It was glorious while it lasted. I returned Maity to her daddy last night. I feel so alone without my pooka. My DoGod. She was love-starved. She needed a bath. She needed to be taken on walks. I did all I could (even though she hates baths). She's been sick and is taking medication that makes her thirsty. She needs water all night and even...
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Maity Maity Maitreya! My Dogod Is Coming to Visit for FIVE Nights!!! FIVE! I'm a grinning monster! Tee Hee! Must make ready....
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radioactivehead:
JOY!!!!11
radioactivehead:
Horse Rance, but theres all kinds of animals like Goats, Cows, all kinds of crazy animals that you can only see in texas....
Whenever I wake up I think Maity is in bed with me - Maitreya, my canine companion. I think my chin is on her head or that she is snoozing my my feet. I feel her presence. She's not here, she is at her daddy's house, sleeping on the floor in the living room because she is waiting for me to return. I don't think...
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silveronthetree:
hugs
love forgotten
not
please forget me
not
the fear chokes
alone
window pane
shadow
rose for your bed
roses, roses he left
stay....
were it not for
she-in-i,
were i one
would i have gone
anyway?
necessity says yes.
pragmatism and sanity
and all but my will.
now i can be naught
but will
"a force of nature"
he said.
not quite enough
to stay...
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not
please forget me
not
the fear chokes
alone
window pane
shadow
rose for your bed
roses, roses he left
stay....
were it not for
she-in-i,
were i one
would i have gone
anyway?
necessity says yes.
pragmatism and sanity
and all but my will.
now i can be naught
but will
"a force of nature"
he said.
not quite enough
to stay...
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princelogos:
Ramble on. 
silveronthetree:
BIG
I think the moon has a great potential for influence, both negative and positive. Whatever happens going out on a full moon will lead to and intresting evening
I think the moon has a great potential for influence, both negative and positive. Whatever happens going out on a full moon will lead to and intresting evening
A vibrant woman shared with me a piece of advice that had been given her by someone she respects very much: "If you love someone, let them go. If they come back, they'll be yours forever." She has been very fortunate in taking this advice for now she and the one she loves are together. They are so very beautiful together. They are two of...
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radioactivehead:
Good advice.
redfirefaery:
Ha Ha! i love you mer!
Quick note: Birthday tomorrow. Feeling like that Bridget Jones.... Hum. Not about to enter my weight here though! Making progress in the BPD department. Making progress in several others as well. Not sure about where to live - may be entering a "long-term" (month or two) treatment facility for BPD. The Prayer of St. Francis is with me. He's one good thing the Catholics have...
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radioactivehead:
Quick notes...
1. Hope you had a happy birthday.
2. Did you disapear off here for like a month or something? I couldnt find your profile?
3. Long Time no chit chat.
4. Religion is fun. I am not really a religious person, i just enjoy the stories behind them
5. Im moving to texas in about 4 days. I dont know how long im gonna be there or even if im gonna be back to the eastern seaboard
6. Give me a call sometime and we can catch up, my # is still the same. Or even message me on here and let me know how you are doing, i havent heard from you in so long. I hope all is well.
Cheers,
~matt~
1. Hope you had a happy birthday.
2. Did you disapear off here for like a month or something? I couldnt find your profile?
3. Long Time no chit chat.
4. Religion is fun. I am not really a religious person, i just enjoy the stories behind them
5. Im moving to texas in about 4 days. I dont know how long im gonna be there or even if im gonna be back to the eastern seaboard
6. Give me a call sometime and we can catch up, my # is still the same. Or even message me on here and let me know how you are doing, i havent heard from you in so long. I hope all is well.
Cheers,
~matt~
princelogos:
Pittsburg;..I do remember, back when it was Steel City, all those horrendus hell holes, black dungeons belching fire and smoke.
I was thinking, glad I don't live here and have to work in one of those Pits.
the Hellhole factory life I got my self into at a young age were bad enough.
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Hope all is going well for you.
I see that you've logged on recently, so I'm leaving this,-"High There," for ya.
I was thinking, glad I don't live here and have to work in one of those Pits.
the Hellhole factory life I got my self into at a young age were bad enough.
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Hope all is going well for you.
I see that you've logged on recently, so I'm leaving this,-"High There," for ya.
so now i'm taking myself on. finally. they call it borderline personality disorder. i've always hated that. i think that maybe if it had a name that didn't make me feel like there was something wrong with my personality, i may have taken this on sooner. i mean, i was first told i had this disorder when i was about 14.... i couldn't deal.
