Its odd, because everythings here. Its all in intervalslight, sound, light, soundyou focus too long it gets black, all except what yr looking at. The music makes yr heart beat into yr throat.
The times here, it ticks by faster, then slower. Faster, then slower. Faster, slower, faster, slower, fasterbut it always comes out even.
Driving with this, maneuvering in any fog is difficult, this...
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The times here, it ticks by faster, then slower. Faster, then slower. Faster, slower, faster, slower, fasterbut it always comes out even.
Driving with this, maneuvering in any fog is difficult, this...
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Blah, blah, blah. The weekend didnt totally suck--i never said i was psychic, damnit.
The bag is almost gone. i got about a bowl left. I'm saving for when i watch Requiem For A Dream.
Been lazy very much alot recently. this has to do with recent habits and the like. It's all going back to normal inna sec.
i wrote some other stuff but...
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The bag is almost gone. i got about a bowl left. I'm saving for when i watch Requiem For A Dream.
Been lazy very much alot recently. this has to do with recent habits and the like. It's all going back to normal inna sec.
i wrote some other stuff but...
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runk:
While amusing, I am thankful the confusion is over. I've only got so much brain dust left.
phoolsfire:
he was bitching about pegans, he was christian, and stupid... so that was ultimalty the most unproductive conversation i've had....so far this year. 
this weekend is gonna suckhardi can tell.
I had a dream (NIGHTMARE!!!) about my basement being filled with red-hot-metal and smoldering bones. There was something else going on, but i cant remember much...cos... YESTERDAY WAS 4:20!!
Unfortunately i had no idea until i went to update my journal and PhoolsFire mentioned it. By then i was way too up to do anything about it.
I've...
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I had a dream (NIGHTMARE!!!) about my basement being filled with red-hot-metal and smoldering bones. There was something else going on, but i cant remember much...cos... YESTERDAY WAS 4:20!!
Unfortunately i had no idea until i went to update my journal and PhoolsFire mentioned it. By then i was way too up to do anything about it.
I've...
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phoolsfire:
i almost always feel like killing somehting 
is it always ok to look?because i look quite a bit lately and its gettn me nowhere.
i always used to puke after smoking if i was also drinking.
so i'll be in peoria on saturday to get my shitty car fixed again, but it'll be during the day? so....
maybe we could get lunch and shoot the shit or somtin
is it always ok to look?because i look quite a bit lately and its gettn me nowhere.
i always used to puke after smoking if i was also drinking.
so i'll be in peoria on saturday to get my shitty car fixed again, but it'll be during the day? so....
maybe we could get lunch and shoot the shit or somtin 
figmentation:
damnit. you cahgned again!
I don't know who you are anymore!
I don't know who you are anymore!
are ull drug-dealers unreliable? i mean, first Jed and now AJ. AJ is giving me the run around--i told him i'd buy a bag offa him sunday and he has yet to produce.
first he said he fotgot it, then, yesterday, he said he didnt have time to get it before work.
today he tells me that his dude's out of town--wtf?
he said ten...
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first he said he fotgot it, then, yesterday, he said he didnt have time to get it before work.
today he tells me that his dude's out of town--wtf?
he said ten...
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phoolsfire:
happy 4-20 day you can get the supermario brothers ring tone, you have to tell me where 
now i just want to smoke pot and play super mario brothers.
you can get the supermario brothers ring tone, you have to tell me where
now i just want to smoke pot and play super mario brothers.
Bob, Nice Guy Bobby. Nice Guy Bobby is the name I have mentally scrolled on the profile on him in my head. Labeled as such because hes a really, really nice guy. Sammy and I went over to his house as to work out what we were doing Saturday night.
The previous plan was to hang out a bit, go to a diner, hit some...
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figmentation:
for the blonde joke
phoolsfire:
DO NOT GET SUCKED IN:
hear these words and hede their caution. as a sailor and a female i can only tell you that being in an environment where women get paid to shove their crotch and tits in your face is only "fun" for so long before it becomes.....a little too surreal. but lecture aside, everyone enjoys a good night out with the ladies. hope you had some fun, and dooo take it what its for, good clean entertainment, (i just happen to know strippers have some of the cleanest body parts of all accessable womens).
hear these words and hede their caution. as a sailor and a female i can only tell you that being in an environment where women get paid to shove their crotch and tits in your face is only "fun" for so long before it becomes.....a little too surreal. but lecture aside, everyone enjoys a good night out with the ladies. hope you had some fun, and dooo take it what its for, good clean entertainment, (i just happen to know strippers have some of the cleanest body parts of all accessable womens).
Ever been so drunk you cant work a Zippo? yeah, me too.
it's seven thirty-nine in the AM and i've got a Russian buzz going.
i just saw my parents off for their bi-yearly vacation, and being alone isnt the bees knees, nor is ir as lonely as the poets say.
