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Does anyone know what it is like to have a mental breakdown? I think I might be having one and would love to know the symptoms.
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ctrlcat:
There's no such thing as a "mental breakdown" or "nervous breakdown" ... these euphemisms (along with the vague "nerves") usually refer to what a psychiatrist/ologist would diagnose as major depression or an anxiety or panic disorder.

Schizoaffective disorder and mania are usually what get a person colloquially called "crazy".

Having had a "nervous breakdown" of my own, I feel qualified to answer.
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arsenic:
I don't remember my first breakdown.. but my second breakdown I sat in the middle of my floor crying without sobbing/tears flowing rappidly pulling tuffts of hair out.
I had to cut it short and perm it. I looked like shirly temple. It was cute.. but it grew back. frown
The third, I crawled under my bed and sobbed thick tears for 11 hours.. when no one in a house of 5 came to see if I was okay, I took everything pill I could find in the medicene chest.
I was hospitalized for 7 1/2 months.. then I had to spend 2 1/2 in a psych ward. Then 2 years of therapy. It really fucked me up.. I am constanly getting sick. When someone around me has so much as an inchy nose, I get sick.

Anyway. That sucked. still does.

EDIT: sloppy typer.

[Edited on Jun 26, 2004 11:40PM]
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Goddamn it ... I'm bored. Like ... oh so fucking bored. And anxious about something ... but I dunno what.

I also want something interesting to type here ... but I have nothing of interest to say.

How the hell do you people find me interesting?

Edit: Anyone other than Delusion interested in reading any of my creative writing? I can post it on here...
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beledi:
please post. i love reading other people's writing. besides, you've read my orc story, now i expect something back. wink
hyenahell:
i'm interested. smile post away, my friend.
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My stomach has kinda been hurting the past two days.

Not like a hurt hurt ... more like an owwie hy won't this dull ache go away hurt.

Maybe I'm pregnant eeek
peggy:
eeek Is it mine?? wink
delusion:
oh i feel you entirely too much on that. i feel like i've spent the past 3 years of my life with some varying degree of stomach pain. it sucks ass. smoke a bowl and relax. kiss

& finally, finally i've gotten some shit down lately that reminds me why i write in the first place. not necessarily worth shit but stuff that was actually fun to write. yay! you should go back to writing. it always makes me sad when people abandon their dreams, or their hobbies.
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Soooooo ... went to a friends place last night, smoked up as usual and went on my merry way home.

Background info - I live a street away from said friend. In between my street and her street is a park with two schools. A pathway goes between the two streets for access to the schools.

Now ... this field/school yard is the site of...
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wednesday:
I don't think I realized how good things are in Sweden, until I traveled around eastern europe... After one month I was just crying and wanted to go back. Since that I have'nt been outside of Sweden once! So, yeah... It's not a utopia, but it's a lot more freedom than In many other places... I would say it's kind of a naive country - there hasn't been a war in like 300 years, so we're kin of used to be nice to each other. Though I'ts gotten worse (for example the riots and shootings at the EU-meeting in gothenburgh, noone thought that could happen in sweden!).



geeva:
I thought you Canadians were peace loving peoples? Besides the bombing of the Baldwins. biggrin
nermind if ya don't know what I'm talking about.
Sheesh guys shouldn't beat girls up. When guys try that with me, I set them on fire. Or chase them with knives. But I'm a nice person really I am. smile
Everyone hates our country cuz of Bush now. He kinda makes Texans look dumb. And half of all us didn't vote for the fucker in the first place frown
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Kay ... so despite it saying that I've been a member since 2003 ... I've acutally really only been here since like ... late April-ish.

I originally signed up for Lennon. I was a member of her forum and for awhile was the top poster there and I collected anything I could that had to deal with Lennon. I really thought she was on the...
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granny:
he he... thank you for trying. I just couldnt help it. kiss
joshof13thfloor:
It's kind of weird sometimes when I really think about it.

I mean, I came here to this site purely for the boobies. And the boobies I do enjoy (even if technically it's usually the members pics I look at more than the SGs) but it really is the people I keep coming back for.