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redfirefaery:
i know i've acquired the issues i deal with daily now... it is scary how much experiences can change a person, eh? i am glad you're working toward being healthy. i know it's a haul, but we still have a room... and now there are 3 people here used to living with and supporting others with depression and "disorders". anything we can do to help! 
i miss you
♥
i miss you
♥
silveronthetree:
Hello mate.
Glad you`ve given thoughts of giving up a miss. No answers lie there.
Having read through this entry twice, I`m upset for you.
I can`t help but feel you are blaming a lot of stuff on yourself, and I can`t buy that.
If you feel rottwen somehow that`s ok, but know that at least I think you are a very special person.
Take your time with everything, you`ve been through a hell of a lot, don`t be too hard on yourself and don`t let others be hard on you either.
Message me if you like.
Send you some love
Glad you`ve given thoughts of giving up a miss. No answers lie there.
Having read through this entry twice, I`m upset for you.
I can`t help but feel you are blaming a lot of stuff on yourself, and I can`t buy that.
If you feel rottwen somehow that`s ok, but know that at least I think you are a very special person.
Take your time with everything, you`ve been through a hell of a lot, don`t be too hard on yourself and don`t let others be hard on you either.
Message me if you like.
Send you some love
when its clear
its clear
but oh my dear
nothing could be muddier
muckier
more muddled and befuddled
than this mind
inside
rewind, play, stop
rewind, play, pause...
entwined, the way, the cause
inside
out
and its a bloody mess
i could
i really could
land atop an old lady
think shed mind?
part of the grand design?
Kali Ma or senseless tragedy?
who knows,...
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its clear
but oh my dear
nothing could be muddier
muckier
more muddled and befuddled
than this mind
inside
rewind, play, stop
rewind, play, pause...
entwined, the way, the cause
inside
out
and its a bloody mess
i could
i really could
land atop an old lady
think shed mind?
part of the grand design?
Kali Ma or senseless tragedy?
who knows,...
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kod:
I am okie babe. dont worry .
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princelogos:
Oh happy chair hold my arse tightly as my mind reels;...reel in, let it out.
Great wanderings, I loved it, but I wish more happiness than that.
Great wanderings, I loved it, but I wish more happiness than that.
times like this, i think about death.
high places.
blood.
the sinequan-blend done right.
no way i can fuck up anything for anyone anymore.
i don't think about guns...
high places.
blood.
the sinequan-blend done right.
no way i can fuck up anything for anyone anymore.
i don't think about guns...
mercedes:
you could land on top of an old lady
nine and a half years ago
she came with me
i left then too
i thought it was my fault
he barely touched me
masturbated to those ever-eighteen year-olds
pretzel-locked in lesbian embraces
or double - even triple stuffed -
ass, pussy and faces!
he masturbated to the tile in the shower.
he did not look at me.
i left.
there were some other things.......
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she came with me
i left then too
i thought it was my fault
he barely touched me
masturbated to those ever-eighteen year-olds
pretzel-locked in lesbian embraces
or double - even triple stuffed -
ass, pussy and faces!
he masturbated to the tile in the shower.
he did not look at me.
i left.
there were some other things.......
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princelogos:
Good to hear from you;...your always witty, the drugs just slow it down.
You can have any Post or assignment you'd like, it can only be an improvement.
I haven't been very good, I'm in a lost state, but I think I'm getting a grip.
Reality has been put through the blender and the mush that I'm left with is very hard to deal with.
----------------more later, I must open the Gallery.
You can have any Post or assignment you'd like, it can only be an improvement.
I haven't been very good, I'm in a lost state, but I think I'm getting a grip.
Reality has been put through the blender and the mush that I'm left with is very hard to deal with.
----------------more later, I must open the Gallery.
princelogos:
That's about the sadest entry;...I keep reading it, and it just gets worse.
I can't fix this stupid world, sometimes I can't even point to where it used to be.
A Giant, completly non lecherous, HUG!
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Brian, you "Fuckstick", you make me ashamed of my Maleness.
I can't fix this stupid world, sometimes I can't even point to where it used to be.
A Giant, completly non lecherous, HUG!
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Brian, you "Fuckstick", you make me ashamed of my Maleness.
i am gone.
email is betheeabyss@yahoo.com
be well.
email is betheeabyss@yahoo.com
be well.
In my last post I spoke of being betrayed - I didn't want to focus on it - I just wanted to move on. Unfortunately, the man who raped me is now a member of SG for the sole purpose of spying on me. Sadly, there is nothing I can do to feel safe even here, so I will be leaving. Those of you who...
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princelogos:
----------------I Lied.
radioactivehead:
There is still much i do not know about you. And most likely even more i will never know. It is sad to see you go. You still have the aim if you ever need to chat.
Cheers,
~matt~
Cheers,
~matt~
Hope it does