8spiders

Almost the new year.

Lots of changes I need to make in the next year. Tell you the truth, I'm scared.

Someone once told me the only way to be brave is if you're scared. Sounds like it make sense... but I dunno.

I think this is the year I go for it though. I reach out and graze the future with my fingertips...

Party and Bullshit. Can't we just all get along? So I can put hickies on her chest like Li'l Shawn, get her pissy drunk off of Don Perrignon. And it's on, and I'm gone... that's that.

Everyone's birthday this weekend. Valentine babies, ya think? Been out partying and well wishing and bullshit.

I seem to focus on how tenuous life is. It really could be...
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Kickin' it off with Quarashi: "Tamborine Cut" and Coolio "Hand on my Nutsac".

Watching pirated episodes of The Tick for breakfast = #1.

I used to spend Thanksgiving with my mother and whatever stragglers that didn't want to spend time with family, or had no family to spend it with. Eric would always come over.

After my mom moved I'd go over to Eric's and...
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Woke up pushing aside cans and bottles. Fell out of bed and couldn't remember too well how I got there. Looking around, I realized that someone had brought Laura and I a 12 pack, on top of the two 6 packs we had in the fridge.

It was beer armageddon. An alcohol holocaust.

Was up with Laura until 5:30 just talking about shit like we...
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Last night I was at Rock and Roll karaoke and had a blast, even though I'm paying for it today.

I feel like total ass. I don't get sick often, but when I do it totally kicks the shit out of me.

Other than that... I don't know what's going on with me. I feel like a recluse. I dig hanging out in my room,...
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New ink.

Boo-yaw.

Collected myself. Shovelled up all the glass and chunky bits of meat and heart flesh, threw it into a plastic bag and mopped up the bits of blood.

I keep going.

One blow after another and your vision can start to blur. Your eyes and cheeks swell... The blood rushing to treat your wounds like cherry tressed nurses. Your head swims from a brain sloshing...
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It's that time again boys and girls....

The Devil you know

or

The Devil you don't

I had been rejected. Hard. You know how it goes.

Truth be told, I thought it was over a guy. I thought to myself, "Fuck, I've been left for someone else again."

It was only sorta true.

See, when I met this girl we really hit it off. I mean like, I thought she could be "The One" and I don't believe in that....
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Just now, it occurred to me that Techies and Programmers are the Ronin of our modern day America.

After the dotcom crash there were tons of people with really useful computer-related skills, but without work. Now they serve corporations or small business, most just work temp jobs and do consulting on the side... making enough money to get by but not really holding down anything....
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