Lets have a discussion ...
My sons biological father (sperm donor) decided to call my son on the telephone last night. Just ... out of the blue. I found it to be awfully strange, ya know .. since he's never called my son. Ever. Not even on his birthday! Which got me thinking that maybe he forgot when his sons birthday was in the first...
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My sons biological father (sperm donor) decided to call my son on the telephone last night. Just ... out of the blue. I found it to be awfully strange, ya know .. since he's never called my son. Ever. Not even on his birthday! Which got me thinking that maybe he forgot when his sons birthday was in the first...
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Hey everyone 
I kinda figured it was time for an update ... since I started noticing more and more ppl taking me off their favorites list, haha.. that kinda stunk. I guess its "out of sight .. out of mind" rather than "absence makes the heart grow fonder"...
My teeth are much better, in fact I hardly notice them. Maybe it'll return, maybe not. We'll...
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I kinda figured it was time for an update ... since I started noticing more and more ppl taking me off their favorites list, haha.. that kinda stunk. I guess its "out of sight .. out of mind" rather than "absence makes the heart grow fonder"...
My teeth are much better, in fact I hardly notice them. Maybe it'll return, maybe not. We'll...
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anarchick:
I forgot the questions!
questions!
~Name a suspenseful "on the edge of your seat" book to read
Hmm, I don't usually read edge of your seat stuff- I'm a memoir kinda girl. I'll say A Clockwork Orange is pretty dramatic, all the violence etc. It kept me hanging out to find out what happened to the guy at the end.
~what are some of your fave websites to go to when you're bored?
SG, myspace, greenday.co.uk, quizilla.com
~do you see yourself doing what you're doing now for work in five years? how abt ten years?
I don't know, I'll probably be working in a shop in 5 years time. In 10 I hope to be something more fulfilling
~when you were a teen, did you see yourself being where you are now? Are you dissapointed or proud?
Hmm, I suppose I'd have liked to have been going to University- but now I don't think I'm going to go. I guess I'm a little dissapointed really. Bah.
questions!
~Name a suspenseful "on the edge of your seat" book to read
Hmm, I don't usually read edge of your seat stuff- I'm a memoir kinda girl. I'll say A Clockwork Orange is pretty dramatic, all the violence etc. It kept me hanging out to find out what happened to the guy at the end.
~what are some of your fave websites to go to when you're bored?
SG, myspace, greenday.co.uk, quizilla.com
~do you see yourself doing what you're doing now for work in five years? how abt ten years?
I don't know, I'll probably be working in a shop in 5 years time. In 10 I hope to be something more fulfilling
~when you were a teen, did you see yourself being where you are now? Are you dissapointed or proud?
Hmm, I suppose I'd have liked to have been going to University- but now I don't think I'm going to go. I guess I'm a little dissapointed really. Bah.
roopie:
gee do you wanna be any nicer my head is actually gonna explode and cover you with brains.. yeah. 
Gah, you can have that girl on 'buy it now' for a cent.*
~Name a suspenseful "on the edge of your seat" book to read:
I guess American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis kinda covers this in the way that you wonder if he's gonna bite her or stab her...
but the endings pretty interesting
~what are some of your fave websites to go to when you're bored? uhhh... suicide girls?! Hmn I get addicted to a new one every now and again, at the moment it's here and google searches for photography websites.
~do you see yourself doing what you're doing now for work in five years? how abt ten years?
Umm.. probably starting up my website properly, finishing up with UNI and then opening my own shop.
~when you were a teen, did you see yourself being where you are now? Are you dissapointed or proud?
I am a teen I thought life would be a little more exciting... but, i'm a geek 
and on a porn site... nothing can beat that can it? Damnit i'm proud.
*offer only valiad for Ash Suicide
ps. this pic
but i'm not sure if it follows the rules for priofile pics... so i'm pretty useless really arn't I... oh well. You're so hot.
[Edited on Apr 22, 2005 6:28PM]
Gah, you can have that girl on 'buy it now' for a cent.*
~Name a suspenseful "on the edge of your seat" book to read:
I guess American Psycho by Bret Easton Ellis kinda covers this in the way that you wonder if he's gonna bite her or stab her...
but the endings pretty interesting
~what are some of your fave websites to go to when you're bored? uhhh... suicide girls?! Hmn I get addicted to a new one every now and again, at the moment it's here and google searches for photography websites.
~do you see yourself doing what you're doing now for work in five years? how abt ten years?
