just because you're there, so I wish I was there too.
silencia:
Awww. Thank you, lady! Your blog is very touching.
Now, in regards to the comment you left in mine, it is tough... but not in the sense that I feel as though he doesn't feel the same. What makes this so difficult is that I know he feels so strongly about me... he just can't do much about it because of his work (workaholic... prevents him from even having decent friendships). I know that he is trying his hardest to come up with some sort of solution for us, but I don't want to push too hard for fear that I might coerce him into something he doesn't want or isn't ready for. sigh. Love.
Now, in regards to the comment you left in mine, it is tough... but not in the sense that I feel as though he doesn't feel the same. What makes this so difficult is that I know he feels so strongly about me... he just can't do much about it because of his work (workaholic... prevents him from even having decent friendships). I know that he is trying his hardest to come up with some sort of solution for us, but I don't want to push too hard for fear that I might coerce him into something he doesn't want or isn't ready for. sigh. Love.
Im thinking of moving...tell me where to go.
I was thinking OH, but I dont really know what its like there. Just that my sons' father is based there so they would get to see him more often.
OR PA, I have always felt safe there for some odd reason. But again I don't know that place too well.
I just really hate in this...
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I was thinking OH, but I dont really know what its like there. Just that my sons' father is based there so they would get to see him more often.
OR PA, I have always felt safe there for some odd reason. But again I don't know that place too well.
I just really hate in this...
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noahmack:
In all seriousness, hun. I would gladly send you the money for a nanny so you could go out with your boyfriend or whatever you wanted to do.
You're right. You DON'T get out, but old people don't complain much about not going out (in my experience, anyway), because they have lived their lives. So that's proof right there that you're not old. You still have that wanderlust. Hell, what old people have YOU met who even TALKED about voluntarily moving across the country? I haven't met one yet.
You're right. You DON'T get out, but old people don't complain much about not going out (in my experience, anyway), because they have lived their lives. So that's proof right there that you're not old. You still have that wanderlust. Hell, what old people have YOU met who even TALKED about voluntarily moving across the country? I haven't met one yet.
gentleman_casper:
YES, GO TO OHIO!!! think of all the things you like about the WA landscape without any of the other bullshit--i was amazed. it looks like home, smells like home, even almost feels like home from time to time...i, well, you should think about it...email me and i will give more detail.
So I met this guy. AMAZING!! I actually met him like 4 weeks ago...before I admitted that I was ready to date again. Anyways, he is so amazingly perfect. We have hung out a ton of times in the past 2 weeks. He is so great with my kids, and treats me like I'm a human, its great. Ive never had somebody treat me so...
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melley:
Thanks so much for the comment on my blog! Hope we can become friends!
adelayde:
Man, I fuckin' wish someone would stop by and relieve me from my lon day so that I can do my homework. Goodness knows there is a shit ton of it to get done.
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noahmack:
No need to thank me. That set totally deserves to go live. You and the setting you're in with the sunrise makes it one of the most beautiful sets I have seen.
So, what's stopping you from getting toned abs? The scar would still be there, so I don't think you have to worry there, hun.
I hope you're well.
So, what's stopping you from getting toned abs? The scar would still be there, so I don't think you have to worry there, hun.
I hope you're well.
makavelli:
I have over 700 photo's i took and yes i had a BLAST!!!
You should come next year.
You should come next year.
I finally put my foot down on Wednesday, and told my boss to back off with the wanting to fuck me comments or I was going to quit. Well that majorly back fired in my face, because he fired me this morning. I had a horrible week. Ok, so i tell my boss that on Wednesday, then Thursday ( i had the day off) he...
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bev_antain:
Yup you definitely got that right, emotional stress is definitely worse and more harmful than the one cause by searching a job. Once again good luck with finding a new job :hug:
pseekaal:
Thank you for the compliment on my journal!
I don't know if its because I'm horny, or lonely, or maybe the combination of both, or perhaps its because I'm bored, BUT I think I'm ready to start dating again. Im still not ready to be away from my kids though, so whom ever I go on a date with need like kids, and be OK with me bringing them along. I just have...
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doxie:
Good luck on the dating scene! Don't settle for anyone who doesn't completely deserve you 
And your kiddos.