Why the drinking so early? well, alseep by two, up by four--i had a...
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it's seven thirty-nine in the AM and i've got a Russian buzz going.
i just saw my parents off for their bi-yearly vacation, and being alone isnt the bees knees, nor is ir as lonely as the poets say.
Why the drinking so early? well, alseep by two, up by four--i had a...
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figmentation:
it's funny you say that...
Timagain is over in africa... I'll ask him if he enjoyed my ration of hot water...
Timagain is over in africa... I'll ask him if he enjoyed my ration of hot water...
Sometimes i feel lost and i dunno why... on with it.
I got home from hanging out with Guey, was sitting on the couch, watching a Venture Bros. rerun, when i felt a really kinda powerfully sharp pain in the inner thigh of my right leg. Feeling around to investigate, i came across a bump.
Immediately the cancer centre in my brain went haywireTESTICULAR CANCER!...
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I got home from hanging out with Guey, was sitting on the couch, watching a Venture Bros. rerun, when i felt a really kinda powerfully sharp pain in the inner thigh of my right leg. Feeling around to investigate, i came across a bump.
Immediately the cancer centre in my brain went haywireTESTICULAR CANCER!...
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figmentation:
nope... I think we just have a smaller heat tank... I can't take a bath and get a shower in the same sitting... not enough hot water. But we can run the dishwasher, clothes washer, shower and flush all at the same time and there's enough water for it. I 've no idea.
phoolsfire:
again, if your wacked out reasoning and my wacked out reasoning had children, it would be the beginnign of the end for all. hope your boil gets better..*ha* sorry, i can't help but laugh, not at you but.... because its funny,
have a good weekend.
have a good weekend.
Weekend's here--it's gonna suck, i can tell.
Did go and hang out w/Guey last nite, he helped me with encoding et al.
I doubt i've mentioned this, but he's a musician. Kinda. He's a producer and a composer--emphasis on POSER. He makes weird, experiemental house music, techno and stuff. He's decent on guitar--he just bought a new one. With all the Sam-Free time, i believe...
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Did go and hang out w/Guey last nite, he helped me with encoding et al.
I doubt i've mentioned this, but he's a musician. Kinda. He's a producer and a composer--emphasis on POSER. He makes weird, experiemental house music, techno and stuff. He's decent on guitar--he just bought a new one. With all the Sam-Free time, i believe...
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cipher:
Man, I am so behind on reading people's journals. Fuck it, in fact.
In answer to your query: I believe the difference is more on of location than of content. Sort of like how a hero, a hoagy, and a sub are all the same thing.
Good luck on a non-shitty weekend.
And I have been digging on enigmatic lately. It's for the best, really (see comments on torture).
In answer to your query: I believe the difference is more on of location than of content. Sort of like how a hero, a hoagy, and a sub are all the same thing.
Good luck on a non-shitty weekend.
And I have been digging on enigmatic lately. It's for the best, really (see comments on torture).
phoolsfire:
well yes cream of wheat and cement are comprised of the same common elements, but grits are made from corn, i think and cream of wheat from wheat, and porridge from oats or milllet or barley or any mixture of grain.
grab this weekend by the balls and ream it a new asshole fuck it till its blue in the face.
grab this weekend by the balls and ream it a new asshole
fuck it till its blue in the face. headache, tired, bored. supposed to go to pekin tonight and hand with g, get some work done. dunno if i wanna.
i was gonna do something tonight, but decided against it because i cant do anything i want anytime i want.
damnit.
aj brought in a bag today, still trying to make me a customer. it was the smallest bag i've ever seen. the size...
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i was gonna do something tonight, but decided against it because i cant do anything i want anytime i want.
damnit.
aj brought in a bag today, still trying to make me a customer. it was the smallest bag i've ever seen. the size...
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phoolsfire:
you've never seen the classic black and white movie called
FREAKS. it about this high society trapeases artist who marries into the circus freak world and at first the freaks accept her by chanting
"one of us, one of us, we accept her, one of us, google goggle, one of.." very freaky for a nine year old to watch when mom has to work late and big sis is left to baby sit. they have, (had) it in your local public library, in the art department, go and rent it imeeeediently.
why would you want to forget today, humility is the bloodlife of exsistance....i just made that up.
i just recently found out that an "eigth" costs like alot of money, i remember when it was like 20 bucks.
FREAKS. it about this high society trapeases artist who marries into the circus freak world and at first the freaks accept her by chanting
"one of us, one of us, we accept her, one of us, google goggle, one of.." very freaky for a nine year old to watch when mom has to work late and big sis is left to baby sit. they have, (had) it in your local public library, in the art department, go and rent it imeeeediently.
why would you want to forget today, humility is the bloodlife of exsistance....i just made that up.
i just recently found out that an "eigth" costs like alot of money, i remember when it was like 20 bucks.
I must preface this post with: I have an over-exaggerated sense of purpose.