Umm.. probably starting up my website properly, finishing up with UNI and then opening my own shop.
~when you were a teen, did you see yourself being where you are now? Are you dissapointed or proud?
I am a teen
I thought life would be a little more exciting... but, i'm a geek and on a porn site... nothing can beat that can it? Damnit i'm proud.
*offer only valiad for Ash Suicide
ps. this pic
but i'm not sure if it follows the rules for priofile pics... so i'm pretty useless really arn't I... oh well. You're so hot.
[Edited on Apr 22, 2005 6:28PM]
I apologize to my SG ppl ... but I am in such agony due to my wisdom teeth that I just cant sit here at the computer and be witty. Or funny. Or anything, really. Its lookin like it wont go away without the assistance of a dental professional. Which is just WONDERFUL! Not because of my fear of dentists, but because of how expensive...
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yourarchitect:
love ya....miss ya....
desmobile:
i just tried to contact you through myspace for chatting but stopped 'cause i was afraid to speak to you! LOL! 
Help me, god.
My mouth hurts.
Holy shit ... when I begged you to help me lose weight, I didnt mean LIKE THIS!
Christ!
Anyways ...
I guess my wisdom teeth are coming in. They've BEEN coming in for ages now, and every once in a while, they hurt. But it usually goes away, so I dont pay any attention to it when it happens....
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My mouth hurts.
Holy shit ... when I begged you to help me lose weight, I didnt mean LIKE THIS!
Christ!
Anyways ...
I guess my wisdom teeth are coming in. They've BEEN coming in for ages now, and every once in a while, they hurt. But it usually goes away, so I dont pay any attention to it when it happens....
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obliviousfocus:
*HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS*
thejuanupsman:
I was so lucky with my wisdom teeth. They never really hurt. The dentist said they needed to come out, I made an appointment, it was an almost painless procedure and I never even needed the painkillers they prescribed. I have heard from some other people that it can be awful, though. I hope it gets better soon. If it doesn't, go to the dentist before it gets too bad. Waiting will probably only make it worse.
I don't like to think of you in pain.
I don't like to think of you in pain.
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miserybleeds:
i love the new tatt 
tampa is a cool city
do you ever visit fl now? if so we should meet up and hang out
Q's
~Do/you/use/dental/floss? Yes
~how/abt/that/nasty/burning/mouthwash/crap? Heh yeah it burns.....
and/why/the/hell/cant/you/dillute/it? i dont know but i do anyways
tampa is a cool city
do you ever visit fl now? if so we should meet up and hang out
Q's
~Do/you/use/dental/floss? Yes
~how/abt/that/nasty/burning/mouthwash/crap? Heh yeah it burns.....
and/why/the/hell/cant/you/dillute/it? i dont know but i do anyways
psychobeastxxx:
I'm on my way to sleep, and will be aided by whatever the hell gives nyquil it's 10% of alcohol, getting sick sucks, heh, anyway
I hate using mouthwash and will end up doing it only like once a week cause it makes me kinda sick, and uhm, I floss sometimes, but not nearly as much as I should
anyway hope all end ups well, mouth pain sucks, your tatoo looks great, doesn't look like any monkey I've seen, and I hope you don't have too much of a hard time replacing that keyboard
I hate using mouthwash and will end up doing it only like once a week cause it makes me kinda sick, and uhm, I floss sometimes, but not nearly as much as I should
anyway hope all end ups well, mouth pain sucks, your tatoo looks great, doesn't look like any monkey I've seen, and I hope you don't have too much of a hard time replacing that keyboard
warning! this journal contains SHITLOADS of pictures!
Well, thanks to three of my best friends in the universe, I can go get my tattoo today!!! fdnymedic lent me the cash to get it done, since my tax return didnt come in time ... Bluto is driving me up to Milwaukee since I havent picked up my car yet, and my little sugarslut scarletblue is watching...
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Well, thanks to three of my best friends in the universe, I can go get my tattoo today!!! fdnymedic lent me the cash to get it done, since my tax return didnt come in time ... Bluto is driving me up to Milwaukee since I havent picked up my car yet, and my little sugarslut scarletblue is watching...
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deadmansparty:
You need to either grab the dog by the throat or the balls
that shows them whos in charge
that shows them whos in charge
heroin:
Hey,how are you? .Ive been on holidays,but now Im back.My account will run out soon though and I cant buy a new one because I dont have a credit card
I have been busy with studying for exams and college and sewing Yeah thats it actually
.Ive been on holidays,but now Im back.My account will run out soon though and I cant buy a new one because I dont have a credit card
I have been busy with studying for exams and college and sewing
Yeah thats it actually Happy fuckin bunny floppin day, biznotches!
