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Three days off have come to an end. I've hung out with some hot chicks. I've gotten so fucking loaded that I've forgotten my name this weekend. And goddamn I still want MORE! I think in the end this is going to be the definitive issue in my relationship. In my search for excitement and pleasure, either she will come with me or I will...
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Another day of work done. Soon another to begin. Crud. If I volunteered to enter life the lesson I learn in death better be a great fucking one before I decide to come back to this planet again........L8er

Here it is another day. The shower awaits me. I really should find a job that I like but when you make alot of money you start to feel like a rat caught up in a fucking Maze--------That's " Rancid" by the way. I've just been Jamming out to the latest Danzig CD, I'm impressed. Reminds me alot of Glen's Samhain style. I'm looking forward...
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This planet sucks. The killing, lack of respect for any life that isn't human, fuck, even the lack of human life. Life isn't a gift. Its a fucking curse man. Not waiting for death but waiting for life to be what we think it should be. If reality is what we make it than man, I've really fucked up big time cause there is no...
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Nothing new today. Went to work hung out with some friends at the bar. The bar we hang out in has alot of Slayer, punk, lots of Metal and other shit so it is the bar of our preference. The Job i'm currently printing at work sucks. I work such long hours it is hard for me to start a band. Actually it is impossible....
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Tonight was an interesting night, drinking with friends, hanging out. Until of course the car hit the kitten out front. No one wanted to pick it up. Of course I as an animal lover had the lot dropped to me to pick the kitten up and get rid of it. What is it with death that people never want to gaze into its eyes? I...
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Its about 3 in the am. I'm really trying to learn to tolerate boredom. It gets expensive when you are trying to find a party when you aren't at work, which is rare when I'm not at work. Partying all the time gets a bit expensive anyway. I should crash soon cause a bunch of fucking strangers are invading my space tomorrow to put in...
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I went to the H2O, Madball concert tonight. A fight broke out and there was alot of drama. I didn't care cause I ran into my friends Debbie and Janice whom I haven't seen in a little over three years. The passing of time is trivial to love and friendship. These are lessons I am beginning to learn. Even so much less is the power...
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Well, I have a twelve hour shift tomorrow, hurray for me. Nothing new really, just partying till I can't remember what I did the next day, although everyone is always so damn quick to tell me. I hate that. What I do when I'm trashed should stay out of my immediate memory, eventually most of it comes back in bits and pieces. L8er

I think I got far too wasted last night. At least it wasn't as bad as four days ago. I thought I had to help my friend Leslie move today. She called me and said she decided not to take her new place. Needless to say I was happy for that, all things considered. Well I think I owe some apologies today. Bad shit can...
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Well, my best friend just headed back to Jersey. He's at a rough time in his life. I took the weekend off to hang out with him. I've known him since high school. We usually just get together and drink and such. His ex-wife just ended thier relationship, on a cop calling restraining order note. I don't see it as being such a bad thing....
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