adonis

I can't find my fucking lighter. I've been using one of those huge mega lighters for grills and shit all day. finally i lit a candle with it, and now i'm using that. updates updates..... hmmm... my cable and internet was shut off for about a month, but i am back now. fucking broke. unemployment getting ready to end. i might get a job as...
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percocet is definitely my drug of choice. it sure as hell makes the days and nights better. i have an appt in Raleigh next week with a specialist- we're probably going to do a complete hysterectomy now. what else is there to do? i don't mind really...don't want kids. don't want a period. don't want menopause. but it hurts a little to lose the "choice"...
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new pictures posted, the main one on this page, and then under the folder "warm lights" sorry perverts, no boobs in these. you get a little ass though...

jobless again. I've realized I don't like working anyways. I'd much rather play music and create things than waste time doing worthless shit. i'm getting some more pictures together, possibly a new photo set to submit. I just wish I had a better camera to produce better quality photos.

i love the gathering. their new album is coming out....titled "home" but I've had a little taste of what's to come and I adore it. The job is going well...but I'm getting sick again. Had more ovarian cysts rupture and even more forming. if you remember this is how i lost my last job. i'm worried about what's to come: more surgery, unemployment, having to...
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has it really been that long since i've written an entry?? i suppose it has. i want a yorkshire terrier real bad. it's all i can think about. a yorkie...and i'll name him Spike. The great thing about working for an apartment complex is when people leave stuff behind. i'm gaining quite a collection of used items such as wine glasses or whiskey glasses.... stuffed...
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well...i had my second rejected set. damn i need a photographer and a better camera......

I think I have a job! very exciting, i know. and a great christmas present. although being unemployed has had its perks....hmm.... My apartment office wants me to work for them. They came to me...which was definitely flattering. The lady said she always liked me and when the job came open, she thought of me. Fucking awesome. I sure am going to miss sleeping all...
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i put a couple of new songs up on music page. check it out, My Music

hello lovely people. the doc doubled my zoloft. i think she thinks i'm crazy. i think i think she thinks i'm depressive. but really i just think the world sucks ass. and i'm not so sure that makes me "depressed" or anything. in fact, i think it moreso categorizes me as a post modern punk rock feminist, if there is such a thing. everyone should...
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haven't heard back from my interview yet... hopefully i will soon. i watched history of violence today. that's a badass movie, i was on edge the entire time! other than that.. just excited about my christmas list. so far I want some books, movies, a humidifier, a nintendo ds with nintendogs and a hello kitty fender electric guitar. i've been at a kind of standstill...
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