Sorry I havent been around to reply to posts and update my journal ... things have taken a little bit of a twist around here and ... well ... chaos. You know how it goes, Im sure.
I decided on something that Ive been kinda playing with lately, the idea that maybe I should go to cosmotology school. Modeling...
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Sorry I havent been around to reply to posts and update my journal ... things have taken a little bit of a twist around here and ... well ... chaos. You know how it goes, Im sure.
I decided on something that Ive been kinda playing with lately, the idea that maybe I should go to cosmotology school. Modeling...
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fiesty:
hey ash have not left ya a message in a long time. hope you are doing well. have a good one hun!!
m69:
My day ain't going any better. My return isn't here either and I get to spend the day at home with my 3 year old and his collection of37 chicken pox!
Ive always been told that you know your life has been worth living if ppl could enjoy reading a book abt it.
I think abt that a lot. My book ... abt my life. How it would start, how it would end ... I wonder who would read it and what they would think abt me afterwards. Am I the hero? Am I the villain?...
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I think abt that a lot. My book ... abt my life. How it would start, how it would end ... I wonder who would read it and what they would think abt me afterwards. Am I the hero? Am I the villain?...
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britney:
I gotta say, a book on my life wouldn't be too bad a read at all...... I got a fuck load of ups and downs for the world to eat up!!! waiting for the climax..... every time I think I'm there, it just turns out to be another climb to the top of insanity..... And I don't care who plays me in my movie as long as Angelina gets a part in the movie!........
the important thing is..... I'm back biotch!!!!!!!!! Missed ya!!
the important thing is..... I'm back biotch!!!!!!!!! Missed ya!!
llona:
no, sugar, i am not ignoring you! i'm sorry i haven't gotten back to you sooner.
send me the email again, i didn't get it.
xoxox
send me the email again, i didn't get it.
xoxox
Im such a dork when it comes to this site, hahah! Last year on my birthday, I couldnt BELIEVE all the people who wished me a happy birthday! I thought to myself "Gee, thats so sweet. I cant believe THAT many ppl looked at my birthday and remembered!" come to find out .. theres this wittle tiny balloon that pops up next to your name...
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ampersandwich:
Why no more drinks? I mean even on a casual basis. I dont think you're breastfeeding...
Anyhow, I couldnt love you any more, once you answered "New Castle!" It's in my top 3 everrrrrr
Here's the old ?s:
Oh, here's somethings about being an SG I've always wondered:
a) can you be indicated to know who has selected you as a Favorite?
b) do they give you any sorta increased tools, like the ability to delete nasty shit people may write on a set list journal?
c) do you get totally deranged 'fan mail'/emails?
d) when you submit a set, do you have any control over the # of photos in that set which get posted (ie: you send in a 45 picture set, it ends up as 45, or as 30, etc)?
e) as an SG, do you still have to pay for the site?
I think that's it for now....
Y~!
Anyhow, I couldnt love you any more, once you answered "New Castle!"
It's in my top 3 everrrrrr
Here's the old ?s:
Oh, here's somethings about being an SG I've always wondered:
a) can you be indicated to know who has selected you as a Favorite?
b) do they give you any sorta increased tools, like the ability to delete nasty shit people may write on a set list journal?
c) do you get totally deranged 'fan mail'/emails?
d) when you submit a set, do you have any control over the # of photos in that set which get posted (ie: you send in a 45 picture set, it ends up as 45, or as 30, etc)?
e) as an SG, do you still have to pay for the site?
I think that's it for now....
Y~!
honeyass2004:
Ok babycakes i replied to your post, on my post...wow confusing..hehe...you're so sexy
i replied to your post, on my post...wow confusing..hehe...you're so sexy So I have my first shoot today in ages. I quit for a while because I wanted to lose weight .. I wasnt happy with ANY of my photos because I hated the way I looked, and .. when u dont feel good abt yourself, you can see it in the photos no matter what you do. So I took a neccessary break.
This guy...
