Beyond
The life giving highway
Reckless and Innocent
The open door to everyday
Tried giving it up but it was already gone
For the weight of the world, didn't try too long
Cry out
The living fortress of Pestilence
Over and Under
Bow down for resistance
Too many fools have made their fortune
Broke down thier walls and found them crying
If I waited too...
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The life giving highway
Reckless and Innocent
The open door to everyday
Tried giving it up but it was already gone
For the weight of the world, didn't try too long
Cry out
The living fortress of Pestilence
Over and Under
Bow down for resistance
Too many fools have made their fortune
Broke down thier walls and found them crying
If I waited too...
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I put in an application for a driver at the subs shop up the street. If work is going to be this slow then it definately isn't going to cut it. Fuck that. I really don't want to put unnecessary milage on my car but you have gotta do what you've gotta fucking do I suppose. I had a pretty productive day today. I took...
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abyssia:
You are gonna make one funky Catholic. Yup, forgiveness is the deal. Oh, and love. Peace. Turning the other cheek. Then again, there are the greed, corruption, politics - and they even have outlines for a "just war" which totally fucks with my Jesus-meter. There isn't a thing in this world that can MAKE you weak. You know that. All I have to say about it is take what's useful and leave the rest - cuz it's all the creation of man and we're not anywhere near perfect. (That goes for any religion, philosophy, anything!) And as always, be you.
scandi_rose:
cool. wolfs honor is starting to seep in . 
I just got done watching Monster. I hate fucking movies that create an emotional response in me. For some odd reason it only serves to piss me off. Some girlfriends may be coming by or not, i"m not quite sure yet. I really just want to sit here and play guitar for a fucking while.
Yeah that movie really bugged me out, are we subjects...
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Yeah that movie really bugged me out, are we subjects...
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annalee:
Oh I didnt realise you didnt know I had a set going up! Thanks a lot for commenting on it 
scandi_rose:
lol. how true. i feel like a black metal jam right now i pretty damn buggered myself. 
see my journal if ya wanna know what some fucktard did to my mom.
see my journal if ya wanna know what some fucktard did to my mom.
Okay, I'm a bit hung over. I got back from the fucking club last night, made a burger, played guitar and crashed out at about five in the A.M. Then at Eight I got up and moved a shit load of furniture for my best girl's parents. Why they didn't take with them I moved to my friend The Reverend's house.
This hangover sucks ass,...
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This hangover sucks ass,...
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abyssia:
i like the pic. it has a sway to it.. it is soft and still sexy as hell.
i wonder what sins you could possibly have to confess. i memorized the act of contrition a couple of years ago for my Gida (grandfather in camel jockey) i mean, i had memorized it years ago... "o' my god i am heartily sorry for having offended thee because of your just punishment, but most of all, because i've offended you, my god, who are all good and deserving of all my love. i resolve, with thy grace, to sin no more and to avoid the near occasion of sin." now, if only i could figure out what a sin really is. is it breaking a rule someone listed as a guideline in a book or is it not living from one's core? is it failing to strive? is it lack of blind faith? fuck. i'm pretty sure i'd count doing intentional harm for no good reason in the sin category - but there are usually reasons. the other thing that buggs me about that little prayer is the emphasis on punishment. shouldn't we seek to sin less and to be "redeemed" solely because it is right? nah, people need threats and rewards. most of 'em anyway.
to truly love humanity, one must be not quite entirely human. i wonder what i am. do i truly love humanity? or do i hate it so much i'll do anything to escape it? even my own humanity.... ok, i'm reminding myself that there is beauty in all things. i have seen it. i remember. i'll stop now.
i lied. have you ever been afraid of yourself? of being you?
i wonder what sins you could possibly have to confess. i memorized the act of contrition a couple of years ago for my Gida (grandfather in camel jockey) i mean, i had memorized it years ago... "o' my god i am heartily sorry for having offended thee because of your just punishment, but most of all, because i've offended you, my god, who are all good and deserving of all my love. i resolve, with thy grace, to sin no more and to avoid the near occasion of sin." now, if only i could figure out what a sin really is. is it breaking a rule someone listed as a guideline in a book or is it not living from one's core? is it failing to strive? is it lack of blind faith? fuck. i'm pretty sure i'd count doing intentional harm for no good reason in the sin category - but there are usually reasons. the other thing that buggs me about that little prayer is the emphasis on punishment. shouldn't we seek to sin less and to be "redeemed" solely because it is right? nah, people need threats and rewards. most of 'em anyway.
to truly love humanity, one must be not quite entirely human. i wonder what i am. do i truly love humanity? or do i hate it so much i'll do anything to escape it? even my own humanity.... ok, i'm reminding myself that there is beauty in all things. i have seen it. i remember. i'll stop now.
i lied. have you ever been afraid of yourself? of being you?
annalee:
Sounds like your busy at the moment! The new picture is good Mass? So you;re trying out your idea then? I am meant to be essay writing right now 
must finish it soon so I can get back to my guitar!
