Thursday Aug 18, 2005

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my car's going out on me, i think. the power steering. the brakes. i have no real climate control.
i know nothing about cars, so i ask my father, but he's disinterested unless it's buggin him.
long story.

Boop.
phoolsfire:
ummm i think its your carburator, yeah thats it, breaks and power stearing are no big deal, i've driven a large vehicle without both, and those things are easily fixed. just take it to beechlers on the corner of university and war memorial. they'll fix that shite up right quick.

Tuesday Aug 16, 2005

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Things people call me (Namewise):
Lucas, Luc, Lukey-boy, Lu, Lucy, Lucs, Lucster, Les, Lester, Bud, Matthew, Matthew-McKuen, McKuen. Mr. Lucas, Lucas Howell, Mr. Brockwell, Dr. Brockwell.
Les T Brockwell.
Les Inept.
I dunno how much of that is actually endearing, but whatever.

Ok, i'm a filmmaker with a straight job. That's it. I resent it when people say that i'm a janitor. When people ask...
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I only believe in the death penalty for one crime: attempted suicide.

Nicknames I've had:
Sam, Samuel, Sammy. Sammy Jay, Samuel J, Samuel L, Samuel L Jackson. J-Bird. Jay-Z. Sam-Z. Heck. Heckmeister. Heckmeyer. Heckle. What-the-heck. Max. Chilly. Stone Cold. Snake. Past Tense. Petey. Um... I think that might be it.

Drunk, happy Phased signing off.

Monday Aug 15, 2005

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Next time i see Eric i'm gonna ask about the thing. yes.

I lost my pen, i'm gonna have to steal me another.

Here's a term i find myself loathing the more i hear itavid non-smoker. When did avid become a good thing? Doesnt it mean greedy and very desirous? Arent those bad things?
Dont they mean Avid Anti-Smoker? or Avid Anti-Smoking? Wtf?
Isnt calling...
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judas:
i'm pretty sure that avid means enthusiastic, which would definitely be the appropriate adjective. i, for one, am most certainly an avid-non-smoker. most people just call me the smoke nazi, though.

but, they call me a nazi for many reasons.

i'm a thigh man as well. there are times that my own thighs are virtually unbearable and "business" has to be taken care of.

shit, now i have that song in my head.

as for my father, i worry because he has gained a lot of weight since my mother had gastric bypass surgery, which is common because the one who's had the surgery ends up eating a lot less which means there are a lot of leftovers and midwesterners especially have this food leftover guilt thing that sucks. and, his mother just died, so i worry because things are compounding on him and i am very afraid that he's going to have a heart attack and die and i love him a whole shit load.

i told him all i want for xmas is for him to lose at least 15 lbs.
phoolsfire:
i thought you were a side of the booby man anyway.

i always get back on my feet...somtimes it may take a few years, or some sort of intervention, but i always get back to my regular crazy self.

i'm almost always in bed by 1130...but if you want to call early, thats cool too.

i'm not feelin the phone too much right now anyway. with partyies every friday night, my need to interact with others is compleatly meet...somtimes i just like to kick it with my cable..you know.

Sunday Aug 14, 2005

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***UPDATE***
Tomorrow--Guess The Body Part! That's right, kiddies, all this week i will scan parts of my body and post em--you get to guess which part of the body it is!
Cat's foot iron claw
Neuro-surgeons scream for more
At paranoia's poison door.
Twenty first century schizoid man.
Blood rack barbed wire
Polititians' funeral pyre
Innocents raped with napalm fire
Twenty first century schizoid man....
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YIKES

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low


{EDIT}
Hey wait: How can I be moderately this:
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. Histrionics also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative
And highly this:
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. Unlike avoidants, schizoids genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived by others as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Does that make any sense?

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Nah. I didn't answer yes to EVERYTHING. But I've had a lot of problems with depression and some really low self-esteem issues, so that puts me at risk for most of 'em.