And your kiddos.
scotty:
I like the sound of that....
Being a suicide girl means you do lots of drugs and have sex with random strangers.
at least that what my mom thinks. Yes i am going back to talking about my moms rants of me being on SG. I feel like such a teenager. No matter what i say im wrong. I am proud to say that i am 25 and have never touched...
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at least that what my mom thinks. Yes i am going back to talking about my moms rants of me being on SG. I feel like such a teenager. No matter what i say im wrong. I am proud to say that i am 25 and have never touched...
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darksaiph:
well stay strong and keep being proud of yourself
oh and keep your faith.. you will never be lost with your faith intact
oh and keep your faith.. you will never be lost with your faith intact
skully:
oh im sorry, i know that must be hard.
people make assumptions about who a suicidegirl really is.
people make assumptions about who a suicidegirl really is.
How to dye your carpet Lessons in life #1
First buy a few different hair dye colors that you would like to dye your hair. Then fallow the directions, and apply to the hair you would like dyed.
Next, get distracted. Forget that the hair that is in a bun on top of your hair has dye in it, and continue doing what ever it...
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First buy a few different hair dye colors that you would like to dye your hair. Then fallow the directions, and apply to the hair you would like dyed.
Next, get distracted. Forget that the hair that is in a bun on top of your hair has dye in it, and continue doing what ever it...
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I am unworthy
I am weak
I am defeated
I am broken
I am lost
I am alone
I am empty
I feel like I keep trying to make things better in my life, and my kids lives, but some how i end up on the bottom.
I am weak
I am defeated
I am broken
I am lost
I am alone
I am empty
I feel like I keep trying to make things better in my life, and my kids lives, but some how i end up on the bottom.
louisiana:
I don't understand, lady. If you feel this way, why not try to change things a bit? Blogging about it won't do much...
*hug from a stranger*
Hang in there, baby.
*hug from a stranger*
Hang in there, baby.
I am alone in this world, with no hope to hold me up in my dark times. Its hard to stay strong with tears in your eyes and no air in your lungs.
I finally told my mother that I am an SG, only because she was asking me sooo many questions about my trip to seattle a few weeks ago. At first she didnt...
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I finally told my mother that I am an SG, only because she was asking me sooo many questions about my trip to seattle a few weeks ago. At first she didnt...
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marigold:
Wow. Your mom's crazy and totally over the top. She's trying to convey the magnitude of her disapproval by saying fucked up shit to you that she knows you'll hate. You know you're not damaging the lives of your children and you're an adult, there's no need to listen to your mom's lecture on your life choices. I feel for you. And that cross-country nonsense is equally awful.
It's always darkest before dawn. <3
It's always darkest before dawn. <3
gentleman_casper:
it has been my experience that being afraid is just part of being a good parental figure--it keeps you aware and mindful--but so is trusting yourself and your decisions. the best mothers a have ever known, including my own, had been subject to truly "negative attention" in such capacities, yet i admire them most of all. these women are what made me the man i am. because despite of anyones' words or feeling towards them or their actions, they refused to be ashamed of who they truly were--they stayed true to themselves. it was a woman who did have her name bruised with genuinely pornographic work that saved me from one of my darkest times as a teen, made me believe in family when i thought i'd never see my mother again.
i guess what i am trying to say is neither you, or any SG mom should hold any shame. you are mindful and loving--you put it all into your children--by that alone, you are a wonderful mother, and there is still so much to you.
keep being who you are always and trying to do right like you do--it all is absorbed by your children, and none can smear that good work, such things are beyond contest.
~Much love.
i guess what i am trying to say is neither you, or any SG mom should hold any shame. you are mindful and loving--you put it all into your children--by that alone, you are a wonderful mother, and there is still so much to you.
keep being who you are always and trying to do right like you do--it all is absorbed by your children, and none can smear that good work, such things are beyond contest.
~Much love.
Why is it, that even as an adult, our parents still have control over us? or is it just me?
armorer520:
cause they can mine still think their incontrol
Ugly is subjective, what is ugly to one person is beautiful to another.
What about you where do you stand on the issue?
(if its any help you don't come across as stupid and you are definitly not ugly