Mass? So you;re trying out your idea then? I am meant to be essay writing right now must finish it soon so I can get back to my guitar! I have successfully made and consumed french toast with only minor damage to the kitchen. I usually like to eat alot of Salad but I wanted something else today. The motorhead show is tomorrow. This dude I work with is driving which leaves me to drink and be really Merry. Well I'm going to get ready for work, roll some cigarettes, yadda fucking yadda, fucking...
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receptionistdesk:
thanks for being so kind last night.
we should have met under better circumstances.
oh and mikey did finally make it home... sometime after 3.
we should have met under better circumstances.
oh and mikey did finally make it home... sometime after 3.
pretty_kitty:
hey babe have u read
The da vinci code yet
i think ur like it
wat u up too?x
[Edited on Mar 18, 2005 7:41PM]
The da vinci code yet
i think ur like it
wat u up too?x
[Edited on Mar 18, 2005 7:41PM]
So I was canceled from work today. It would seem that we are running ahead of schedule so paying me over time didn't seem worth it to the supervisors.........Cock suckers. Yeah, I can be one of those fuckers that are never happy, either working too much or working too little. By the way, too little for me is less than 50 hours a week. I'm...
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abyssia:
Catholicism has many perks - not the least of which are the use of incense and bells during mass! The stained glass does tend to rock and you have to admire the gold chalices and the rich vestments the priests use. Ooh, and perhaps the funniest bonus is the confession of sins. Yup. Once a year in a booth and you're set for heaven baby! Plus they give you a cracker and wine whenever you come in for church. Ok, now I'm wondering why I ever quit... I mean, the Christ on the Cross is one of the most delectably macabre things I can imagine and I got to see it every week! Madness. How could I leave all that? Oh yes, I remember - Dogma.
I did not know that bats were considered a spiritual animal for change. That puts some recent "hallucinations" (visions? I could be a saint!) in a whole new light. I love bats so when ugly, bat-like creatures started attacking me I was confused and kind of pissed. The hissing and the swooping of these three foot shadow creatures is just kind of weird. Maybe, just maybe, they are showing me that I must change. That it is time. Maybe I need to be kind of beat over the head with it. I can be awful stubborn.
You asked about the power he holds.... A very insightful question indeed. Eerily so. Sometimes I just want to squeeze you for actually getting it. For getting me. I'm not going to put this in my journal, but I thought it might answer some of your questions. (And yes, I still need to get back to you - and I will.)
with me
not for me
he came but
but did not claim
simple
he will not take
what he knows he must relinquish
he will take
whatever is offered
simple
so full
almost found
now empty
yes, utterly lost - again
so fucking simple
not the fool
not the hermit
a child could see
not me
simple...
if i don't laugh, i'll die.
I did not know that bats were considered a spiritual animal for change. That puts some recent "hallucinations" (visions? I could be a saint!) in a whole new light. I love bats so when ugly, bat-like creatures started attacking me I was confused and kind of pissed. The hissing and the swooping of these three foot shadow creatures is just kind of weird. Maybe, just maybe, they are showing me that I must change. That it is time. Maybe I need to be kind of beat over the head with it. I can be awful stubborn.
You asked about the power he holds.... A very insightful question indeed. Eerily so. Sometimes I just want to squeeze you for actually getting it. For getting me. I'm not going to put this in my journal, but I thought it might answer some of your questions. (And yes, I still need to get back to you - and I will.)
with me
not for me
he came but
but did not claim
simple
he will not take
what he knows he must relinquish
he will take
whatever is offered
simple
so full
almost found
now empty
yes, utterly lost - again
so fucking simple
not the fool
not the hermit
a child could see
not me
simple...
if i don't laugh, i'll die.
annalee:
Im glad you like it shall I make you bleed and glow? Hey, dont go all religious! just worship the guitar
Well here it is, tuesday. Fucking yesterday was in the sixties and today it is in the thirties, with snow on the ground I might add. Fucking sucks, I hate the cold. Shit, I'm hungry. Yeah so its back to my Irish pub in the city, at least they have an appreciation for the metal crowd. I took myself off of my Prozac, doctor doesn't...