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cherryb0mb:
our cat caught a mouse the other day & apparently hid it somewhere... a few days later, someone took the cans & bottles to the returnables center and the people working there emptied the bags and found the dead mouse. eww. & my dog waits for me to finish my yogurt so he can lick the container out. the cats have no interest.
i am sure you'll set will look HOT no matter what! i never cared about weight too much, but i gained some too recently & for some reason it bothers me more than ever before.
to you and your kitty.
eww. & my dog waits for me to finish my yogurt so he can lick the container out. the cats have no interest.
i am sure you'll set will look HOT no matter what! i never cared about weight too much, but i gained some too recently & for some reason it bothers me more than ever before.
to you and your kitty. 
scandi_rose:
you'll be ok. trust me.
Thank god, I get my tax return on friday. Then I can buy my camera and start working again! There will be so many new SG's from Chicago, and Im so excited! I cant wait to do sets with some of them, Ive got a million and one ideas!
The one girl who I shot already, you know .. where the set came out blurry?...
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The one girl who I shot already, you know .. where the set came out blurry?...
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allycat_13:
I know your not one for drama so I was sure you wouldn't fret. Was just saying cause I cannot stand whiny ass bitches.
Go with the flow is how I live. Life shouldn't be about worrying about petty things.
Yeah, I tought he just bought another membership, but man were so many pissed that he was back. I was to a point of going to where he was and beating the crap out of him. He made her so miserable and all because she didn't take to his liking her. She just wasn't interested so he got real mean about being rejected.
I love me, if people can't take all what I say with a smile then their loss, not mine. I love people who speak their minds. Why be a coward and be quiet about what you dislike about others, etc. I will tell you your an idiot or a bitch or a C.
Tell people in move theaters to shut the F up if they are bothering me. Outspoken is what I am. I'm a sweetie for the most part, but will tell you the truth is need be.
Weeding out the weak.
For being kickass and truthful as well.
Go with the flow is how I live. Life shouldn't be about worrying about petty things.
Yeah, I tought he just bought another membership, but man were so many pissed that he was back. I was to a point of going to where he was and beating the crap out of him. He made her so miserable and all because she didn't take to his liking her. She just wasn't interested so he got real mean about being rejected.
I love me, if people can't take all what I say with a smile then their loss, not mine. I love people who speak their minds. Why be a coward and be quiet about what you dislike about others, etc. I will tell you your an idiot or a bitch or a C.
Tell people in move theaters to shut the F up if they are bothering me. Outspoken is what I am. I'm a sweetie for the most part, but will tell you the truth is need be.
Weeding out the weak.
For being kickass and truthful as well. 
s_eldorado:
Wow - that's incredible, I didn't realize OD's were a major cause of death in the over 30's.
I'm no expert anyway, I get most of my information from one of my closest friends who is also counsellor. She works heavily in harm reduction across the addiction spectrum. There's a fairly heavy emphasis on helping to prevent and deal with STD's and HIV. Her main traget demographic is people under 25, particularly homeless kids but she does all sorts of work outside of that.
I have huge respect for both of you, it's an extremely important job with very little public recognition and from what I can tell it's incredibly difficult and draining sometimes. I pretty sure I couldn't do it - but hey, I'm a wuss.
I'm no expert anyway, I get most of my information from one of my closest friends who is also counsellor. She works heavily in harm reduction across the addiction spectrum. There's a fairly heavy emphasis on helping to prevent and deal with STD's and HIV. Her main traget demographic is people under 25, particularly homeless kids but she does all sorts of work outside of that.
I have huge respect for both of you, it's an extremely important job with very little public recognition and from what I can tell it's incredibly difficult and draining sometimes. I pretty sure I couldn't do it - but hey, I'm a wuss.
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june:
I only have a sphynx, but I am getting
another in the late spring as a companion
for him.
My husband is allergic to cat hair, but is
ok with this breed.
I love your cats blus eyes. Mine has green.
To respond to your journal, yes alcohol can
make one act like a real
.
another in the late spring as a companion
for him
.
My husband is allergic to cat hair, but is
ok with this breed.
I love your cats blus eyes. Mine has green.
To respond to your journal, yes alcohol can
make one act like a real
.
rainwolfkin:
i had to stop smoking weed because i'm naturally very lazy and when i smoked i'd always fall asleep. but before we had this falling out (in my more energetic younger days) mary j was my best buddy too. ah, the nostalgia...
Gypsy
I haven't talked to my father since I was 15 because he was such an ass and I'd grown to dislike him immensely.
However, I've come to realize that he is fallible and capable of succumbing to any stupid mistake I can make. Even if he did make them, he's still my father.
No matter what, eventually that child will realize this and want to know things. So if it's necessary, they can grow up without a father just fine... but it will be a harder road for them to come to grips with themselves.