Ok.
i got alotta shit today over what i wore. Not because it was offensive or obscene, per se, but because of the colors.
Lite, brightish olive green pants and a powder blue security shirt.
It started with Jerry talking about how the colors clashed, how they didnt match whatsoever.
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Ok.
i got alotta shit today over what i wore. Not because it was offensive or obscene, per se, but because of the colors.
Lite, brightish olive green pants and a powder blue security shirt.
It started with Jerry talking about how the colors clashed, how they didnt match whatsoever.
He didnt...
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figmentation:
orgiional personalities don't announce themselves..
and what's up with the name change?
and what's up with the name change?
phoolsfire:
"one of us..one of us"
ummm, as one midwesterner to another, you could either join a band, or become an artist or find a job thats a little less superficial. otherwise, your lookin at the good world of outward apearence conforming to the inner workings of the job. i like to think however, that just because i look like everyone else, doesn't mean i'm not holdin any goods. you dig?
ummm, as one midwesterner to another, you could either join a band, or become an artist or find a job thats a little less superficial. otherwise, your lookin at the good world of outward apearence conforming to the inner workings of the job. i like to think however, that just because i look like everyone else, doesn't mean i'm not holdin any goods. you dig?
500$ on clothes. *bangs head on desk*
I'm clothed adequately, I'm not naked or homeless. I'm not behind trends because i never fell into any real trend. My shoes have holes in em, but they're still functional.
So, why'd i buy new shoes? The exact same kind, same colour, same thing?
Do i really need 130$ of more offensive t-shirts?
WTF is wrong with me?...
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I'm clothed adequately, I'm not naked or homeless. I'm not behind trends because i never fell into any real trend. My shoes have holes in em, but they're still functional.
So, why'd i buy new shoes? The exact same kind, same colour, same thing?
Do i really need 130$ of more offensive t-shirts?
WTF is wrong with me?...
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figmentation:
ok. don't take the tags off... take it back
phoolsfire:
"gimme gimme gimme, i need i neeeed" *lol*
welcome to my disease last week alone i spent 300, and that was an average week.
if only we could some how channel our penchant for disposing of cash into something constructive, like a savings account.
welcome to my disease last week alone i spent 300, and that was an average week.
if only we could some how channel our penchant for disposing of cash into something constructive, like a savings account.
Sammys off on a social jag. This happens every so often, whenever he starts hanging out with actual peoplenot people he meets online when hes playing his goofy assed games.
The kid feels socially inadequate. He hears of the great social conquests of the guys at work and immediately wants to go out and work up some stories himself.
Something to tell on those boring...
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The kid feels socially inadequate. He hears of the great social conquests of the guys at work and immediately wants to go out and work up some stories himself.
Something to tell on those boring...
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phoolsfire:
if your satuday night and my saturday night got together, it might be a cuase for suicide.
i think there was a time when i didn't like beer, waaaay back in the day, if your interested in starting a palatable acquistion for the stuff, i could send you a list of good uns to start out on.
" you like a certain type of guy, so all the guys essentially have something in common, you know--so the first guy you loved (i'm guessing it was the first guy) will have a lasting effect, yeah? so every guy yr with, you'll see bits of him in em."...
ummm, the first love, he ended up in prison because of his hippy lifestyle and his "love of the cheeb" the second was waaaay different, think of the guy from American psycho and i'd like to think i'm beyond types...even though theres probally some truth in this...maybe. i was talking more about my morbid and sick obsession to seek out old loves...you know the drunken phone call at 3am and desperatly try to rekindle some sick idealized bullshit...see the 12 person rule...anywho
sooo i dig the poem or song or whatever,... its very fitting to my situaltion...i think?
your pictures make you seem more like a deep dark serial killer, is that what you were goin for?, i think you look more like a cute whimsicle serial killer... uhhh.. well different than your pictures anyway.
i think there was a time when i didn't like beer, waaaay back in the day, if your interested in starting a palatable acquistion for the stuff, i could send you a list of good uns to start out on.
" you like a certain type of guy, so all the guys essentially have something in common, you know--so the first guy you loved (i'm guessing it was the first guy) will have a lasting effect, yeah? so every guy yr with, you'll see bits of him in em."...
ummm, the first love, he ended up in prison because of his hippy lifestyle and his "love of the cheeb" the second was waaaay different, think of the guy from American psycho and i'd like to think i'm beyond types...even though theres probally some truth in this...maybe. i was talking more about my morbid and sick obsession to seek out old loves...you know the drunken phone call at 3am and desperatly try to rekindle some sick idealized bullshit...see the 12 person rule...anywho
sooo i dig the poem or song or whatever,... its very fitting to my situaltion...i think?
your pictures make you seem more like a deep dark serial killer, is that what you were goin for?, i think you look more like a cute whimsicle serial killer... uhhh.. well different than your pictures anyway.
I am always facinated with comercials their so crazy