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annalee:
Yeah, we have to practice lots so we can get really good on guitar! Take care 
xx
Take care xx
gypsygrrrl:
thanks for the visit... nice to see fresh face in my journal.
yeah... i'm heavily obsessing over cowgirl boots... I am them , they are me.. MUST HAVE THEM! I'll be sure to take pix of them on my happy feet once I get them!
and you, you, mr. AJ, good decision about the prozac. find your own peace within yourself. sometimes a few puffs off a small joint in a dark room with soft music playing at the end of the day helps... take it easy
yeah... i'm heavily obsessing over cowgirl boots... I am them , they are me.. MUST HAVE THEM! I'll be sure to take pix of them on my happy feet once I get them!
and you, you, mr. AJ, good decision about the prozac. find your own peace within yourself. sometimes a few puffs off a small joint in a dark room with soft music playing at the end of the day helps... take it easy
I'm both pissed and bummed out at the same time. Last night was a straight up fucking war between me and all the fuckers at the bar. The manager was skipping all my songs because he said no one wanted to hear them and that I was costing him money by making people leave. What the fuck is wrong with Rancid, Misfits and Slayer with...
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receptionistdesk:
yea
i think its april 18th.
i think its april 18th.
annalee:
Misfits Slayer and Pantera is what they should be playing!!!!!!!!!! Fuck them, that sucks Im back now from my trip it ruled! Kreator were amazing and we met them too at a signing How are you apart from the bar being annoying?
Im back now from my trip it ruled! Kreator were amazing and we met them too at a signing How are you apart from the bar being annoying? So, today I was getting out of the shower getting ready for work when I get this text message from a Friend of mine that Danzig was playing tonight!!!!!!!!!! I was like fuck man, what didn't ya tell me sooner? He said cause he just found out. Its pretty fucking pathetic when two Danzig fans have no idea about fucking tour dates. Needless to say...
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lilmissmorbid:
Moved to Tn and had a fucking roller coaster ride mentally back until april sweetcheeks missed you
receptionistdesk:
mikey (the boy) said he saw you (he used to run into you at the lounge apparently) and meant to say hi but forgot or something....
man. so many heads i knew were as lucky as us last night.
and that is fuckin awesome
man. so many heads i knew were as lucky as us last night.
and that is fuckin awesome
Yesterday was a long fucking day at work but at least most of the snow is gone. I hate not being able to drive my care cause of the snow. Firebirds are very ass light and I am too lazy to put bags of Kitty litter in the trunk of it. Didn't touch the guitar last night which is rare. The hour between 11pm and...
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annalee:
Thats cool I feel famous now! Haha you rule when you're drunk and so do warewolfs. Have a good day or whatever it is where you are oh and thats cool about that danzig stuff lucky you Im jealous
oh and thats cool about that danzig stuff lucky you Im jealous 
moit:
Boondock Saints = the best.
And Poppy is going mainstream? Thas such crap. Her style IS NOT going to be Poppy if she changes. *rolls eyes* Anyway thanks for the bday wishes.
And Poppy is going mainstream? Thas such crap. Her style IS NOT going to be Poppy if she changes. *rolls eyes* Anyway thanks for the bday wishes.
So me and some other fuckers were out at the bar last night. I got wasted as usual. Dumb shits started playing alot of hip hop. I ended up getting really upset and before I left the bar I turned to everyone in it and told them that they should try being individuals and not listen to mainstream music just cause they are told to....
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lynxkarma:
thanky, i'm glad you liked jennrose's set.
i came up with the idea. i came up with the idea while i was on a bio field trip. i wanted to do something that would catch her personality and be different. i also liked the arty side of the program taking over her like technology is taking over our world. and writing on people makes me happy too
i gave up on normal clubs. only goth ones for me. i don't like wasting my time listening to crap!
i came up with the idea. i came up with the idea while i was on a bio field trip. i wanted to do something that would catch her personality and be different. i also liked the arty side of the program taking over her like technology is taking over our world. and writing on people makes me happy too
i gave up on normal clubs. only goth ones for me. i don't like wasting my time listening to crap!
maybes_smashing:
well, you get to help me figure out what my next set will be. it's definetely going to involve a solely black outfit because that IS me. outside of that, i'm not sure how i can put my personality or interests into the set yet. help me think on it, assmonkey.
-d.
-d.
You know, the wierdest thing about dating two chicks, being on prozac and mixing it with alcohol is.............you remember laying in bed making out but you can't quite fucking remember who you were making out with. Fuck, she wanted a girlfriend she got a girlfriend. Twisted my arm? No fucking way. .........No shit.........L8er..........Aj
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abyssia:
i'm more likely to implode actually.
pattti:
I actually like reading your blabbing about nothing and everything all together. Being wasted is all sorts of fun.
xo
xo
geminis . . always wishin' they were scorpios . . .