Sunday Oct 05, 2008

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well update here:

did the stress test and the doc says im not too bad off .. need to exercise my heart a bit more and strengthen it up so ill be doing 30 mins a day on the treadmill

resting alot and trying to get life going again... will update more later


lots of love

Teddybear

bellica:

I'm glad everything went well hun! Hugs! biggrin

mavericka:

i miss you, i wish i knew what was going on, don't disapear on me

Tuesday Sep 23, 2008

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well not so good news today. yesterday Sept 22 at 430am, i suffered a minor heart attack. Stupid me, after it happened i had a shower then went to work, where a paramedic *thank god* checked me out and then they rushed me to the hospital for more testing and such. i have deep shame and embarrassment mostly due to me being not very socialble...
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Tuesday Sep 16, 2008

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i think im falling for someone. falling fast and hard. and it scares me. She is a wonderful woman who everytime im lucky to talk to makes my life feel great and wonderful. I find myself thinkng about her alot. i miss her big time when i am not talking with her. I think of the time that we may finally meet face to face...
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avidity:

WOW look at you! i love the new pic sweets!
new relationships are terrifying. i'm right there with you. juts hang in there. you deserve something amazing!

sonja:

aww thank yousmile

Wednesday Sep 10, 2008

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hey everyone!

just poppin on here for a quick update of things happening. First of all thanks to all the support for my cadet corps. we are working hard in replacing all the equipment and such that was destroyed or stolen. Our main concern right now is trying to raise funds to buy a bit of land and build our own building with indoor parade...
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bellica:

Yay! Can't wait to see pics! biggrin

Thursday Aug 28, 2008

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Hi al!
Sorry about this but i really need to vent. I found out today that the army cadet corp that i volunteer to help run as administration officer, well our supply store was broken into and about 10,000.00 dollars worth of equipment, uniforms and such that the kids need this year have been stolen. Another 2000.00 to 4000.00 dollars worth...
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bellica:

I'm so glad you liked it! Your opinion matters a lot to me! biggrin kiss

chelsey_girl:

Thanks for everything Troy kiss You're a great friend
...and sorry to get off topic, but your post really got to me...I can't believe people could do something that disgusting and degrading...bah! I better stop before I go on a rant, hehe. Do the Cadets take any donations? I wish I could do something to help...

Wednesday Aug 13, 2008

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Well here we go with another rambling thought from an E911 dispatcher. I'm your host with the most.well not sure what I have most of but here are the thoughts in no real order
*******I spoiler it due to the very strong thoughts and feelings in this rant. if you get offended easily dont look...you have been warned********

bellica:

Things always look darker than they really are, it's just human nature hun, I'm here! biggrin

Tuesday Aug 12, 2008

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jesus i have been in one huge dark place in my life and soul i hope i never ever visit again. made me realize how lucky i really am having wonderful friends here on SG, and peope i know and can talk to in the real world. i promise to give a great blog here soon, but for now im going to share a dream...
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stockholm:

I'm jealous that you get to win the lottery nightly

bellica:

Awesome dream! biggrin

Saturday Jul 19, 2008

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thats it, i got nothing left.

i feel like im trapped

trapped in a cement room with no windows, no lights, no room. no freedom. i feel like no matter how hard i bang, and smash, and run into the walls, it just does not matter. there is no light in this room except for the occasional beam of light. but they come and go...
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bellica:

Oh noes! But... I'll miss you... I hope you find happiness hun, and wish you all the best, but I'm going to miss you so much... frown

Friday Jul 11, 2008

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This is going to be a short post:

After a few of my co-workers here have approached me and servered me notice of thier "intervention" they are saying im dropping deeper and deeper into a depression. and yet i dont see it. yes i have cut off ties from my online games, i barely talk to my parents anymore, im not very active here on...
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bellica:

You should listen to them hun, they're trying to help... kiss

chelsey_girl:

^^I agree smile
kiss kiss kiss

Sunday Jun 15, 2008

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you know i always sit here with the best intentions to write a blog that would totaly rock your world but when i finally make it to this page my mind goes to hell in a handbasket really quickly. Its almost like some wierd and mysterious thing is blocking what i want to say. Or it could be im just scared due to a few...
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valkyrie:



kiss miao!! biggrin

PS: I hate bugs too. blackeyed

stockholm:

Yea I really don't get hit on much. it's upsetting haha.

How have you been?

Monday Jun 09, 2008

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Well i know im a bit later here but i have finally gotten time to sit and make this new blog. thank you all first of all, for commenting on my last blog even though it really did not say much. this one is going to be under spoiler just because it will have all the emotions i have been feeliing for the last litte...
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bellica:

All I can say is I know you'll find a way to be happy hun! biggrin

dinamita:

hey!

im inviting you to check out my first set!

hope you like it!!

wink