The thing with the friends list in my opinion is that while this may just be the internet and it may just be a porn site I seriously do care for a lot of the people on my list (as sad as that may sound) and I try to take my role as friend seriously.

I mean, Hell, i've got three or four friends on my list who have gone gray and are obviously never coming back but I refuse to get rid of them on the off chance that they'll come back someday.

I'm a schmuck, but i'm a loyal shcmuck.

Thanks for the cool testimonial. I appreaciate it. Friend.

-Josh EL SUICIDO LOCO
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Alright ... enough of the negaitivity in my journal this time ... I wanna see if I can get out of this funk mood I've been in for a few days.

Sooo ... yay ... it's question time. (Aren't you lucky).

- who is your role model or idol?

- do you smoke/drink/toke?

- if you could be beautiful, intelligent, or rich, which one would...
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arsenic:
its updating right now.. it'll be just a sec. wink
arsenic:
That's so true! I JUST got home from work, and I looked at the clock and I have to be back up for work in 2 hours!!! Where did the time go?? shocked
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Alright ... the weekend.

I technically had the option of going to two different weddings on Saturday - both at the same time.

One was for my friend from college, the other, a friend from highschool.

Now ... I know it would make sense per se to go to the one who you've been friends with longer ... obviously there is a mutual sharing of...
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crazedlunatik:
Damn. Real Glad I am not that guy. I had a girl tell me she was pregnant once. Not a good scene. I flipped out when I found out she lied. I want a kid but not now. I am to f'd up and lost to worry about raising someone. Yeah the whole scene was bad but I never proposed marriage. Interesting.
ashcamble:
By best friend of of over 20 years was in almost this exact situation. Only she convinced him to move to Alaska to live with her parents. His family and all his friends thought he was fucking insane. But like you said when a man is getting some on a reagular bassis He turns fucking retarded. I gave it maybe a year. To everybodies surprise They have been married now fror over seven years and he still says he's happy as a clam.

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Weekend was interesting. But I don't feel like typing about it now.

Blah.
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peggy:
Play what?
peggy:
I always lose at strip poker. But last time I found out it was because the guys cheated.
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So ... was it good for you?

*wink* You know who YOU are.

Well ... I'm gone til Sunday ... that means three-ish days that I won't be here.

Which means this is the only journal entry for a few days.

Which means I'm greedy and want to come home to a bunch of comments here.

So be a post junie and fill me journal...
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isadora:
it's fine so long as you use a whole piece that hasn't been nicked or cut or anything.
dollbabyamy:
I'm having some fun as of lately. but the invitation is still available for us to run away. it's an at will kind of thing, so just give me a few minutes to repack, and i'm ready. smile
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Since Canada shall be royally screwed in a matter of weeks ... where should I move?

I'm almost serious about this. I don't think I want to live in Canada anymore if Stephen Harper wins.

And there is absolutely no way I'd move to the States ... that's why I don't want Haper to win - he's gonna make Canada a clone of the States....
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surfbetty:
Mess with the bull, you'll get the horns!!!!

oh and I was born on Mother's Day so I'm cooler.... wink biggrin
mnislahi:
Italy! biggrin ...spain?
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Fuck.

Someone steal me and take me away from this place.

I'm tired of it ... it's all I know ... I'm afraid to know different ...

But I just can't take any more of this shit.

I can only go so far ... before I'm stretched to the point of uselessness.

I can only pretend to be happy and complacent for so long.

Caring...
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isadora:
well, when i'm thirty and look twenty-two...

thanks for standing up for me wink
isadora:
gummo is a fantastic movie, but not for everybody. it's very disturbing. it doesn't really have a plot per se, it mostly just follows around a bunch of seemingly random people in a southern town that got hit by a hurricane and never really recovered. it's very hard to describe, but disturbing in a very interesting way is probably the best i can say... it's like a car crash that you just gotta watch...
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I've always had a problem with going to movie theatres to see films.

A lot of it had to do with the whole situation behind it. I mean ... why pay to rent a seat for a few hours and be surrounded by a bunch of people you don't know, many of them usually highly annoying, pay way too much for popcorn and pop, fight...
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mnislahi:
im gonna have to watch that directors cut when i get there!!
granny:
you may biggrin