Friday Aug 12, 2005

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***UPDATE***
this weekend is never going to end. i woke up thinking it was saturday--i should have just played along.
this sobriety thing is killing me.
i'm gonna crash, and its barely midnight. Too much valerian root.
And other such things.
So what do you do when you realize you have nothing in common with the people that occupy the area around you? I guess...
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Go see a band. Some bands are almost as good sober.
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I think it's (A)
But I'll give her a chance to explain.
We're getting together again tomorrow.

Wednesday Aug 10, 2005

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Out of weed, out of weed moneytime to sobre up, balance out. I'll tell ya this much, i'm through with the 'dro for the time beingnext time i'm going country. A fifty bag can last me two weeks.
And i'm looking forward to itthe clearheadedness. Kinda.
Loaded up with Valerian Root, St. Johns Wort. An ass-load of over-the-counter mellowness. If all else fails there's always...
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Tuesday Aug 09, 2005

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What would it take to make a women like you
Like a wolf like me for what I really might be
Listening to the lyrics, only here's what I allow
You gotta try and make me testify for here and right now
Lets have a confrontation over a cold one
I'll give you conversation just to see if you can hold em
I play so...
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judas:
it's cute how you quote my favourite atmosphere song...

oh, slug.
phoolsfire:
bummer dude, blackeyed
what else could i say

Monday Aug 08, 2005

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Eric Cheon. Eric is a med student that i had conversed with a number of times a bit agoi just saw him again tonight. He's from Chicago, used to DJ, grew up with the bassist from Spitalfield and has a friend in LA whose trying to get his film career up and going...whilst working at Blockbuster.
Things with JW dont seem to be working out...
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phoolsfire:
i thought you were gonna talk about something "erotic" like hot sex stuff, but instead it was a really long evaluation of the entertainment value of porn?

yeah, i haven't seen the cholate movie yet, we can go if thats what your getting at, thursday night ok?

i always thought a penis was a crutch....metaphorically speaking wink
phoolsfire:
why wouldn't the 10 pm show work on thursday?

Sunday Aug 07, 2005

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I have a really long, overly sexual post to do, but not today. It's mostly about porn and the twisted shit i've seen, but it's waaaaay too long to type up right now.
Tomorrow, maybe. It'll be worth it, it's funny.
You know, funny in my own way.

XXX: State of the Union sucks. i rented it cos i saw the first one--which sucked too....
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phoolsfire:
i love anything over sexual. with a name like xxx-state of the union, i would expect much more sex,but it sounds like that wasn't the point of the movie. frown

Saturday Aug 06, 2005

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Watched Twin Peaks Fire Walk With Me the other night. I did so mostly to give Lynch a second chance. Every once inna while a director'll shock me with a decent movie.
Nope. He still sucks.
I fucking cant stand that guy. Hack. Hack. Hack. Hack.

Sammy had me go see Stealth with him. He brought it up at the worst possible moment.
I had...
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phoolsfire:
no ian and i are not an item, he feels the need to let everyone know that he and i are firends and that we have some sort of history together...this is not true of course, hes all about the inside jokes and other bullshit like that, but those are just some of his better qualities. ...i could go on but why...

uh, yeah i would feel bad that you wasted your money on a movie that sucked, but you knew what you were in for.
have you seen the chocolate factory yet?
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Scud Mountain Boys are... sad... quiet... twangy. Ever hear of the Perniece Brothers? It's them...

Thursday Aug 04, 2005

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Why is my answer to every insult or dirty propisition, "Nah, i'm straight?"
Is there something wrong with me?

I like being high. I can do anything highi can maneuver stairs and piss with only a modicum of fly problems. I can smoke less. I can drive (short) distances, write with, if not perfect grammar, my usual grammar, and find an appreciation for commercials that...
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Anxiety is better.
Depression is fucking miserable. Which is probably why they call it depression, come to think of it.
Anyway, when you're depressed, you see no value in anything. Nothing make you happy nothing excites you, nothing motivates you. There were times when I was too depressed to masturbate. Now that's depression, son.
phoolsfire:
i get anxiety some times. it usually goes away with a few drinks, i get bouts of depression about every few months. and then everything is surreal. and that sucks.

so tell me about your lady frind and what not. confused and spaghettio's or hwatever.
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